Sunday, April 30, 2006
Feeling bored in my shop, so started writing my thoughts on paper now. Ordered a book from Reader's Digest costing $89, teaching readers how to write and speak better. Indeed, the book is a brilliant book. Why did I say so? Because I really feel that I learn a lot from this book. It's really worth the price, and the book can be kept for life.
Looking at some guys who shop in my shop and realise that some guys really do shop for their girls. I came across one guy yesterday, coming in to the shop to buy a box to put a bag, which I suspect is for his girlfriend. Seeing guys picking gifts and accessories for their partne, you can feel a sudden warmth at your heart, why? Coz they really make you feel so happy, even thought the gift is not for me.
Thoughts of mine runs abit and some unpleasant thinking I should say came gushing in. Sometimes I do think, having a 100% trusting boyfriend isn't always perfect. I admit that I want a guy who trust me, but with a guy who trust me so much that he won't bother about my whereabout and whether I'm out with other guys isn't that good after all. Whyisn;t he afraid that I'll split lages?? Why isn't he afraid that I fall in love with other guys (like Jun Hong, whom I'm very close with)? Why isn't he afraid that one fine day, I might be gone and he done even know (or may the last to know)? May whys came running in and I suppose no answers are found to it as yet.
My feel now is just like some dead person. All numb, don't feel anything. The only thing I feel now is that me and him (as in my darling) is more like friends rather than couples. We can, in one/two weeks not SMS each other, not talk to each other, nothing.
Did I made wrong choice? So what if I did? It's my choice, who can I blame? Maybe I'm too sensitive. Or maybe I'm a think-too-much type of person.
Alright, out of this topic. Mummy asked me when I buying my new mobile phone, coz she said still owe me $200 for my last year's birthday present. I told her there isn't a need to coz she has already bought me a laptop. I shouldn't ask for do much.
I got my progress package money already. YEAH!! Decided to use that money to buy handphone & for my driving lessons. Mummy knows that I have extra money in my account, asked me to buy her Mother's Day gift. Well, I don't mind buying her the gift if she don't mind accepting it, just go and pick one and I'll pay. Really!!! It's for you Mummy.
I'll go to 'Accent' to buy my mouthpiece & ligature very soon, next week or the week after. I finally have my very own Bass Clarinet Mouthpiece & Ligature. Hurray!!! But $200++ will be gone after that. *SAD*
Hope today will be a smooth day throughout. Continue my reading on "How to Write & Speak Better".
love goes around | 12:34 AM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Working & working & working - it's my life for the past 4 days, and I still have 2 more days to go. Actually, I'm rather tired, but I need to check my emails, hoping for an improtant mail which fails to deliver. Sigh. It got me right, my co-ordinator really is slow in doing her job, and I promise that I'll lodge her a complain letter very soon. Not only me who is unable to tolerate her inefficiency, I belive that the other people from my class have the same feeling as me.
Today, my shop was crowded with people during the evening time. Luckily I had my meal early today, if not I'm very sure I will not have even a second to eat my dinner. I was pressing the cash register every 10 mins for each transaction, and at the same time serving like 2 -3 customers, the feel was like I am going to split into multi-person to do multi-tasking. Coming to think about it, it's rather stress, being only one person (and that's me) looking after a shop, at the same time collecting money and serving customers.
At times, I saw couples walking in to the shop, I'll feel so sweet for them. guess I have been lack of all this lovey lovey, sweet sweet times already, thus I'm indulge in seeing other couples in those sweet sweet relationship, and at the same time envying the fortunate little girl. Whenever I see them, my face will have a slight grin, and it happens just like that. Well, count me as imaginative, I like to imagine and love to be like one of the main character in those Taiwan Drama Series with sweet sweet stories and lead. Arrrgggghhhhh....***Imagining Again...***
I know he, as in my darling won't read my blog, so I can loudly say this here. Muhahaha.
Today, I only manage to leave my shop at 10.10pm coz really too many people patronizing the shop, I don't even have the time to sweep the floor and draw down the roller gate. it's my first time today to collect less moeny from customer. Count the customer lucky that I only realise that after I'm a bit more free. I realise that I key in the wrong figure for the "Pillow Clock", which should be $27.90, and I enter the amount as $22.70. What am I thinking man!! In the end, i have to fork out $5.20 to pay up for the balance that I collected less. What a lucky customer.
