Saw this quote from Karen's tagboard, that person is indeed superb in his chinese. I think it's a very good illustration piece. I applies everywhere.
This morning, woke up and sat on my bed a while before I headed for the bathroom to wash up. Mum came into the room asking me why I wake up so early, which she has already know the reason why (coz I'm working). Then I replied, "you know why already ma." She said, just a word of concern, later like your dad say I didn't show concern to him and all. From the way she say the words this morning, I believe they are alright. Well, my dad is like that, he must win, if not he will angry. Sigh. How old already, still like children like that. Sigh. At least I can feel that both my parents are fine.
Had a great laugh last night la. It was damn fun during theKTV session with my buddy JH and friend GQ. I tell you, GQ can really sing Jay Chou songs well. He can rap all the chincese characters right for "The Herbalist Manual" song. Crazy man, I need to ask me be my teacher already. The two guys there made me laugh until I roll on the sofa laughing non-stop. It's super funny, if you were there, you will be the same too.
Well, what's more, got pulled to sing "Phantom of the Opera" again. Argh. Cannot make it. Haha. After that walked to bus-stop with buddy as GQ have to leave earlier to catch the last bus home. Chatted along the way and all.
Before that, while heading to Yishun buddy give me a call and chatted a while. He said he dream of me. I was shocked, why in the hell he dream of me. Haha. And it's a rubbish, stupid, nonsense dream. Anyway, he ask me how am I and all, and I told him everything as usual. Well, he ask me to take a break as for now. Shouldn't be into another relationship or what anymore, time to rest and search for something I really what. He ask me don't look for student as boyfriend, nothing good about them, he himself also don't know what he wants to. He advise me to find for my new love when I start working, which was exactly what I am going to do. Haha. Thanks buddy for waking me up.
Alright, time to get back to my work. .
love goes around | 2:48 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Office empty with me alone, yet again. Colleagues went out for some meeting at National Museum, won't be coming back for the rest of the day. Therefore here I am blogging away (slack a bit).
First of all, about my parents, I think they still never talk to each other. I don't know if I'm too senstitive or am I thinking too much. I somehow can't recall if they do talk to each other casually in the past, maybe they didn't really talk to each other much too, just that I didn't really. Until the quarrel evolved, then I feel something is wrong which was the cause of the quarrel and me thinking too much. Didn't dare to ask mum about how is she and dad, I scared that I'll hurt mum. Sigh. Just hope that they will talk more. Will continue to help dad search for more relieve driver and I believe when dad found a new relieve driver, he will not be so vexed and stressed up, which will make him relax more and talk more.
Sometimes I feel that my character is just like my dad. At times, we are really quite die-heart and stubborn at our own decisions. Whenever we are angry, we will rather not talk to that person. Dad has a bad temper, so do I, just that I seldom vent it out. But another good point of dad and me is we will hold on the something very long if we like it, and will be very excited with anything er discover new. Haha. Well, like father, like daughter.
Had an online chattingwhore "The Night is Still YOUNG's - Gossip 38 Club" last night. Conferencing to four people at one time. Quite messy and confusing at times, especially when you leave the window and come back, you'll hardly catch up with the topic.
Just before the chattingwhore started, me and MT was chatting casually. As my nick sounded wierd, MT asked me who was that. (for the pleasure who didn't see my nick - "Happie Birthdae My Dearest Buddy.. Enjoy Your Day.. Muackz.. Oppx.. Haha..) Well, my buddy, many will know who la, for those who don't, just regard him as JH la.
Well, it was his birthday yesterday. Then well, just wished him happy birthday and all. MT was asking me if we will be back together again. Well, definately I say no coz I think if we are fated to be together, we will be together long time back already. I told her he told me a lot of time he will not fall for me, and so I'll not fall for him. No point falling for a person who will not fall for you, which will only make youself suffer. It's quite good to have a good buddy beside me, to be there for me, to understand me so well (inside out, outside in). Other than him, there's no other person who can understand me so well, how I think, my character, everything. MT replied that there is no definate answer to love, many things are unpredictable. Well, true to that, once the feel come, you want to kick it away also difficult.
Well, sometimes, I feels that having a friend like him is better to have a boyfriend like him. Although he will understand me and all, but I don't know, just feel that couples will one day seperate, but friends, will be there with you forever, especially when he is so close to me, so dear to me.
Well, got him a pants for his birthday like I said in my previous entry and he send me an sms saying "I'm the most important woman in his life", which I told MT about it. And claimed that although he said that I'm the most important woman in his life, doesn't mean he will fall for me or like me. I don't know what will happen in future to us, and I didn't want to conclude anything. Many of my friends may feel the same way as how MT feel, that we will one day be together or what, or we are so close until we are like couples, but at this moment, the time is just not right, and I am quite sure that we won't be together.
