Friday, March 30, 2007
When to buy my luch at the canteen just a few km walk away from my company and this two little secondary school couples make me wanted to write this blog.
I was waiting for my Fried Hokkien Mee to be ready when I saw this coupl walking in to the canteen. They were in school uniforms and can see that they are secondary school students from the nearby school.
Obviously there were there for lunch but seeing them walking in and deciding what to eat just bring back the memories of me when I was in secondary school. It's knida sweet seeing them so lovey dovey, and thinking back, will definately bring back some smile to your face.
The guy will just ask you ti go back and sit while he buy for you and you will insist on not going back buy the food yourself and go dutch. Sometimes, seeing this young innocent kids having their part of relationship really will make me feel like going back to the past and experience the kind of relationship feelings.
No commitement, no worries, just a natural love and concern, with sweet sweet letting movements, which can make you feel so loved and sweet.
As you grow old, you tend not to have this feelings gradually and what's more, you feel that the burden that you will be taking is getting more and more until you are unable to breath and carry anymore.
I want the past relationships I have?? Can I?? I think it's not possible anymore. Sigh.
love goes around | 3:26 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
My MD is out-station for the next couple of days and therefore I have the little time to blog during my office hours.
Tomorrow will be one of my junior (Marianne) birthday celebration at Pasir Ris Coasta Sand. But before I go to the celebration, I have to run a few places to fulfill the task that I have with me. Haha. Sounded like I'm going for what mission trip right? Haha. Actually, I need to run some errands and meet up some clients at around 4 plus 5pm till don't know what time. But I'm sure I'll reach by 8.30pm, but maybe later. Haha. No idea yet.
Later, I'll have to attend a seminar at Amara Hotel with Adam Khoo, the first millionaire before the age of 21. Going with 3 of my other colleagues, which are all unwilling to go, so am I. But MD as us to go, what to do?
Next weekend I won't be in Singapore, but don't know if the band can still operate without me. I believe can one, coz I'm just a minor position in band. Haha. It takes two hands to clap, and many to make the sound of an applause. Band is a group of hands that make the sound of an applause. Haha. So all should work together to make the wonderful clapping sound.
So many things to do this week, Saturday I have to run errands again, before I go NYP for band. Evening time might still need to go somewhere to past some documents to clients. Sigh. Poor thing. So what if I'm driving, it's tiring still.
Well, well, enough of grumbling. Will have to continue calling the companies to verify their MD/CEO name is correct or not.
Take care.
love goes around | 12:08 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Recently, I realise that there's something wrong with my heart, as in not medical issue, but the other issue. I believe you are intelligent enough, you'll understand what I'm referring to.
Read one of my friend's blog recently and realise she is facing some similar problems as me. Maybe is due to our busy schedule that makes us feel so lost and no one to rely on. Am I the one affecting her?? Or it's we are both affecting each other.
Well, sometimes the feeling portion in life really will make someone go crazy. When you had too much to it, you'll expect more, when you don't have it, you will want more. Is this what human will always face?? Whenever you have something, you take that something for granted, and whenever you lost that something, you start to regret it, and when you start to regret it, you will hope to get it back, when you know it's too late to say you want it back because everything are just so different now.
People say I see that person too much recently that's why I will tend to have more feelings for that person than before. But first of all, I only see that person once a week or even less. Nothing much was doen between us, just like normal friends. Someone called me almost everyday to talk on the phone but I just don't have the feeling, the chemistry with him, but this person whom I see only about once a week, or rather lesser, I have more chemistry. I really have no idea what is overwhelming me. Is the loneliness I had recently?? Or am I really a person who cannot stay alone too long.
I hope I can change my way of living, as in my philosophy which says I must be in a relationship all the while, I cannot stay single for too long. It's not right you see. It's not right to just jump into a relationship because I cannot stand the singlehood I am having now. It's not fair for the guy, it's not fair for me, it's not fair for the realtionship. But I know very well I need someone to rely on now, and I really hope this special someone will appear soon.
Kinda thinking of this person now. Wondering whether if this person is thinking of me too.
Well well, enough of all this relationship and chemistry thingy. Back to life!!
