Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I have no idea why I've been feeling so tired recently. Is it due to work, or school, or band, or overseas residency, or anything else. I really have no clue about it at all.
Thinking about my work, it's been like getting more and more and it's like non-stop. No idea if it's cause I'm slow in my work or coz I've been overloading myself.
School is ending soon after my overseas residency and before I go off for my USA residency, I will have to sit for an exam the Saturday before I fly. Hope I can clear that before I go. Assignment got to start doing soon if not I'll be doing last minute work again.
Band is getting me very disappointed and sad. I don't know what I've done wrong. Why I just can't make NYPAW better, why can't I get more players for the band? I really hate myself for not being able to gather more people for practice. Really hate myself to core.
Overseas residency is making me very headache as I need to prepare so many things for my 1 month residency in USA. Just paid up all the money for my accomodations and air tickets. Now got to save up money for my other usage in USA. Also to search for additional accomodation in New York which we will be travelling there to. Sadly, I have no chance to go to LA for Disneyland. Felt so disappointed. Sigh. Don't know when I can go to Disneyland. When I'm old maybe?
Have just send out some messages to see who will be able to come for band this Sat and the result is not overwhelming. I am getting very very tired about the band thingy and is graduately giving up on NYPAW, and I really mean I'm starting to give up. I know you people will tell me,
"do you bear giving it up just like that? You have brought it up with your own hands and you want to destroy it with your own hands too?" Well, do I have a choice?
I know partly, or probably mainly it's my fault that NYPAW is at this state but I didn't want it to be like this. It is not like we never discuss with our committees regarding the future of NYPAW, but we have the heart without the strength to do whatever we planned for as we don't have the support and the spirit to do so.
Well, many of you may think I am the main person who made NYPAW the way it was. But I never meant to do that. But what can I do? Use a knife or a gun to point at the alumnus's head or neck to force them to come for practice? That shouldn't be the way. Alumnus have their own commitment and things to do and I respect on them that whatever they decided to do is more important than the practice that is why they put them in priority. I can't simply force people to come. If people are not willing to come, no matter how much I force, they will still not come, or probably come once and no more.
It's not only disheartening to hear people asking me
"SaSa, when is the band resuming?" when I resume the band and no one comes for practice. People may blame me for the long breaks and MIA news of NYPAW resuming. People may say the break is far too long and the practice is not consistant. But to me all these are excuses.
When the band jolly well started, I am really really so sad, so disappointed and upset to see such little people back for practice. It just pains my heart every week when I go for practice. I may seems like I doesn't cant in band because I don't want my mood to affect anyone in band, but it doesn't mean I don't care and I just simply
"bo chap".I'm really very sick and tired of the band and really hope I can take a very very long break. I just wish that I won't come back to Singapore at all and don't get into any of the politics in band. I hope that I'll just disappear without a word and just let the band goes off slowly. I think it's the best if I'm not around and people will then tend to appreciate.
I wish to invite laoshi back to NYPAW to conduct us, and I mean it. But the attendance of each week is so pathetic that I don't even dare to talk to laoshi and ask laoshi to come back.
All I need is some improvement in the attendance and the puntuality of the members. 2.30pm means 2.30pm. If you are late, I hope you will feel urgent about it and come by as soon as possible and not let the whole band wait for you. That's only the simplest thing I could wish for.
If really one day I couldn't make it back to Singapore, the only regret that I have is not to have a good band under my hand and NYPAW is been destroyed by me. I can't make the band blossom like other bands do. And if really that day come, I really hope someone will help me bring up the band and make the band a better one and not like me.
For those who have been supporting NYPAW and have been attending practices, I really thank you a lot for your spport and appreciate your attendance. Even if the band is only left with 1 person, at least I still have someone who holds to to the band and is willing to do something to hold it up. I thank you for doing that and really really appreciate your effort. I know who you people are and you are always so grateful to me and NYPAW which I don't know how to thanks and replay back the gratefulness to you all.
Realy hope to see more people in band this Sat and not only this Sat but every Sat. God bless everyone.
love goes around | 12:06 AM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
My U.S. trip is round the corner and I have to start paying for the fees for Air Tickets and Accomodations.
Air tickets is S$2270.00 which is due on 13 March 2008 (Thursday). so from 13 March onwards, I will have to start paying, and my pockets will start to be tighter and tighter. Sigh.
By 25th March, we will have to pay for our Accomodations in U.S. Which is around S$2,150.00. And there goes my money, S$4,420.00 will be gone just like that. There after, I will still have to pay for my interview at U.S. Embassy, which is for my Visa. That will be another S$100.00. Don't know when can I earn back so much money.
Went for my orientation in school yesterday to understand more about what are the things we need to do for our overseas residency, since most of us are very new to overseas residency, at least for me. knowing that I will have to study from Monday till Friday from 9am till 12 noon and from 2pm till 5.30pm. Satruday might have lessons and might have night lessons too. From what I hear, it seems just like myself working in U.S. Luckily we still have field trips. We will have a one day trip to the Salty Plains and a half day trip to the TV Studio in U.S. I believe it will be an eye opener for myself.