Sometimes, things are just not fated to be what you wish, or what you want it to be. So let it be how it wants to be, no point forcing. Haha. Having someone who cares is similarly good too, isn't it?
Anyway, later will be going of a KTV session with my buddy, JH. Haha. thinking we going together, and only the two of us?? So romantic right?? Haha, but well... Nah.. not going alone with him la, we have another guy coming along, GQ. Wahaha. We all good friends from SWE (previously). Haha. Cool. He will be paying for me, so happy!!! Muhahaha..
***For the above JH case, all are welcome to comment on my tagboard, but pls name yourself.. Hee***
love goes around | 3:52 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
I had a great shock of my life while watching the entertainment segment on Channel 8 News last night. The female Taiwan celebrity - Xu Wei Lun - met an accident over the weekend while driving and didn't pull through last night. She passed away on 5.09PM yesterday in the hospital.
I was so sad and shock to learn about the news. Such a nice lady, pretty and beautiful, and what's more, sweet in character, everything so great, but wasn't able to live longer. Life is just so burtal. DON'T TAKE YOUR LIFE AS IF ITS A LAUGHING MATTER YA? You won't know what will happen the next moment, so cherish every moment you have so that you won't regret. Don't take too love to tell the people you love that you love them.
Sadly, my parent still didn't talk to each other yesterday night. Never say a word. I tried to talk to them, individually, but well it doesn't help. Didn't want to tell my brother about it (no idea he knows or not). Well, think he can't do anything also coz he always not home till late at night. It's left with me to handle it. Well, think they need time to cool off before they speak to each other. Hopefully, later when I home, they talked to each other already, sometimes young children at home do help do a great deal. Hee. Pray.....
Got to know Ryan and his buddy when to eat Ma La Steamboat yesterday evening just now, and now I am craving for it. Argh... Why didn't ask me along?? How can go for ma la steamboat without me?? Haha. But I can't go yesterday also with that thing happening in my house. BUT HOW CAN EAT WITHOUT ME?? =(
Anyway, I don't care, next time must definately ask me along k.
Working now. Will be working full day from today till Wednesday. Thurs and Fri will be my exam mugging day. Sigh. America History and politics and economics and the present. Argh. Hate history, luckily America history quite interesting, not like Singapore history, so dry. Haha. Oppz.
Wednesday another guy will be coming in. Well, he's my friend la, haha. Alvin, my yet again Sagi friend I known from my previous job. Cool guy, too bad he is taken, blessed with a 8 years relationship girlfriend, haha. But me no chemistry for him too. Wahaha. I crazy already.
It's my buddy's birthday today, wish you a "Happy Birthday". A year older le. Haha. Although I always call him uncle, but he is always so young in my heart. Muhaha. Thanks for being my close close friend who understand me so much (outside in, inside out). I'm so glad to have known you. Hee. Buddy forever ya!!! Muahaha.. Hope he enjoy his day and get touched by his friends around. Hee. Did I say that the present I bought for him fits him perfectly. Wahaha. No idea why, the things I got for him always fits him nicely. Wahaha. That's what buddy are for. Muhahaha...
love goes around | 3:44 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
A blow not settled, another blow came. How long can I take to actually collapse? How am I going to handle all this blows, alone?
Woke up this morning and everything went fine. As usual, I will take my shower after I wake up, it's my daily routine. One of dad's working shirt flow off the hanging rack and it's no where to be found. Therefore, mum have to alter a new shirt for dad as the shirts are normally too big for my dad to wear.
Dad returned from some "shi fu" place while I was having my shower. Everything when off smoothly and all but things get quite foul after I get out of the bathing room. I greeted my dad and sat at the single seat sofa in my living room, while dad was sitting on the floor, just in front of my mum (as she was taking away the thread and all so that she can alter the shirt for my dad).
Dad didn't like the logo of the company on the shirt pocket and mum claimed that it's difficult to take off the thread from the shirt pocket due the the thickness of the thread. Dad keep saying "it's already so difficult to alter the other parts of the shirt, must well you alter the pocket." Mum then just repeat herself that the pocket was difficult to alter and all and then dad started to boil. He said "things that is needed to alter you don't, things that don't need to alter, you go and alter." Mum just defending herself by saying it was the normal way she alter his shirt and explains herself and dad boils even higher.