Had the alumni practice again yesterday and the attendance is saddening. I had it when I see so little people coming for practice. This is also one of the reason why I didn't want to resume the practice so soon coz I don't want to face the low attendance of the band. Before band resume, people always ask me when will it resume, but when it resume, I face such low attendance. I wanted to help the band to concerts and all but the attendance is just so horrendous which makes me don't have the feeling to continue with what I have planned. I really really want to step down. not that I'm trying to avoid the attendance thingy and all but am just too tired to be holding so much responsibility with me.
At work, am holding the responsibility to help company generate more sales leads and make sure that the sales person make calls and all those marketing stuff. At home doing my part time job, responsible for the target that I need to his for my home-based data entry. At band, I am responsible to the attendance and instrument and scores of the band. Luckily my school haven't start, if not I'll be responsible for my school work again.
One person holding so much jobs and responsibility, am I the one to be blamed for acting "pro" or acting like a "superwoman"? I wanted to earn more money, that's for sure. I want everything to be done well, that's for sure too. But then am I able to do all of them well, that I don't know.
So many things and so many worries generating in my small little brain, and my brain capacity is running up. I need to recharge it and clean it so that I can store more things in it.
Love is Blind, Love is Cruel, Love is for No Reason, Love is just simply Love, because it Comes and Goes, just like the Tide from the Ocean, Cherish it when it Comes, as far as possible, and Let it Go when it's time to.
love goes around | 5:24 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
It's weekend again. this week seems to be passing too fast, I'm yet prepared for another weekend.
Listening to the radio station, which is playing my favourite Gary song - count till five, accept me. I like this song so much, if someone could sing this song and touched my heart, hmm.. maybe I'll consider. Haha. Crazy.
This morning, turn on the radio at home while I was preparing myself for work, and heard a song that brings memories back to me again. I still remember so clearly that day when we sing that song in the hall of Civic Centre's PartyWorld (cheng long & Tracy Su - zai wo sheng ming zhong de mei yi tian). Not a good start for a weekend morning huh?
Then, which working I heard this pig song on air and yet again, bring me some fresh memories too. It's like everything just happened yesterday and it's all over today. It's all my fault for not holding on?? Still poundering at this question, which I have no answer to.
Alright, enough of my nonsense, back to something serious. Later will have Alumni Band practice, I wonder how many will turn up later. It's like always hoping more will appear but my hope is always shattered. I'm not a good president, hat's why I requested a step down in a few month's time. Anyone want to take over my position?
Finally got my personal namecard from my MD. It's the first time I had my own namecard. Cool~ Haha. Not used to giving namecards to people, but I know I should start giving so that when people need security solutions, can look for me. Haha. Well, it's my jobs to make sales. Haha.
Heard from Karen that Musical Fountian at Sentosa is closing down on Monday, coming Monday. I totally have no idea about it. Never have rather good memories at musical fountian and am not rather bonded to it in any sense, so don't have the feeling of missing it even if it's closing. But well, since Karen asked if I would want to go watch, I'll definately say I don't mind. Therefore, she will be going around asking people if they want to go Sentosa later after band.
Have been mailing out letters to the MCST members, hope that I'll be busy with enquiries next week onwatds. What's more, I'll be havin 2 days off in lieu to my IT Show 07 contribution. Cool cool~ Haha. will be taking 0.5 days during 6 July and will go overseas. Another 1.5 days probably taking during the NYP 15th Anniversary Musical, since I'm helping them out.
It will be yet another busy week for me again next week. I will have to draft another letter for another 5000 over companies. So I think I should rest well before I got bonkus. Haha. Had just finish with the MCST Contact list. Will have to draft letter for sending again first thing in the morning on Monday. Wish me luck man.
Leaving office soon, it's 1.10pm already. Haha.
Take care.
love goes around | 12:14 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Feeling kinda lost everyday when I woke up in the morning. Just having this wierd feeling which is so difficult to describe.
Well well, enough of all those lost feelings. This few days have been an extremely busy week for me at work. I hardly can leave my office before 7pm as I can't finish my work. Finally finish manually signing my 3000 letters that I have to mail out. Yes, 3000 letters, signing each of them with my hands, manually. My hand nearly drop off. Feel like I'm a star signing the albums during autograph sessions. Haha. **I'm dreaming again**
Every morning, while travelling to work, I will plug the ear piece of my phone into my ears to listen to the radio station, and everytime I listen, there bound to be a song or two that makes me think of the past. Like Eason's song, Andy's song, F.I.R.'s song, and so on. It will bring back a whole lot of memorise to my head. During then, I really wish that person is by my side, but that was the feeling then.