I was damn tired after I finish calculating the money and doing the closing for the day, and how much that I wish that when I tilt up my head, i can see my darling's face. Standing outside my shop, looking at me, giving me a suprise. Wah~ I'M IMAGINING AGAIN. The senario was just like in those Taiwan Idol Drama Series, always like to imagine. But I really wish mah, only that he is not those romantic type, and not the type that will give suprises. Think back, he didn't really give me any suprises, not on my birthday or Anniversary. *SAD* Having a don't bother type of boyfriend isn't that great at all, though 100% freedom is given, but '
where is the love'.
On my way home, I called Karen
(my daughter) and with hearing a guy speaking to me, I was kinda shock. After listening harder, i realise it's WeiXiang. Chat chat with him for awhile about band stuff as well as some clubbing stuff, then realise that I called Karen, and I should be talking to Karen, why am I talking to him?? Hmmm *thinking* Thenk after talking to Karen for a while, he said want to talk to me for 1 minute, which ended up into don't know how many minutes. Called Karen's mobile but kinda talk to WeiXiang longer, don't know why. Well, as usual he is TALKATIVE. =P Muhahaha. *BLEAH*
~Yawnzz~ I'm tired already, though my eyes is still wide awake, but I must go and catch my sleep already. I still have 2 more days to go. Chiong arh~~~
love goes around | 12:32 AM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Had been a long day since I leave home today. It's the 2nd day of my 6 day full shift work, it's beginning to drain me out like hell already.
Reached home and realise I have many things to do, even though I have already printed out my Project report and prepare to submit it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.
Reached home, before I could even rest, I gota hook on to the computer to send email to many people. First, I send the alumni member instrument usage list to HuiMin as she needs it for her committee meeting coming Saturday, and after that send an email to Theng Fang regarding my school timetable schedule, coz she ask if I am able to help her work or not. Busy, busy, busy.
Not long after I finish sending the email, I got to learn this shocking news from Jacqueline that Laoshi is unable to conduct the alumni band this coming Sat, and ask us to look for a replacement Alumni member to conduct for the day. Argh, why suddenlt so many things happen. I can't be there this coming Saturday and so manything is going to occur this very Saturday. Why why WHY??? Now, I gota look for somemore to help conduct the band. I wanted to approach Salleh for help, but I know he is going to send Nidu off with theirPoser Inc group of people, so think I can forget about asking him. So I choose another alternative, and that is to ask Keith to help conduct the band. If he can't and no body wants to take up the position of conducting, then I guess I have to change the practice to Sunday instead.
Gosh!!! What should I do. It's just going to have a committee election, and there is so many things happen to the Alumni Band. I'm going to fall, having a great fall soon man. Someone please support me front the floor.
love goes around | 11:59 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Have been rather busy yesterday. After going for my driving lesson early in the morning at 10am, went to help my mum pay the house rental at HDB. Along the way I saw my ex-colleague, Uncle Peter and we went for a drink at the McDonald. Saw some of his wife and daughter (Sophie) neoprint, so sweet. Gald that he found a new lover. Happy Marriage Peter.
During my driving lesson, I learn another new parking, which is the perpendicular parking. After doing my paralle parking, my driving instructor as me to proceed with perpendicular parking. Parelle parking ( full turn to the left when the pole hits the top corner of the back windscreen, one turn back when 2nd pole is paralle to the car body, and when the 1st pole reaches the left corner of the windscreen, turn right all the way.) Perpendicular parking (when the 1st pole hit the middle of the back wind screen, turn one round to the left, if it moves down, then turn half round back to the right, and when it moved back to the middle of the back windscreen, turn half round to the left again. When it reaches the top corner of the back wind screen, full turn to the left.) Wah~~ getting more and more stress le wor..
After I reach home, I had my Korean Spicy Instant Noodle (refeshes my memories at Holland when we had it for our supper and dinner replacement.) After eating the noodles, I proceeeded on to cotinue with my GP cover page. Design for the cover page for about an hour before I finish everything. Before I realise, it's already 4pm, which I have to leave home for school coz I meeting Lewis at bandroom at 4.45pm. But as usual, due to my slow printer, I can only leave my house at around 5.30pm. Sigh.
The bandroom was pack with people, coz there is super many Year 1s. Just like in the past. I hope that history won't enact again, that is in a few months time, only left a few people. Haha. All the best NYPWO. But I really hope that the year 1s will know all the rules and regulations. When borrowing indtruments, please sign out the instrument with the QM, and scores must put back to the original place, don't anyhow put. Must always come for practices on time. Ya. Oh yah, and the instruments that all the current band members are using might have a chance of sharing it with the alumni members of the Alumni Band.