(Dad's relieve driver stopped working with dad and he have to look for another relieve driver, which dad wasn't able to find any now. Dad had a small fight with his relieve driver a week ago regarding the days that he too off isn't right and all and the relieve driver got angry and said he didn't want to driver anymore. Then dad asked me to help him check for relieve drivers name and contact online and all. After that, dad's relieve driver said he will continue to drive for my dad, which dad push away two callers who asked for relieve driving. Few days ago, dad's relieve driver said he didn't want to drive for dad again as he want to be a hirer, and told my dad Sunday will be his last day. But it doesn't goes that way, as the relieve driver just wrote a piece of note saying that it's his last day on Saturday. Dad was very vexed and upset by that, plus he can't find any relieve driver as yet, makes him feel vex.)
Dad claimed that he is already very vexed and he returned home and my mum talk loud to him and all (which my mum didn't). He said it's so difficult to find money outside, come home still recieve this type of treatment from my mum. After this quarrel with her, how he go out and find money later? Dad even said some nasty things that I believe that it hurts my mum a lot, so does it to me? He said to my mum "you'll be very happy and glad that I was involve in a car accident later and you don't have to face me right?" Mum was denying everything he said saying "no, I didn't say that, I never said that before."
After that was a whole silence between by dad and my mum, and me sitting there, also silent.
It's the first time I see my dad and mum quarrelled, and it's over some small little matter which could be talked nicely to each other. I know that dad was vexed by his relieve driver thingy and he didn't say anything when he came home as he didn't want us to worry and all, but why must he vent all his angry on my mum.
I thought I could handle quarrels and I thought I can take anything that happen at home, but I realise I can't. I cannot handle quarrels at home, I can't. I nearly cried when I see them quarrel, which I swallow my tears and all. I just sit there staring at the TV, hoping that they will just stop the quarrel. I should have said something but I have no idea what I should say. It's the first time my parent quarrel and I really really have no idea how to handle it. People who knows me know that I hate quarrels and I don't like quarrels. No one heard before that my family members quarrel, and it happened this time. I nearly collapsed, and burst into tears.
When I heart my dad said "you will be glad and happy to see in involve in a car addcident right?", my heart sank, and it really hurts me deeply. I have no one to rely on now, and this things just happen. I am not as strong as you think dad, so is mum. I know you are not having a good time either, but you should have said such hurtful words. You are so wonderful as a dad, and I always look upon you. You are great, and I believe mum, and brother thinks so too, so don't put all the stress to yourself and support it all my yourself. You have us to help you. I'll try to help you find the numbers for the relieve drivers, mum will help with housework and brother will do his best for studies, we all are independent and I believe this difficult period for you will soon leave. Bear with it a little more, k?
I have no one to turn to now, no one to console me. Previously, I will have my buddy and my boyfriend to console me whenever I am down, or whenever I am hit with a blow or am sad and all, but now, it seems like I'm really alone. I have no one to turn to. No boyfriend to turn to, buddy too busy to attend to me, and I really didn't want to bother him too much. My heart is yet again hurt, and it's now wounded even more deeply than before. I don't see any light from my sight anymore.
All I want to be is like before, be happy, cheerful and happy-go-lucky, which can't I do it now? I have too much, too much things buried under my mind, under my heart. I never know how to say them out. I never. Sometimes, I think why was I ever borned, to bring my parents so much burden? Why can't I bring them wealth?
I can't stop my tears from flowing down now, and I have no idea how long I haven't been crying. I love my family, and I love you, but I just don't know how to show my love. I'm a quiet person at home, and I a quiet person myself. Only when I'm crazy do I outbring myself.
How I wish that at this point of time, there's a shoulders to lay on, how I wish the one I love is just beside me or just a phone call away from me so that at least I know he cares. How I wish, I wasn't here, in this universe, to bring burden to all. How I wish....
love goes around | 2:57 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Had a pleasant dream while sleeping. Well, after I wake up the dream isn't that pleasant actually, but while sleep, it was really a pleasant dream which I hope will happen soon. (... hoping)
Dreamt that someone (whom I hope he is) is hugging me (around my neck) while I was walking down a street (no idea where). I have no idea where we are heading to exactly but to a place like a school. So we just walked, all the way hugging me, and I just tuck my hand over his waist. I think we didn't talk, just walk happily (I more than contented) and as we are reaching the entrance of the school, he saw someone (supposedly to me his teacher), he greeted him and then I just when around checking which door is open for us to pass, which the first few I check are all not opened, so we have to take the long way to the school.
Before I can finish enjoying my journey to that school, my mobile rang which waken me up from my sleep. Felt a kind of sweetness from my dream I shall say (hope to have more of this type of dream), at least I can feel happy when I'm sleeping. But I shall remember to turn my phone to my sleep mode in order not to affect my nice nice dream. If the mobile phone didn't ring just now, how will the dream goes? Sitcoms?? Haha.