But it's only memories that is left in my head.
Seeing couples on the train at times makes me feel like falling in love again but, well I won't enter another relationship blindly just because I saw couples on train which make me feel the sweetness in them. I always feel the sweetness between couples when I see them and make me have the urge to get into a relationship but normally it's always a false alarm and will make me end up hurting people, or getting hurt by people.
At this point of time, i really have no idea what I want in life. Other than a good career and earning big money as well as having my certs plus knowing more friends and caring and concerning my current friends, others I have no idea at all what I want.
Realise that I still do miss that someone recently, and I know that if that someone tells me that he have a girlfriend, I'll be sad, but however I'll still bless them with good wishes if that day comes.
Sometimes, I really hate getting older, being more mature, knowing more things. I hate learning more things which make me suffer more as well. how I wish i can go back to my primary school times or must well secondary school times, which I was in secondary 2 and 3. I realise that was the most enjoyable and happy moment I have in live. No worries, no sorrow, no thinking too much. Everything just come and go and you won't feel anything. I really wish I can always be like the person I was when I was in Secondary 2/3. I miss my secondary school days, as well as my polytechnic days. My happiest moment, i should say, are captured during my secondary school and polytechnic days.
Can I go back in time? Can I just go with what come along? Can I still trust everyone beside as I do trust them now? How truthful will they be to me? Suddenly so many questions pop out of my mind. I just feel like crying right at this moment.
I'll end here. Take care!
love goes around | 11:31 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
After such a long break, the NYP Alumni Winds practice resumed yesterday. Although not many people turned up for the practice, but am quite glad that actually some people do turn up. As our assistant conductor, Salleh, was not free yesterday, I asked Andy for his kind help to conduct the alumni band. Indeed, it was a fun time playing music and making noise again. It's been so long since we gather together to make noise and be crazy, it's time for us to get back together and make so really nice noise.
Played a few pieces of new scores and some are really nice. Well, we need to practice for the NYP 15th Anniversary musical songs as the main band lacks player and laoshi wanted the alumni people to help out. He claimed that the sections that need players are Clarinet, Flute, Trumpet and Percussion. Hopefully we will be able to come back and help, I haven't inform the alumni members yet. Hmm, shall inform them next week then.
Next week, Andy will have to conduct again as Salleh is still not back yet. He is busy with stuffs this 2 weeks. But well, April onwards, he will be back and we can work out some serious pieces for the beautiful Sunday programme that I will be applying for the band. Keep a good look out for us somewhere around end of the year or beginning of next year.
After band, we went for our dinner at CityLink. Had my 1st meal of the day, yes first full meal of the day at 7pm plus. We had our meals at "New York New York" and the cusine there were delicious. Yummy!!! Haha. Even had my cotton candy there, what's more it's free of charge. Haha. I like cotton candy so much, it's been so long since I last have my cotton candy.
After that, I was suppose to meet my Poly from Elvin for a drinking session at Boat Quay but he was unreachable. So I gave my sister Eileen a call and she said it's called off due to some unforseen circumstances. Nevertheless, we still went to Boat Quay and check out which pub/bar is not so pack and we could enter.
Sadly, pubs at boat Quay are most KTV Pub which my group of friends (Karen, Jac, Xiu, Ryan) doesn't favour, so we decided to walk down to Clarke Quay instead. Well, nowadays Clarke Quay is much more happening than Boat Quay due to the number of clubs opening at that area. passed by "Central", a shopping centre at Clarke Quay and realise there are many things there to see and eat. Hmm, next time can go there and shop shop before crossing over the river to have our drink. Hee, cool huh?
We landed our feet at Kandi's Bar and stayed there for about two hours before we leave. Opened a bottle of red wine which taste alright only (have drink better ones). After that Jac ordered "Sex on the Beach" which consist of 6 shots of vodka, orange, lime, etc. Which we played some games, those who won will sabo the person beside, meaning whoever win, the person beide has to drink. Quite fun and exciting game I should say. After finishing the shots, they ordered a bucket of beer (consist of 6 bottle of Heniken). Continue playing the game till all the drinks were finished.