Today is the first day of my consequtive 6 full day work. So far so good. Today's sales not bad, even with me using my laptop to edit my project. I did a rather stupid thing today. I accidentally skretch my laptop cover. My heartaches once I see the skretch. It's like knife pirecing into my heart. Poor lappy. Think i must bring my lappy for wrapping service some time soon. If not I can't imagine my lappy with some more skretches, I'll cry.
Had a chat with one of my net friend who is enlisting soon. I just told him to spend more time with his girlfriend coz when he enlist, he will have lesser time for her and she will feel rather neglected. And I was so shocked that he actually told his girlfriend this," If you want to look for a new boyfriend, go ahead". How can he say this to his girlfriend, this type of things will leave in the heart forever one. I did this before and really utterly regretted it back then. know it shouldn't be done. I know he is also a Sagittarian and our character is almost the same, that is put family and friends in front of partners, as well as think of what say what. But I gradually feel that it shouldn't be the way. That's why I try to tell him that he shouldn't be like that. Whatever he say, must always think twice before saying and partner if not before friends, should also be atthe same level with friends, and sometimes more important than friends. Actually I realise this recently, after I had my darling. Hee.
Therefore, I feel that everyone should cherish what they have now, and not leave anything to regret in future. What is the point of regretting when there is not turning back after everything has already happen. One advace to all people, be it in a relationship or not, " Cherish whatever you should cherish, so that you won't regret later. Never leave anything to regret in future. You won't know what will happen tomorrow too, who know's. So cherish anyone that is important to you, your family members, friends, and even your partner.
Tomorrow will be another long day. Take good care of yourself. Won't be blogging tomorrow I guess.
love goes around | 11:59 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Just finish my 2nd last part of my GP assignment, still left with evaluation part of the assignment for me to mug on. Hopefully, I can finish the last part of the GP assignment tomorrow and on Tuesday I can then read through and edit the assignment, plus design my cover page for the assignment.
Went to SWE section meeting just now. I was a short meeting though. Now, SWE change it's name to don't know what Soka... (I can't remember, it was such a long name). There is a rule ther now that friends are to chant 3 times before and after the practice. I'm fine with it coz it's their religion thing, but the problem is I find it rather strange to go to band and hen once enter and I have to bend down on my knees and chant 3 times before I proceed on to do my stuff. I'm not use to this practice. For the one after that, which is a full group chant, then it would seems better. But anyway, I won't be able to go back for regular practices too as the time exactly clashes with my NYP Alumni Band time. Well, of coz I'll go back the Alumni Band rather than SWE, since I have more friends at the Alumni Band than SWE. Sometimes, I just feel so lost there, without Jun Hong, Gen Qing and Eng Soon they all around. I didn't stay for their practice today, and they have a clarinet emsemble performance at YMS on 18th Jun 06, 6pm. I agreed to help since Vanessa asked. So wait for them to contact me then.
After that, I went to Dohby Ghaut to meet up with Ah Siak for some arcade. As usual, we played DDR, then Time Crisis II, and another game of DDR again. I get to know a new friend of his, called Bao Rong (quite charming looking guy.. hehe.. but not my type.. wahaha) After gaming, I initially wanted to meet Jun Hong for gym, but coz I'm having flu and a bit of coughing, I didn't intend to workout today. I told Jun Hong that I'll accompany home to workout, I see and he do. I didn't think so much, therefore I didn't bring my workout suit out. After much thinking, find it abit wierd, with me going in wearing polo-t, with jeans and sandals, looking at him workout. Wah, it's rather embarrassing. In the end, I say he go for the workout himself and I can go home. I actually feel guilty as I agreed him to accompany him, but in the end. Sorry Buddy, next time sure go with you, when I'm healthy and kicking.
So I accompany Ah Siak instead to shop around Bugis Village for he wants to look for jeans as well as a top. In the end, he didn't get anything but me, who is trying to save money bought myself a pair of pants. This pants is a very pro and unique type of pants. For people who like Xiao Zong, might have see this pants before. Bought it for $15 (usual price was $18). I bluff bluff abit say I no money left for the week to eat after buying the pants (in front of the shop owner), and the agreed to sell me at $15, which she initially didn't want to. One very good trick, if the price is not your desired price, then say this "like that arh.. then nevermind loh, I'll buy it another time" and the store keeper will sure ask you to come back and give you a special price. Hehe.
Afetr I wake up, I have to go for work again. It's my last work time from 12pm - 6pm. From Wednesday onwards, I'll have to work from 12pm - 9pm daily, until 1st of May. Then I'll have less time to blog here coz my assignment dateline also round the corner, 29th April, before 2pm. Sigh. Can't go to alumni band practice coming Sat, will need to find someone to help me make announcements. I have super many announcements to make on that day, coz of the Committee Member Election. Sigh. Anyone wants to volunteer to help me make announce and look after the band?? Tag me k??