Didn't went for the drinking gathering yesterday due to the rain (which my friend claimed, and they cancelled it). Luckily I went shopping yesterday with Ryan and Karen in Orchard area. I got myself a black shorts for my new year and Ryan got himself a jacket, a top and a pants (brown series). Karen as usual, can't get her mind set on what to get for herself. Might go back to get the red top, but well, depends ba, I know I'll definally return to Far East Plaza for my accessories.
Got Jun Hong a jeans too (which he ask me to get for him as birthday present). Hope it fits him well. Next will be presents for ZiSheng and my dear Eileen as their birthday is round the corner too. Already know what to get for ZiSheng, haha, not too difficult to get a present for him. As for Eileen, a bit challenging. SHall see what I can get to suprise you ya?? Haha.
Will end here, do some work and then tomorrow will have to mug on my books for my exam next week (if no one ask me out).
love goes around | 6:33 PM
"Love someone doesn't mean you need to own that person, but to see that person happy."
How true will that mean? I know very well this quote long time ago, since my secondary school times. Back in my secondary school days, I can put that quote into use, I can don't own that person if that person is happy, and still be very happy with my own life, but now I realise I can never be like before, so giving to this type of things.
Although I'm still quite innocent in this type of things, but I can no longer be so giving and generous in this.
How many people nowadays can really love a person and yet don't get the person and still be happy? I still thinks that when you love a person, you will go for it, and do all you can to make that person likes you too. You will do whatever you can to make the person have feelings for you.
Well maybe I didn't do that before, therefore love always can't transmit to the other person.
Frankly, I'm quite slow in feeling love and feeling anyone who has feeling for me. I can't feel the love people have for me. It's always the case. Only when people say and then I'll realise it, if not I'll not realise it. I'll only treat that person as friends who treat me well. Maybe gradually, my feeling for this type of things is getting stronger, but didn't want to admit it as I'm really really afraid of getting hurt yet again.
I have no idea why my love for someone are always not felt by them. I admit I'm a conservative person, whom doesn't like kissing and hugging in public as I always have this mentality that doing all those things in public is like showing off and stuff like that. Recently, I just opened up and change the philosophy I had always kept well, thinking it will show more love to that person, but well I was wrong, it didn't.
Sometimes, I have no idea how a person can feel love from the other person. Analyzing people around me, and the strangers while I was boarding public transport, how many really hug and kiss in the public, seldom. Some don't talk to each other. Some of the girlfriend is like super fierce, and the guy still love them. Etc. Many more which I think you can reflect on what you see everyday.
Sometimes it just come to my mind," how to let the other party know your love for him/her?" How can love be felt? More kissing? More hugging? More talking on the phones/ talking to each other? More sms? More romantic moments? More moments alone together? Or what? How can love be felt by the other party? How you feel the love from the other person.
For people who know me, you know me, that is I don't really do some initimacy things with my boyfriend in front of friends and all. Alright, I'm quite shy in all these things and normally I don't initiate, but well I'm a female, can't possibly ask me to initiate all the time ya? If I could initiate a few times, the other party can laugh already.
I can be lovely to my guy in anyway (not physically that is), and I can be a romantic person too (sometimes extremely romantic, that is if I really love that person a lot). Someone guys just doesn't have the luck to feel my love that way but hey, I really can be quite a person who needs protection from my man. Always enjoys myself when someone dote on me a lot (from young till now, no one really dote on me other than my grandparents). I rely on my other party a lot too, and I really do if I fall so deeply in love.
Well, the deeper you fall in love, the more difficult it is to get out of it and the more difficult you can be alone after you get out of it. I have a few good friends who are willing to be there for me but well, I will get away from their help, running away from their help to pull me up yet again. Didn't want to affect them, didn't want them to see me cry for another guy again (don't think they see me cry for guys before ba).
Sometimes it's really quite painful when you really fall so deeply in love with that person and that person just can't feel your love, or you can't be with that person and can only see that person as a friend, a normal friend. Therefore, I always told myself not to fall so deeply in love for a person, in order not to get such a painful fall when everything ends. Till now, I have 4 painful fall, and this one is the most painful one. Well, many will be quite puzzled about what I'm talking about, but ya, I'm not that decent as you think la, I had many relationship before and all didn't end quite well. Hate being hurt but am hurt all the while. Crazy me. Like I enjoy being hurt, but who enjoys? Just that once I'm in love, I'll love the person deeply, if not I'll not fall for the person. Maybe that's the reason why I always have a bad fall after that. Who ask me to fall in love so easily? Sigh.
"Love someone doesn't mean you need to own that person, but to see that person happy."