After some photowores, we left the bar and decided to head home when we realise someone from our group was half drunk. Then we decided to walk over the riverside and have a sit to let the person rest a while first but before reaching, this person started to feel like vomitting (mainly due to the beer which causes the increase in amont of air in the body). But never vomit anything out in the end, so we walked one round and then flag a cab and headed home.
Board the cab and chat with the driver awhile before someone in the cab started to shut down. So left me and another person talking on the cab. Reached homeslightly before 2am and realise actually I was quite high already, probably because I'm tired too since I woke up early in the morning at 6.45am to prepare to go for work which ended up I work until 2pm which I should leave office at 1pm. Tiring day for me I should say. Haha. After bathing, I knock down and sleep all the way till this morning 7.30am which I thought I was late for work, when I realise it's Sunday today. Haha. Too workaholic will have a results of not remember what day is today.
Decided to do my part-time data entry job now but something wrong with the website that I need the information from, so I can't continue with the job. Therefore, now I am rather free with nothing to do so here I am blogging away. What shall I do after i blog?? Hmm. No idea, maybe sleep again. Haha. Take care people, no idea when I'll blog again but do stay tuned. Hee~
love goes around | 3:38 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
Found some blockbusters by Gary.. I find that his vocal really very powerful.. Cool.. Enjoy the videos..
曹格@週日狂熱夜-黑色幽默
我愛黑澀會 曹格 8/3/07 Part 1
我愛黑澀會 曹格 8/3/07 Part 2
love goes around | 10:58 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Was home extremely early today cos finish meeting my clients early. So happy to be home early, can do so many things plus can rest more. Think I should get myself a car, it's so easy and fast travelling with a car from Woodlands to Ubi (even if there's a jam). But I've got no money to buy a car. Sob Sob~ Pray hard that I can win a car soon, wahahaha.. Big Money!! Big Money!!
Alright, I was asked to fix and connect the wire from the CCTV cameras from my office to the DVR in my office (don't know since when I become a technician of my MD). But well, it isn't too difficult to connect actually, and what's more? He wants me to teach him how to use. Luckily I've gotta go meet clients in the afternoon, so I skip the teaching part, dislike teaching people things and imagine that I will have to train my sales person next time.. Gosh~~ Don't even dare thinking about it.
While I was doing my marketing plan, I was called in by my MD and he said he have a massive task for me and the admin executive to do and all must be done by end of this week. I have to draft letter to the MCST to bring awareness to them as well as promote our products. we have to send it to about 2000 people and we have to do it by end of the week. Sigh.
Next week, I'll have to do the letter for different industries and all in all, I have to send to about 4000 clients. God~~ There goes my whole 2 weeks man.
Went to meet 2 customers with my Business Development Manager (Ray) just now in the afternoon and it was indeed and experiencing trip. Like I say, following his is good cos he really teaches you a lot of things and will not bombard you with all information at one time. Like he told my MD that I am not those technology savvy they of person, it takes time for me to pick up. Thank for helping me talk ya. Hee~
He wanted me to help him do a powerpoint as he think powerpoint is a better marketing tools than any thing else coz people just click and can see already, but I think our MD don't agree with it. Well, my MD always like that la.
I have to follow him to meet another client in the morning at International Road tomorrow as well as draft out the letter for the mass sending to the targetted people. Gotta bring my "mi ji" to work tomorrow. Haha.
Finally I can go check out my friendster and all. Sometimes, I just don't understand why some people just like to cancel away my name as one of his friends. Am I should irritating that I can't even be in your friendster list? Last time was like that, now another one. Must these people be so cruel and heartless to do such things? I don't like you it's the fact, but there isn't a need to do all those things what? Of course not forcing you to do anything you don't like, but I really really felt so sad that my friend, that I cherish dearly did this to me. Although I'll not like you at this point of time, doesn't mean that I didn't want to be a friend of yours.