Time to sleep. Goodnight. zZZzzZzzzZZzzzZZZzzz
love goes around | 11:59 PM
There was a Year One Tune In Session for NYPSO yesterday and I went. Thought I'm late for the morning session, but I still reached to see them playing "Matchstick Burning Butt". Actually, have no idea what they are playing also coz a lot of people is running around, catching one another. In the end, it seems like the whole group are running. Then we under the shade (for your information, they are playing under the hot sun at the Stadium at 11.30am) was thinking, must well ask them to run 2.4km. Haha.
After that, they went back to Bandroom, settled down and instruments are assigned to them. Before lunch, LaoShi warm them up with Eb Major scale (if I'm not wrong), and after that is lunch time.
Me and Xiu Xiu ate the muslim package, and we sat with LaoShi, coz we saw laoshi sitting along. Chat with laoshi a while then don't know what to say already. And as I expected, laoshi really watch "Da Chang jin". Haha.
After that, we went back to bandroom for practices. Played all the songs that we are expected to play, with one more piece that I super long didn't play, and my fingers can't run. Yes, that's it - Fantasy Variations". Crazy man, thanks to all of them, suggesting laoshi to play that crazy song, which I'm not prepared to play. In the end, I play until like shit. *Sad*
After staying in the bandroom for awhile playing all those corky songs, me and darling headed home (my house) while Lewis and XiuXiu went to Jurong East and Bishan respectively. I reached home slightly before 6pm, to have dinner with my family, coz it's by mum's birthday. We went to Sembawang Shopping Centre to have our dinner at one of the restaurant. It's not a high class restaurant of course, and there were a lot of people queue for their turn. Food there were nice, and was really filling. I doesn't really cost alot, a table of food for 6 person with 2 soups and 5 side dishes, only at $60. Cool?? Haha, next time can go there for dinner or lunch in a group.
After that, shop around at the shopping centre. Return home after that to cut cake for my mum's birthday. Darling left to go home at around 10.35pm, after his O2Jam game. Haha.
Today, I was sick. Sigh. Keep sneezing and flu. Coughing also. Sigh. Immune system is getting weaker and weaker. Later still have to go for a section meeting with SWE, then I'll most probably meet Ah Siak, coz he say he was bored.
I'll enter till here. Still have one section of my project not done yet, I have only one week left to finish everything up. A za a za fighting..
love goes around | 12:57 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
Yoz.. I'm back again after a day of rest (coz I didn't blog yesterday). I was busy doing my GP yesterday, but still I haven't finish it. Sigh.
Just came back from the Sakae Sushi Buffet at Causeway Point. Went for the buffet with 2 guys, yes 2 guys *blush*, they are Zhongxi & Bryan. That two guys was so scary, once we are assigned to our table, they began picking up plates and plates of food and gobbling them all up. Before I have even started, they have already finished 5 plates of food already. The both of them were just like the hungry ghost been just release out from their jail man. I had alot too, coz it's buffet, so if I don't eat until I can't, it won't forgive myself. Haha. I was so so so so sooooooo full just now and I nearly can't walk. the food is like just below my mouth, and I can feel that if I open my mouth and just burp, I will vomit. Haha, that's how full I am.
After paying up, we went to arcade and walk one round (this time we didn't play). After that shop around CWP before heading home.
Tomorrow will be the Year One's Welcome Tea for NYPSO, hope that the current committee and band members will make majority of the year ones stay. The band cannot afford to lost any more members, and I don't want to see the band collapse. Anyway, tomorrow I'll be going down to help out (if I do have any help to them), if not I'll be there kpo and play music and have fun. May it be a full succeed tomorrow.
Tomorrow is my mum's birthday, well should be today coz it's pass 12mn now. Happy Birthday Mummy, may you be pretty and cheerful everyday. I'll be a good girl and will study hard for the sake of you all have a better living in the future. Hee. Will be having dinner with my family tomorrow to celebrate my mum's birthday. Asked my darling along, as my mum requested, but no idea if he still remember or not. Just SMS him but no reply, guess he didn't see the message as usual. Forever like that, don't know his handphone is for show or for contacting purposes.
Think I'll end here. Take care peez. Bye...
love goes around | 11:59 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I'm here today again.. I'm getting hook onto this blog already, why?? Coz I can see my favourite artiste.. Muhahaha..
Well, no lah, actually is because I feel that blogspot is not that difficult to use after all, or maybe is because I have grown up, and began to know how to think deeper.