How true is this phrase? How true will this quote be? How many will be able to do this? I have no idea. You tell me.
love goes around | 5:41 PM
SaSa's Short Story Philosophy ONE
"Cherish every precious moment you have in life. Happy moments don't last forever."
I find this quote quite useful at times. I agree that happy moments will not last forever. How many people have happy moments that really last? I guess no one. Even those in love, with boyfriend/ girlfriend showering you love all the time and making you happy every now and then, does this so called "happy" moments don't always last forever.
Therefore, cherish every moment you have in life, especially those happy ones. Especially to those who are in love, cherish every moments together. You won't know when the other party will just leave you and you won't have the chance to even cherish the moments together.
Normally, people will regret and normally they will say:
"Why didn't I cherish when I have it?"
Well, I could almost 100% sure that everyone will have this thinking, no matter how much you cherish one thing, you will still regret, asking yourself the three letter word 'why'. How well can a person really cherish what they have when they have it? I have no answer to that because I myself am not fit to answer that question. Did I cherish whatever I have when I have it? I could say a lot of times I didn't, and when it's time when I realise that I wanted to cherish it, it's normally too late for me to cherish it properly, wholeheartedly, because I wasn't given the chance to anymore.
Therefore, cherish and love whatever you have and when you have the chance to, because you won't know when you will not get anymore chance, and you won't know when the happy moments will stop just there.
love goes around | 5:00 PM
曹格"Superman"粉丝同乐会 - 19/01/2007
love goes around | 4:45 PM
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两只恋人 - 曹格
背叛 - 曹格
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love goes around | 4:07 PM
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love goes around | 3:56 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Thanks to all who show me concern in one way or another. Don't have to be worried about me, I'm fine. Just need some time to sort out my mind.
Might not have the mood to blog about anything here this few weeks. But will try to blog la.
Will be going for Superstar Preview later at Mediacorp Studios later. Got the free tickets while singing at K Box Paradize Centre. So happy, can see all the Superstars. Hee.
Tomorrow will be going for a drink at Baden, maybe just chill out. Didn't want to get drank at someone else's birthday party.
Friday, Elvin asked me to go Boat Quay KTV pub for a drink at night. I didn't reject, so depends whether if he called me on Friday or Thursday or not ba. Elvin, try to tell me on Thursday, k. Hee.
That's all about this week. Enjoy people.
love goes around | 4:56 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
Hate the state I'm in now. Hate myself right at this moment. Can't even see a glimpse of my cheerful sight now.
Trying to be strong in front of my parents is the only way I can do, to not let them worry about me. Therefore, I don't feel like staying home for a single moment, don't feel like being home early. I'm outside now, and hope that I'll never be able to go home. How I wish I stay alone now, so that I can go home as and when I like.
Hoping for the America trip to come as soon as possible, hoping it will be just tomorrow. Didn't want to stay in this island that made me feel so pain.
Didn't want my friends to be affected by me, but guess my blog entries have affected those who have read it. Apologises. If it does made ur mood swings, then please leave, I don't want to affect you.
This is the only place I can pour all my sadness and sorrow out, so let me be.
I'm just like an empty soul walking around.
Don't have the feel to take in anything food now, therefore I didn't eat. Slept last night and I regretted coz I yet again cried to sleep. I hate myself for tearing so easily. Now, not only am I back to the person I was 2 years ago, but back to the old person I was 5-6 years ago.
I'm sick and tired of the word "LOVE". I can't feel how wonderful it is to be "in love" and "being loved" since don't know when.
What is the real defination of love? Let me sort my mind out first before I blurg out the defination of love in my dictionary.
love goes around | 7:12 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
I HATE THE WAY I AM NOW!!! REALLY HATE TO THE CORE... CAN I DIE??? NOW???
Need some strong alcohol to get myself sobber. I don't like the feeling in me now. Tight up in my heart, kind of million blades stabbing into my heart, heart breaking into pieces and bleeding.
Why am I experiencing this feelings again?? Don't want to comment, but I really want to vent out!!! I need beach now. I need strong strong alcohol now. I wana DIE now...
If anything happen to me, please don't be too sad, don't cry, coz it's a way to help lighten my load I'm having now.
I'm sorry to all that are affected, but I don't have any other choice. If one day I disappear, don't be too sad and don't miss me, I'm not worth of that.
To make me happier, please live your life happily, smile more, be happy. That way, I'll feel happy for you and feel better for myself.
love goes around | 12:15 AM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Basically, once word can describe my day today - UNLUCKY!!!
