Sunday, June 29, 2008
Had my first exam after I came back from America. My first paper is "Management of Personal Lifestyle". Seriously, I thought it will be a difficult paper as it's all about wellness, nutritions, cardiovascular diseases and human body, but to my ease, the paper is easy.
All of us took about an hour to complete the paper and I belive I should have answered at least 80% of the questions correct. Emailed Ms. Binkley my assignment as she asked us to just email it to her and not submit the hard copy as she wants to practice "green", so before I sleep last night, I emailed her the assignment that I've done on "Comparison of Cigarette Smoking between Singapore and America".
After exam, I felt quote bored and didn't know where to go, what to do. So while I was walking towards the MRT station, I called my buddy (which I have not contacted for quite some time) and was so sad that he picked up my call not knowing who I am. Tears started running down my cheeks. From a very happy and joyful tone talking to him, I sounded very disappointed and sad. Didn't know that we have drift further and further away from each other. This is the second time I felt this pain in my heart from my buddy. The first time is during my birthday, which he forgot all about it and only called me to say Happy Birthday to me the next day. Now he sees my mobile number, and he don't even recognise it. It really hurts me deep.
I thought we are as close as brothers and sisters? I thought we understand each other till the core? I thought we can rely on each other when needed? But now, everything seems like such a stranger to me. I no longer feel that I understand you as much as I do before, and I no long think you understand me as much as before anymore. You no longer care about this younger buddy of yours anymore. Don't tell me you cherish me anymore. Don't tell me you lose Marianti and doesn't want to lose me. Don't tell me all this as I really don't know if I should believe or not.
Till today, I still conclude that I don't have that much friends. Have been calling and asking people out today and well, none of them are free. Saddening right? Yes, a bit. I thought I have a great circle of friends, but now I realise that I'm really lonely, and lonely in the sense that I really don't have anymore true close friends.
Years ago, I kept thinking having a buddy, a close friend will be sufficient because he/she will be by your side when you needed them to be. But now, or rather, today I realise my idea of having one true close friend is wrong.
I know no matter how you treat me and no matter how upset and disappointed I am to you, I'll still care for you and be there for you when you needed me to, because I truly thinks and feels that I should be giving to all my friends, especially you because you are the only person I regard as 'true' and the only person I think I will keep till the end no matter what happens.
Well, enough of all this complaining and venting. Just finished my Exam Part A of my assignment. Tomorrow will be continuing my Post-Assignment for my Environmental Science module, which deadline is coming Saturday. Think will not take long to complete it (hopefully) as I have done half of it already.
So now, it's time to sleep so that I can do a better assignment tomorrow after I wake up and after the exam, I'll be freed for the time being and go for my last module and that's it. No more asisgnment, no exams. I can do other things that I wanted to (i.e. work part time to earn more money? learn dancing?)
I'm so excited and hope that August will arrived like tomorrow so that everything will be over by then. -PRAY-
Haha. Alright, I'm starting to utter nonsense already. Turn in. Lights off.
love goes around | 2:27 AM
Monday, June 23, 2008
I think there is one word that can used to describe me now. MISERABLE. I don't want to elaborate too much on it but well that's what I can thought of about decribing me.
I have running out of cash. I need to earn more money already. Having to many things to take care of lately. I have to pay phone bills of both me and my parents. I have to give my parents monthly allowance. I have to pay for my food and expenses and travellings. I think I don't have much left in my savings. I still have to save to return the money for my studies. It's a few thousand dollars.
Thinking how am I able to get more money monthly? Maybe I should go and work part time some days. Though it will be tiring but then that's the only way to earn more money, isn't it? I shall go and find a night job after my two major exams and earn some extra money for myself and my parents so that they will not have to pay so much. ANd also to return the money I've borrowed for my studies as soon as I can.
The other things, I think I better don't bother too much yet.
love goes around | 12:35 AM
It's been a bad day today. Wasted the whole of today doing nothing. Woke up in the morning and got a message from my friend asking me to go with him to meet one of his overseas friend together and was thinking since he asked me to go, I go loh.