Recently thinking through some matters, about friends, family and even relationships. Many a times I hope that I could be by my friend's side when they are down and when they need me, but when they really need me, where am I?? I once told one of my buddy (actually I only have one buddy) that I'll be by his side whenever he needs me, 24/7, but did I do it?? Never?? I am starting to doubt myself. I just feel that I'm only saying something for the sake of saying. I never do anything in action.
After thinking through this, I come to this conclusion that why I always say without doing. That's because I doesn't want to see them sad, and I doesn't want to face them sad. I know I can't hold back my tears and I can't do anything with my emotionality. I really really whis that I could be there for all my friends, especially my close friends.
As for family, I realise that I have never tell any of my family members about how much I love them. After watching a variety show interviewing "Joe Chang" (yes, it's him again), I realise that many times, only when you lose something, you will then begin to cherish it. It happens all over, and this is just human nature.
I am not a person who loves sweet talking and not a person who show my concerns to someone easily. I just have this phobia, no idea why too. So the next time you see me don't care don't bother, don't think that I really don't care don't bother, coz deep down in me, i am really very worried and concern about each and everyone of you whom are connected to me. You cry, I cry, you sad, I'll be sad.
Lastly, in relationship. I know that I can't handle a relationship very well though I might have been through several relationships before. I had 3 serious relationship up to date now and I really cherish each and every one of it. Sometimes, I might not show concern to my partner too, and I might have neglected them too, but I really really doesn't mean it. To me, love and friends are equally important, and if I side either side, I'll lost either of the other side. All I want is to have a smooth relationship and a happy and fairy tale type of relationship (though it's rediculous).
Everytime I watch Taiwan Drama Series, I'll feel so sweet and so happy for the lady in the show. They can have the love from the guy and are really in love. Sometimes, though it may bitter in the beginning, but when the story is ending, you'll still see how sweet they are. Well, I envy them maybe coz I didn't have the chance or rather not have the chance of getting court by guys. But what to complain, the more I conplain, the more faluts i'll be digging out. So better not complain.
Well, I have many to say but guess I have type a long entry. I'll continue tomorrow, meanwhile I'll have to start on my project (yes.. I have not started it yet though I said I wanted to start yesterday).
Take care.
love goes around | 10:24 PM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Got back my print media result slip today, didn't put too much hope in this paper as I know that it's far too difficult to get good grades for this module. The teacher is so strict, make me so nervous even before the exam started. All I hope was not to fail that paper, coz I didn't want to retake that module, or any module (it' not nice for the cert.).
Anyway, the good thing is I got a C grade for my Print Media examination, and I'm rather relieve. At least I didn't fail the module. Haha. For now, I have completed all my exams for advanced diploma, and beginning of the next semester, I'll start on with my degree modules, I believe it will definately be more tough. Guess I have to study harder and revise more to get good grades. Therefore, I planned to stop my part time job at around May, but seeing my bosses being so tired and headache in finding suitable candidates, I'll help them to work till end of May, since I'll have nothing much to do until beginning of June. (Unless the other place called me and say they want me to work for them for the month of May, then I'll be in big shit man!!!)
Now, only left GP(Graduation Project) before I can get my Advanced Diploma cert. But I have barely started the assignment as yet, I'll be in dead meat if I can't finish my 29th April 2006. If that really happens, I'll have to really burn midnight oil to finish it up. It's not healthy, sigh but what to do. I do even have the mood to start the project. (coz I've been slacking all the way after my Print Media examination).
Ok, enough talking and typing. I got to start mugging on my project before it's too late. But first, I have to recharge my laptop, battery is getting low. Take care peez before my next entry.
Bye!!!
love goes around | 10:43 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
Hi there. Finally I've decided to come up with a blog of my own. Seeing so many people blogging, I have the urge to blog too. Well, I'll still continue my MSN Space coz that's my main blogginh area, but I'll also try to blog more often here if time permits.
Well, I just finish doing my blog skin thingy. Realise that doing the blog skin isn't a fun thing at all. I am so shacked after chaging all the things. But I love the blog skin that I have now, coz I'm really heavily in love with the show "It Started with A Kiss" and of course driving me crazy is the actor in the show, Joe Cheng (Zheng Yuan Chang).
Think I'll stop here for the time being coz tomorrow I still have to work and after work got to go band some more. Sure drain out one. Some more I haven't start doing on my graduation project which id due 2 weeks later. Gota hurry on my GP before I can't get to finish it up.
I'll blog again soon. I promise. Hee..
love goes around | 11:59 PM