Why did I say I was unlucky today. First of all, I drop my laptop, yes DROP my laptop, on the floor, accidentally. My heart aches when I heard the bang sound, and when I saw it, I nearly cried. Anxiously, I pick up the laptop and look carefully at every part of the laptop to see if anything is damaged. Next, I on the com and at the same time, praying hard that everything is working well.
Thank god, everything are still in tack. Phew~ When I reached office, I still can't get my heart at ease, so I checked again and to my horror, my CD reader cover came out. Panic, I tried to fixed it back, luckily I manage to get it fixed back, if not I'll definately burst into tears.
Now, my heart still pumps fast, having a tense in myself, afraid that something will happen to my lappy. It's my precious and I can't let anything happen to it, cannot.
Before I went for my work, I went to did a facial and body massage + scalp massage at "Bioskin". Got a voucher and the date due is today, so I must go no matter what (cost $48, U.P. $220). After the treatment, my face felt much better and of coz my shoulder felt less tense. Even the massager say that I am very stressed. Well, I think I am. Can never take shoulder massage or people touching my shoulder. In the beginning, I'll feel itchy and uncomfortable, but after a while, I'm still able to bear with it.
Initially wanted to go collect something frolm Creative, but as I'm running late, I give it a miss. Will collect it next time. Haha.
Hopefully I won't meet up with any of unlucky situation later.
love goes around | 5:05 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Sunday went to cut my hair, and rebonded my hair also. Well, now I have a new hairstyle, believe many will be very shocked to see me in my new hairstyle. Haha.
Won't be posting any of my new look pictures up on the blog. Haha. You'll know once you see me. Hee.
After doing my hair, meet Ho to go for a singing session at Civic Centre. Well, sang in the hall again. Not too bad though, at least my voice that day isn't that bad, so is Ho's voice. Well, his expectation is high, so he feels that he don't sound that good that day. To me, it's nice, really nice already.
Saw Emily and Jason at Party World too. But think due to my new hairstyle, and the dim lightings, Emily didn't really recognise me.
K.O.D. charges increase again. When we saw the bill, we nearly got a shock of our life. The K.O.D. increses so much. From the 50 cents, to 80 cents, and now it's $1.50. Yes, it's $1.50. An increase of 70 cents. It's crazy. They are earning so much already, still keep increasing the K.O.D. charge. Please give us, the consumers a break. We just need to enjoy some simple entertainment, which Singapore is limited with that already.
Have been working yesterday, from morning till evening. Ran to two places for work. Morning, I went to Synovate to help my ex-company to do some data entry work, as they need people to help.
After that, I leave that place at around 1pm and headed to my current part-time company at a publishing company. Luckily I reached there on time. Didn't have much food yesterday, as I didn't have enough time to have a proper meal. Bought some pancakes and a curry puff for my breakfast and lunch together.
Still, I manage to go get a mobile pouch for someone. Well, I really hope you like it and it's useful to you.
I knock off early also, ended work at 5pm as my colleagues have to go for an external meeting at SRC, which is 5.30pm. So I need to leave office by 5pm as the office will be closed. Went to Dohby Ghaut to wait for Ho to go home together la, as he asked me to wait for him. So I did.
Before heading home, we went to Woodlands (Causeway Point) to see what finger food and light snacks we could get from there. I didn't get anything other than Otah, but queue too long, so I give it a miss. Ho went to get sandwich, which he say it's nice. Haha.
Well, mood swing again last night, still can't denotes what is the reason behind it. Currently, also have a slight mood swing, hope it'll be better after I go for band practice. Yes, will be going for band practice later coz I need to get video from laoshi and tickets money from teo hui.
love goes around | 5:41 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
I'm in deep shit! My depression and mood swing came back to haunt me again. I simply just hate it. No idea why. Is it due to the rainy weather?? I doubt so, but I have no other reasons to back my depression and mood swing already.
Had a small fight with someone quite dear to me to yesterday night. I have no idea why I'll get so mad and disappointed but how the person reacts really means a lot to me. Well, enough of yesterday's matter, it's over so let bygones be bygones.
I wanted to be like before, everyday happy happy, everyday cheerful, not like now, everyday moody, people see my face now also will feel moody.
Guess to prevent making people moody, I'll lock myself home for the time being, till I can face the people outside and not make them moody, then will I choose to go meet up with them. Even if I wana go out, I'll go out alone, not going to ask anyone to accompany or what. Just need some time alone.
Don't have the feel to blog now. Think I'll end here, before everyone reading this gets moody, then I'll be the culprit.
love goes around | 4:02 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Think my mood swing, or rather my depression mood is over. Fast?? Ya, hope it won't come back haunting me again. I hate th depression and mood swing period, simply just can't control my emotions and all.