Rushing the whole morning washing up and changing and get down to town knowing that I miss the lunch with them. Argh. I even took a cab down to Taka just to meet them in the fastest time. Well, nevermind about it since I have done everything that way. So after that, met up with him and went to find his friend and later on I went to Mos Burger for my 1st meal of the day. Finishing my meal, we went to looking for his friend again and shortly after, we lost them again. Argh. Well, they are fast, or rather, we were slow.
So didn't really both about them I went to shop for my own things and initially was thinking of window shopping and after going in to Mango, which is having their Mid year sale, I got myself a Disney Collection top at 18 bucks. It's Jumbo. Haha. Waste 18 bucks again. But well, I like it. Hee.
After that, walk again and tried to find his friend but still can't find. While in the search, I went into Muji to look around and found something ZS like inside, so I just bought it and probably pass to him when I see him again.
Been walking along Orchard Road without any goal is a horrible thing. I don't know what I have to do, it's bored and tiring to walk here and there just to find someone, which we cannot find. I have no much things to talk to my that friend and so I just walk. I think he feels that I a bit not happy and no mood already by 6pm. So we went to the Food Section area at Shaw House for a short drink and a rest. After that we decided to head home without finding his friend anymore, so I asked him to give them a call to inform them.
After he get hold of them, they decided to go for dinner but it's at 8.30pm and the time we make the call is like 7pm. Argh~ Have to wait another one and a half hour. So we went to Cineleisure and after that walked back to Taka, as my friend feels that his friend will go there for dinner. Shortly after, his friend called saying they can't reach him on his mobile moments ago so they have hop on to the cab to head to the eating venue. I was like so irritated. I asked him to give his friend a call when we were below their hotel and ask if they are heading to dinner already and he say it's not too good to like make people think we are rushing them to go for dinner.
So in the end, we headed back to AMK to eat at the hawker and then back home.
It's really a waste of my time and I didn't get to do much things too. Now that I'm back home, I don't have the mood to do my assignment that I have to hand in by this coming Saturday. Damn la. Argh~ Just feel like shouting man. I am so angry yet I always don't show it out. Shit me man.
Well, hope tomorrow will be a better day. Should turn in and do my assignment tomorrow night instead, it's getting late already.
love goes around | 12:35 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
Hi all, millions of apologies for not updating the blog as I have been very busy after I came back to Singapore and have not really rest much since.
Work have been getting more and more and time to me is like shorter or shorter. I think, if you give me 48 hours a day, I believe it won't be enough too.
Yesterday was a busy day for me I should say. In the morning, I went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve Park. Walk up the route and do my assignment at the same time. It was a tiring journey as the slope is quite steep. Nevertheless, I finish the journey. I realise I made a wrong choice. I forget to bring my water bottle along with me, and I was like thirsty after I am down and headed straight to get something to drink, plus eat (coz I never eat breakfast before I went).
After that, I went to Marina Square to pass Anwar some flyers and see if he is doing fine. I think he is a capable and willing to learn guy. Probably he may need to more time to get use to our working environment. But I felt that he is a fast learner and when he don't understand, he will really ask. Hope he will stay with us. I hope. Haha.
After that rush back home to fetch my friends to my house to do the so called "lucky charm" for main band members coz they are going to Vienna in two weeks time. Hope they can do well though I hear they are not quite prepared. Anyway, I will be be here in Singapore to support them, do us proud. Really hope they will like the lucky charm that we've (Karen, Weixiang and Me) made for then coz we really took our time and effort to do one for them. It might look quite bad but well, it's a though that counts. Hope they will use it and bring it everywhere they go.
We ended the process at around 1am, which we started at around 4pm. Phew~ At least we completed. It's tiring. Really. After packing everything, drive the both of them home (coz late already) then go back home and intended to mop the floor, and found that there is no mop at home. I can't seem to find where my mum keep the mop. Sad la. After a while, I gave up searching for the mop and went for a bath before I turn in at around 2.30am.
This morning I'm tired la. Very tired and my shoulders are aching. Argh...
This period of time, I felt that I have so much thoughts in my mind that I wanted to say but I guess I really don't know how to potray them out. I really hope everyone is happy and not hurt anyone else anymore.
So to all my friends, stay happy coz when you are happy, I'll be happy.
Love you guys, my dearest friends.....
love goes around | 12:04 PM