Didn't want to get into a relationship right at this moment as I'm not prepared to also wrong? I don't want to experience another break up and all. I had enough of all these. I just want a stable relationship now and I want to make sure that this time round I'll hold on till I get marry. Sometimes, it really take 2 hands to clap and do wonders. I know I break quite a few people's heart and I'm utterly sorry about what I've done. I didn't want to do hurtful things to anyone and yet I did. This is also one of the reason why I don't want to get into a relationship now, until I'm very sure of what i want, cos i didn't want to hurt anyone anymore. Hurting people isn't good and getting hurt by people is even worst.
I do understand the feeling cos I experience countless times but if hurting the person can make the person stop liking you and having hope on you, and you know doing so will make him die heart and not put in so much love on you when you ain't prepared, I believe it's worth. Why? Cos it makes the pain lesser and the hurt is shorter.
If I did anything wrong and did anything sorry to anyone, I'm really really sorry and I sincerely apologise.
love goes around | 7:34 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
Finally, my job at the IT Show 2007 is finished. Phew~ It was a tiring 4 days of promoting and talking. In four days, I generated about near to 30 leads for my company. I think it's still not enough but my MD say not too bad already. Hopefully he isn't trying to make me happy.
He gave me a call this afternoon telling me that I will be following my Business Development Manager (Ray) around to meet clients and learn more about our company products. Ray is a nice guy frolm my company. Look quitr charming too, only that his height cannot make it. Haha. Wahaha, so more he is a smoker. Wahaha. Anyway, he teaches me a lot of things regarding camera and tell me what I should do at my Marketing Position and what my MD expect. Will work towards it. Haha.
Alright, time for me to head for my bed, tomorrow will need to wake up super early yet again to go office. No off day for me... =( Sadz.. I'll request for my 1.5 days off from my MD. Haha. Take it during Good Friday that week then I'll have long long weekend. Wahahaha..
Meanwhile, take care!!!
[Thanks WX for the Famous Amos cookies. =)]
love goes around | 12:35 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
I'm super duper tired and shacked. My eyes can hardly open already.
Initally wanted to do my data entry work now but I'll super drained out. Woke up at 6.45am this morning and went 2 office to settle everything for my roadshow before heading down to Suntec City Convention Hall for my roadshow.
Have been awake and working for the pass 12 hours. I'm shacked, very shacked.
Can't take it anymore, I need my bed. I have 3 more days to go. Argh~ Luckily I don't need 2 wake up so early tomorrow. Phew~~
I need 2 "chiong" to my bed now.
Tata.
love goes around | 12:10 AM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Hasn't been updating this blog for some days, did any of you miss me?? Haha.
Anyway, I'm very very busy with my new job at this security company, and soon (tomorrow) I'll be involve in a roadshow at Suntec City for the PC Show. Our company have a camera promotion counter there and I'll have to be there for the entire 4 days, yes from tomorow until Sunday.
I know I'll be super shacked but what to do, it's under my job scope, who ask me to be a marketing executive? This job is far too chanllenging for me, I'm afraid I night not be able to hold on to it too long. Sigh.
So my weekend is burnt. Argh. I still have part-time job to do. I'll be very very tired this two weekd I believe. Sigh. God, please help me.
Finally, my catalogue design is approved and seems professional. Phew~ at least one thing down. Next I will have to do a Marketing Plan write up and start everything working by April. Everything seems kind of rush but well the environment in that company is like that, all seems so kan jiong.
Hopefully, tomorrow's roadshow will be a succeed and hope that there will be people signing up and fixing appointment with me, if not my rice bowl will be ..... you know what I mean.
If any of your house or company need to change your surveillance camera to better one, we provide trade-in and upgrading services. We have all sorts of surveillance camera, CCTV, DVR, Monitor, Card Acess, Door Alarm, etc. Anything to do with security we have. So if you all need, don't hesitate to tag me or give me a ring/sms at my office mobile (81836146). You may email me at trisa.lee@innotec.com.sg.
Alrighty, I'll have to do my part-time job now before I got no time to do. Take care.
love goes around | 9:57 PM
With the pictures I uploaded yesterday of Gary, now I'm here uploading the videos I took that day. Enjoy!!!