Like what Ryan say, Sagittarian are strong people, and so ya, Ryan must be strong too k. Well, let's talk about me and Ryan la. He is a Sagittarian, and so am I. We both thinks that we have many things in similar, our characters, our views and as well as the way we look at things. Haha. Well, now even our occassional mood swings are quite similar.
Well, don't get the wrong idea ya, we are just FRIENDS, sharing the same horoscope with similar characters. Haha.
I agreed with him totally that sagittarian like to bottle things up inside them as they doens't want others to worry about them. Always so considerate causing ourselves so much pain in the end. Anyway, at the end of the day, we just want the people around us to he happy.
Loves to help people, which sometimes might get much hurt too. Haha. Everytime will think about others first, before ourselves. Like we are so noble like that right, but I think it's not noble lah, just want the best for our friends and love ones.
Emotional at time, but guess this part I win Ryan, haha, coz I'm a super emotional gal. Haha. People who are close to me knows, I cry quite often, even for the slightest things. May look strong and tough outside, but internally, am actually quite soft, timid and easily emotional. Haha.
Well, let you all understand me more la. Haha. Don't say I didn't say. Wahaha. I'm crazy, beats me I have no idea why I'm like that too. Once in a while, I'll be like that, so leave me with that ya??
Take care guys, stay HAPPY ya??
love goes around | 11:57 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Think I really having a mood swing this week. No idea what causes it, but just not in the mood to do anything and everything. It seems like the world is going against me yet again. I've not been feeling this bad for quite some time already, and this feeling came back to me again. Argh. Just felt sucky.
I hate myself for being like that, but I can't help it. Feeling that I'm a nusiance. Never can I be a good girlfriend, nor can I be a good friend. Not initiative in any sense makes me felt kinda so left out.
I thought December isn't my month, yet January is even worst. Thought that a new year will have better days and happier moments, but why this moody feeling's coming back to me?
I didn't want to hurt anyone, nor want anyone to be worried about me. I can't vet anything out in words, so I can only type in blog and cry out in sleep. People, don't get too affected by my mood now, coz it's not worth ya?? STay happy is the way, not like me.
Had a bad dream last night of me and someone. I hate that dream. I wanted to talk about it here but I can't. Well, it'll be my long term secret though.
Take care people, think I shall not affect your mood anymore. Stay happy and cheerful. Take care.
love goes around | 1:30 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
Yesterday was the big day for NYP Alumni Winds I shall say, as it's the first public performance for the alumni band (even though it's a combine band thingy).
Let's comment on the concert a bit (my personal point of view).
Early in the morning, I rush all the way to NYP (in the speed of 120km/hr - speeding!!!!!) as we need to help shift instrument. Met some problems as the lorry is too small to fit in all the instrument, we needed the lorry uncle, Mano to make two trips. So, some went over to VCH first while some of us waited in school for Mano to come back with other instruments loaded onto the lorry.
But well well, we are stil on time. that was amazing. Reached VCH parking lot and gosh, there was no empty parking lot for us. While Jac got the perpendicular parking lot just beside VCH, i drove all the way in front for the paralle parking lot. I was quite scared actually but still parked anyway. To my amazed, I did it in one try. Haha. And i really prefer paralle than vertical.
After that, rush all the way up for rehearsal. I had to move up and down the stage as I need to go brief people about the procedure and all.
First, is the arrival of that night's emcee, which Eric is looking for. Although she made some mistakes during the concert, forgive her as she only got the script that day and have to get hrself prepared in a few hours. Given that, she did quite a great job too.
After that, is the arrival of my cameraman (Qing hong and friend). Brief them about the entrance and exit and what pictures to take and all, then let them have to freedom to take the pictures themselves. Hope the picture outcome isn't too bab, that goes to the video too. Anyone who has a copy of video they took, can burn me a copy too for compilation and then we can view it at our post-concert celebration.
Next is the ushers, which Sharon is the one briefing them. From then on, I begain to be kinda very busy, can't even stopped to talk and have my meals. To prevent myself from getting too late, I got change and then went to take my meal. After that, people came running to me again asking me how to operate this, operate that. Performance time is getting close and I haven't even put on my make-ups. In the end, i only put some light make ups and the run to fetch the G.O.H. Waited for her for quite some time and my hair is getting messy from the wind blows.
G.O.H. arrived and we walk her up to stage. That's the time when I started my marathon. After passing the G.O.H. to the usher in-charge. Me and Eric ran like hell to the stage. Eric good la, can go in from stage left, I need to run all the wait through back stage and enter from stage right as there isn't enough space to let me squeeze through from the stage back (behind the trumpets and the trombones).
Panting, er begin with our first piece, Festive Overture. It cam out not too bad. First half was quite alright, I should say it's quite nicely performed already.