Staying in the Residency Inn, we will have to do our own laundry and cooking to say cost. this it's also a cost for us to learn to be independent. Although I'm already quite, but think this will make myself more independent. I was quite excited hearing Leo (oneof the co-ordinator in OCU) that we will be having a very splee and delicious BBQ session at our residency once a week, and he said that it is a very good one. Let's see how good is it when I reached there. Haha. We will also be able to sign up for after school programs, which OCU have arranged for us. They have buses sending us there and fetching us back to hotel. Thumbs up for their service, MDIS should learn a lot from them. Haha.
We will have a chance to travel to Dallas on one of the Saturday and shop till we drop, exclaimed Dr. Harmon. I was told it's one of the biggest shopping mall in Dallas with more than 200 stores under a roof with all the wonderful branded and up-scale specialty goods there. Some of them that was listed are GAP, Louis Virtton, Gucci, Ambercombe (forgive me for spelling mistake coz I am too lazy to check for correct spelling). Woo. I think I'll go broke there. Haha.
Everything shall be rather settled by end of March. And by then, I will have to start packing and getting all my stuff that I need for the one month plus U.S. trip. I might need to borrow a couple of things from friends to sustain my stay at U.S. Hope friends will help.
yet again, anyone want anything from U.S., please let me know and imburse me with the estimated amount of money to buy if not I think I won't have enough money to survive till end of the course and trip. Hee.
love goes around | 1:22 PM
Saturday, March 08, 2008
BIG SORRY TO MY BLOG SUPPORTERS FOR NOT UPDATING MY BLOG!!!I was extremely busy for the last one month or so. After the previous entry, I have to concentrate on my PR Campaign assignment which is due on the day of my examination. I have minimal time to conplete it and had only completed it on the day of Exam at 4am. Gosh~ Hope I never went out of point as I know I definately will not score well for my PR exam. Well, it's just my gut feeling, which at times is not true.
After a week of break, my new lesson started on Monday, which is TV Scripting. Well, it's an interesting module I should say, nd the lecturer is the best lecturer every. It was the second time I got her lesson. She is none other than Dr. Karlie Harmon. At times, she may be stern, but she is very helpful to students. One of the reason should goes to because she is one of the coordinator for the Singapore - USA programme.
I went to make my Biometric Passport andcame to know from Dr. Harmon that the original Non-Biometric Passport is actually fine for applying Student Visa. Grrr~ I paid S$70.00 for the renewal of Passport and then was told we do not need it change. MDIS is really giving us a big headache. They should have got the information when they were giving us the first briefing and assure us that we can enter USA even without biometric passport. I remembered them telling us to better go apply for one for those who haven't so as not to delay visa application. What the **** is that? Well, what is not done is done, I have to go collect my new biometric passport first thing tomorrow morning as I need the passport number for the new I-20 Form in order for me to go and make appointment for n interview with the US Embassy in SIngapore to apply for my Visa. See, give us so much trought and further delay us. Really is what the ****.
Just received my confirmation of my rooming list and the forms and all from Dr. harmon today. I need to pay a total of US$1502.00 for my U.S. Residency, which I will be staying in the Residency Inn by Mariott. total estimated spending for the trip will be approximately S$ 6,500.00, which is HELL.
My air tickets is also confirmed. Will be taking the quote from my friend. Price is at S$2270.00.
Singapore -> Tokyo Narita -> Houston -> Oklahoma City ->NewYork -> Tokyo Narita -> SingaporeWill be with Singapore Airlines, Continental Airlines and All Nippon Airways for the departing and arriving flights.
Will be there for 1.5 months. Will leave Singapore on 18 April, 2008 at 10.30pm.
With the residency coming up, I have so many things to prepare. Not only do i have to worry for my assignment paper just before the trip and my exams on 12 April, 2008, I have to book appointment for my interview with the US Embassy, pay for my tickets latest by 16 March, May for my lodging, check for weather forecast (heard it will be cold), and prepare money to go overseas. Argh.. So many things to be done in 1 month, I just felt like I have not enough time to do all things.
I've received a news from one of my room mates saying that one of my otehr room mate might not be able to go with us to USA this time round. Damn! Why didn't she say earlier. It's just the eve of the briefing then she say she can't go, some more it's not confirm yet. God! It's like 1 month away and she can't confirm anything. I wonder how is she going to get air tickets and all. All I hope for is I don't pay extra for my lodging in U.S. just because of her, I will be very unhappy with it. Sigh. Why are there always this type of people around, and why are my group getting this type of people?
Alright, not early, will have to turn in before I can't wake up tomorrow morning again.
I'll try to update as often as possible whenever I've got the time.
** Anyone who need anything from USA, please place orders and pay me in advance the estimated price and I'll get them for you. Receipts will be given to you. Any Remaining money will be return back to you. ***** If any of you wants to come by to USA to look for me, let me know who I am expecting so I that I am prepared. Haha. ***
love goes around | 1:25 AM