3-7-20-1 (Down Stage)
3-7-20-1 (On Stage)
Superman
背叛
世界唯一的你 (Down Stage)
世界唯一的你 (On Stage)
Superwoman （清唱版）u>
love goes around | 9:05 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
As promised, here are the pictures of Gary which I have took on Sunday. Super close view man. Although some pictures are blurred, but hey, it's better than not getting any pictures. Thanks to my W810i camera phone, it's a wonderful and useful phone indeed. Enjoy the photowordes..
Before the Autograph Mini-Concert Starts
Just after he sang his first song - 3 7 20 1
The interview continues...
Gary talking to the audience
While he was down the stage, which he requested. This is the 2nd gate.
Is he video caming me?? Haha..
3rd gate.. He is so near to me man.. Melted~~
4th Gate, which is the last.. He was about less than a meter away from me.
Blurred.. Sob...
Still blurred... Argh~~
He is doing a video taping for his Taipei Fans to see.. as well as his own precious memory sake
While singing 两只恋人 & 世界唯一的你
His way back to stage
Chatting with one of his fan
Host for the day - Li Yi from Y.E.S. 933
Big Poster of Gary at Bishan Junction 8
Happily signing the lyric booklet.. somemore shake every hand after signing the book.. Cool~
Finally finish the autograph session
Standing up and coming to stage front..
Talking about his feeling to the people who are still there.. one of them is ME..
Take 2..
Take 3...
Take 4....
Take 5.....
Finally, the autographed lyric book my Gary.. One of my precious now..
love goes around | 11:03 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
I had a super memoriable day today!! Not because someone give me suprise or what, but just because I saw Gary (曹格).
Went to Bishan Junction 8 just now to support this talented composer-singer from our neighbouring country, as well as get an autograph from him. I reached at around 3pm and it was just nice as it started not long after.
There wasn't too many people there (maybe he isn't that popular enough), but I believe that after a few years, his name will pick up in the industry and he will have more supporter by then. But well, at least I can take a good and closer look at him since there isn't too many people there.
He singing was powerful. His way of singing and his lyrics for all his songs can really melt you, and your heart. I wonder how many hearts has he melted before he was a singer. Hum~~
Anyway, I can garantee plus chop that he was the first celebrity who requested to get nearer to the fans by requesting to go down to the audience area. He even promise to his company or rather his manager and the J8 management that he will be safe down at the audience area (this is how well he trust his fans). First time, his request was rejected by the security but then later on they agreed to let him come down.
I was so excited (although I was alone). I took so many pictures of him. Am really touched by his way of doing things. He won't think that he is a singer or a celebrities and get away from his fans. I look up on him. Very!!!
He was so close to me when he was down at the audience area, kinda like about lest than a meter away. Cool~~ He don't really look charming but still he is kind of attractive in some ways, which I don't know how to describe, if you will there you will know what I mean.
Shortly after he went up after his trip down at the audience area, he started his autograph session. What's more, with his cool and generous character, he shaked even one's hand, each and every one of his fan's hand after signing each lyric book. Of course, I got the chance to shake his hand too. Nearly forget to let go at that point of time. Haha. He really attracted me quite a lot. No idea why. Maybe coz his look is those mature and stable type of guy, which makes me feel a kind of relax when I see him, and of course when I listen to his songs.
Stayed there till the end of his autograph and took more pictures of him as I get to see in just reight in front (coz most of the people left). He is really one kind of celebrity that I never seen in the entertainment circle before. How I wish I could see him more often in Singapore.
Yesterday after work, I went to Marina Square for some window shopping with my friends (Karen, Zi Sheng, WeiXiang, Xiu). Reached just after Karen did at Marina Square. Since we were early, we went to walk around first after listening to the performance by the ITE Jazz Band at one of the Atrium of MS. After meeting the guys, we got to listen to another group of nice a-capella group of 6 (don't know where they from but we suspect they are from SAF). They sing songs super nice and there was one vocal percussionist which draws my attention. He was super powerful and good in his vocal percussions. I was shocked for a while, especially when I heard him playing the part for the whole percussion while others are singing. He had a solo on his vocal percussion skills he had and I really should say that, he is good, indeed very good. All the best, you can really make it to be a wonderful musician in future.
After that we walk around Raffles City when we saw Roland. He became more handsome and charming already wor. Phewet~~ Haha. After that we headed to Bugis for our Yuan Yang Spicy Steamboat buffet. After 2 hours of eating, we pay our bills and decided to go for a singing session at KTV.