During intermission, committees have to be at the Green Room for reception and guest entertainment. Yet again, i ran up and down just to find "shi mu", knowing she's already up there when I return.
After the intermission, we again got to rush back on stage for the performance. Me and Sharon gave up on waking from back stage, took the front stage and sat (was quite paiseh la). There we goes, procceed with our pieces and then end with Finale, which I ran again. After the end of Finale, i ran all the way from back stage, and up the stairs to the other side of the stage for the flower presentation.
Panting yet again, I presented the bouquet of flowers to laoshi and Eric present a small token of appreciation to laoshi. I can see that laoshi was quite happy (no idea if it's really happy or just put up a happy front). After presentation, yes.. again I ran full speed back to the seats for the last piece, encore piece.
After the piece, I was quite shocked that laoshi ask me, Eric and Salleh to the stage front and thank us. Felt awkward of course, my first time la. Hee.
Then following that, was the photo-taking session. Thanks Qing Hong and friends for helping us take pictures, have yet to get the pictured from them, but i'll get it from them very soon.
After that is sending off the G.O.H. and then back to the stage area and making sure everything is settled before we leave.
Went back to school. While driving, my car and Jac's car is like competing with each other. Haha. At first I won la, but after that, due to too many cars, I was behind. Anyway, we reached school earlier than the lorries. Haha. Made my parking, and suprisingly I got in to the lot without even looking at the parking lot, barely lucky la. Hee..
After shifting the instruments, we helped the percussion section to set up some of the instruments, which we trial and error with all the stands and cymbals. Haha. Ended around 10pm and sent Swee Teng home while Jac's car went to Amer place to get the clarinet. Then after I send Swee Teng home, we went to Thomson to have our dinner after meeting Jac.
Satisfied with the dinner, and it's nice loh~delicious. I send Thomas and Karen home before I headed home. Jac send Xiu, Tommy and Keenan home (Keenan driving this time).
That's all for that night. Didn't take many pictures coz was too busy to even take out my digi-cam. Sigh. Sad. But at least I get a chance to perform at VCH. Hope that the night's concert isn't too bad and hope that all audience enjoyed that night's concert.
love goes around | 12:29 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
It was a busy week. I was busy with my work, band and all. New Year's Eve was an enjoyable day.
First, we go KTV at Cuppage to sing. For KTV, I have with me Tommy, Karen, Pei Yi, Xiu, Ryan and Junhong. After KTV, we headed to Bugis for our "Ma La Huo Guo". Wow, this time round the "ma la" was really spicy. My mouth at a point of time was swollen. Ate a lot. For this I have Karen, Tommy, Pei Yi, Ryan, Herbert, Keenan, Gwen and Jac. After dinner, we headed to City Hall for countdown.
We walked and walked. Finally ended at One Fullerton and stationed there. Waited a while and saw the fireworks. It's really nice. Especially there are still fireworks out from the building which is so nice and special.
After fireworks, we walked again. Think some of them quite sian of walking and all, so seems quite sian. After that, we seat down in front of Maybank Tower. Came one Scotland man which I supposed is drank. Was pestered by him for quite some time.
After shaking him off, we settled at some other place and decide where to go. Much discussion later, we decide to go to Jac's house to start our drinking session.
Half of the people go take cab, and half of the people walked together to collect Herbert's car. Before reaching Jac's place, we drop Pei Yi at YCK station and then buy some stuff for our drinks. Then to Jac's place.
Had a lot of fun at Jac's place. Played the Indian game and drink quite a lot. Ah Tom drink the most. Followed by Karen then me. Cried so much which I can't get into details about it coz I myself can't remember. Haha. Anyway, it's fun and nice. I enjoyed. Thanks Ryan and Keenan for the help when we are all drank. Sorry, you all have to clear the mess. I'll give you all the links for the photos soon. Hee.
Now, we shall work hard for a succeed for our concert. JiaYou! Jia You! Jia You!
love goes around | 9:58 PM
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Trisa a.k.a. SaSa
15th December 1984
Sagittarian
Full-Time Marcomm Manager Part-Time MDIS B.S. Student
Innotec Solutions Pte Ltd
B.S. of Arts in Mass Comm - OCU
♥ Cravings ♥
Entering the Media Industry
Earn More Money, Get Wealthy
Travelling Around the World
Digital Camera
Agnes B Silver Knot Design Ring
New Shoes
New Bag
New Watch
Get Slimmer "The Rule of Love" Book ($25+) LCD TV Monitor A New Hi-Fi System A Car"having one at the moment" Learn Dancing"learning it on 30 Nov onwards"
Learn Piano/ Cello
