I think I need a drink some days with my friends and just my friends. I am lacking my own time with my friends and have this feeling that I've let down my friends, whenever they ask me out, I will reject them due to my boyfriend. I had always placed my friends before my boyfriend and recently I tend to shift the attention to my boyfriend and neglect my friends. Sorry to all my friends, close friends and buddy.

As a result, I felt kinda lost as I have no idea who to turn to when I needed a shoulder to lean on, and who to turn to when I needed someone to cheer me up.

At times, I felt that my smile and laugh are so fake recently. Not deep down from my heart. Am I not happy with myself or my surrounding environment? Or am I just not contented? I've got no idea. I think I am the problem and I think I need to do something to mend my problems. But how am I going do solve all the problems (or are they really problems at the first place, I don't know).

Getting so vexed recently. Just want to be alone, locking myself up from the people outside, didn't want to interact with anyone outside this few days. Maybe I've been out everyday and hasn't really been spending my time at home recently, which I've lost a sense of belonging already.

Mum always ask me "Is his temper good?", I'll say ok loh. But I never really think in depth whether he is really ok with his temper. Sigh. I'm vexed, very vexed. Don't want to be disturbed by anyone.

I've been thinking about my future and marriage. I want a stable family and a happy marriage. Started to think of whether he is the right choice for myself to spend the rest of my life with? Will I be happy with him? But I don't even have a slightest thinking to getting married to him. The more I want to aim to get marry by the age 28, the more I will think a lot and feel that the person I'm with is not the person I will want to spend my whole life with.

What should I do? Argh~~

Trisa a.k.a. SaSa
15th December 1984
Sagittarian
Full-Time Marcomm Manager
Part-Time MDIS B.S. Student
Innotec Solutions Pte Ltd
B.S. of Arts in Mass Comm - OCU



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