Sang until 1am before we take our leave home. Realised that actually Moo's singing skill not too bad (although a big out of tune). He can sing well, and realise he is an open song encyclopedia. Haha, should sing more with us. Haha. That Karen had something to tell me but don't know what she wana tell me coz he say she still considering whetehr to tell me or not. Wondering what is it. Hmm..
Alright, I'll turn in now, if not I'll be late for tomorrow again. Take care peez...
(Sorry guys, unable to upload pictures, no idea what's the reason. Will upload when it's alright for me to upload)
love goes around | 11:21 PM
Friday, March 02, 2007
It's been 2 days since I work in my new company. What can I say? So far so good. Other than a bit stress with the pressure on me, I'm quite alright with the job.
During late afternoon on Thursday, my MD return from outside and ask me in to his office to tell me the job scope. To my horror, I then know that my job scope is rather critical to the company (STRESS).
Designing the marketing brochures, product catalogues and flyers is a minor part of my job. The major part of my job is to handle a group of sales representative, give then the leads to see the surveillance camera and think of how to control them so that they won't take the customer with them when they leave the company. I will handle all the quotations and all those confidential stuff and the sales rep. just have to be responsible to go out and sell the cameras.
Other than that, I still have to think of what is the company's unique point, with others security companies outside, what is so special about our company.
Played with a CCTV software and it's rather fun. I have to do the company layout and place the cameras at relevant places and see how it projects. FUN! FUN! FUN! Haha. But priority still goes to the catalogue design which my MD as me to designa few templates for him to see first before continuing on the 10 or rather 11 product catalogue (he wants a nice, universal catalogue template, another stress point).
Designed one template just now in office, tomorrow will go back to office and continue to design about one or two more (if I have that much idea). Haha. Went for a training at the supplier's company and realise that the knowledge of surveillance camera isn't that difficult to pick up as I thought. It's pretty standard and well, quite interesting when connecting the cables.
Alright, will have to turn in, if not I'll be late again tomorrow (which my MD doesn't like). Till the next time I blog, take care.
(For those who bought the 10 million TOTO and won, congrats. For those who did, don't be too sad, you turn will come soon. HUAT ARH!!!)
love goes around | 11:13 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Currently at my new office at Ubi entering this blog. The people here are rather nice people. They night sometimes look rather stern but well they are friendly.
Didn't do anything for the whole morning as the Managing Director was out the whole morning. Therefore, i was here reading all the brochures, going through the marketing folders and understand the products for the whole morning.
My desktop is now brand new and well didn't dare to download anything onto the desktop as it may violate the company's cat. Haha. So now, MSN I uses the ebuddy's online MSN.
Someone concluded something with me yesterday. I know I should feel happy and relieve but I have no idea why I'm actually not. When you don't have a feeling for someone, you will not feel anything. But I just have no idea why I just don't feel good when he declare something to me. I didn't sleep well for the whole of last night. Flipping around on my bed, I woke up a few times in the middle of the night.
This shouldn't be the case for me. I just didn't know what I want. And learning that matter makes me feel just like crying, but no tears came out. Think it's the cuprit of my feelings, my don't know what I want mideset.
People told me that I didn't put in effort. Yes, I was reluctant to put in any at the beginning but seeing you putting in so much, I was kinda touched a bit (since my heart turned ice cold after a break up). You claim that I put in effort and what about yours. I know and agree you did put in a lot a lot of effort into maintaining and trying to get back but you said before, just try my best day by day.
I tried and actually wanted to meet up, giving the chance to meet me too but you didn't want to. Not that I didn't. I tried to sms u already (when I'm not so busy) but your reply was just like mine. You are the one who wanted, and I accomodate. I tried and you claim that it was nothing compared to yours.
All I want is friendship as I know friends will never be apart but couples will. I'm coward enough to say that I dare not face te 4 letter word "love" anymore and that relationship thingy is making me quite numb and confused.
All I want is someone to understand me more and care more about me. You may have care and loved me but you never understands me.
Not trying to say anything but I really see your effort and I feel it. But I'm just not touched. I'm sorry! My heart is as cold as ice, no one will get to come in to my tightly clsed doors to my heart.
love goes around | 2:21 PM
