First heard this song yesterday when my friend sang it at KTV. Thought it was a nice and sweet song, hence I went to youtube to search for this song 《萤火虫》by Ariel Lin.
Enjoy the video!!
I was home quite early today and my parent was super surprised. Normally I don't reach home that early on Saturday as I will normally go out with my friends to have dinner and chill out. However, it makes me feel so happy to see the shocked expression on their face, as you will feel that they are happy to see me back early.
It's always fun to chat with my group of friends about their finding on guys and guys and their analysis about gayisum. Haha. We are really capable in linking people and people around and narrow down into findings. Haha. Maybe we all can be a rather good analysist.
Attendance today isn't too good, but I thought that the music that we produced was not too bad today, given the low attendance. Next week there will not be any band practice. Well, it's such a coincidence as I will not be attending the practice next week due to my gathering with poly friends going to Hort Park and Henderson Bridge.
I'll be having quite a lot of programmes tomorrow. Will have to go collect my YRPR Race Pack at Toa Payoh Sports Hall before I head for my band's Committee Meeting at AMK. After meeting, will have to see if my dear Karen have anything organized and line up for all of us. There goes my Sunday again. It seems like the Sunday is passing by so fast. I don't even have the feel that I have enjoyed my weekend. Think I really need a long long break.
While window shopping some weeks ago, I saw a very nice ring from Agnes B, which gave me an impluse to buy it but as the price is a bit too steep, I decided not to. Till now, I am still aiming at the ring (time to save for that ring) so that it can replace my current link heart ring. It's time to pamper myself a bit and buy a proper ring for myself. Haha. I have attached a picture along with this blog so that you all can judge my taste. Wahaha. Well, whatever it is, I do think that this ring is a simple and nice ring. Haha. Save up, save up!!
Enough of my nagging, I will go watch TV and continue chionging my drama series.
Enjoy your weekend!!!
Another great artiste from Hong Kong pass away this morning.
Know as 大傻 who always took the role of bad guys in most of the show died of nose cancer. I always love watching his show as he really can protray the role well. Kick the bucket peacefully, with friends and family members around him at the moment he left this world, I believe he should be contented that he have a lot of friends around him.
Got to know this news from my friend's MSN nick and was rather shocked by the news.
Realise more and more people from the entertainment circle paid their life to cancer. Is it due to stress in work and the irregular working hours? Beats me, I have no idea. Anyway, nowadays a lot of people are giving up their life to this word "cancer" and it's really very scary.
Now I'm scared too. Both my grandmothers passed away due to cancer too, and people do mention that cancer is a family trend. If one person in the house have cancer, the chances of their kins having cancer will be higher. I think I should beware and start having a good lifestyle already.
Be healthy now on, before everything becomes too late.
Had a bad bad Monday morning after chatting without someone on MSN. I just don't understand why everytime I talk to him, I will tend to end up arguing with him about things. Well, if you say I may not be a good girlfriend, be it and I admit that I may not be a good one, but doesn't mean that you should curse me in one way or another.
So what if I have a few friends which you can count merely using 1 hand? I'm not the cause of that? Think through, why do you only have that few friends? Is there something wrong with your socialization skills? Why blame it on me for neglecting you? And for goodness sake, it's not like I ignore you or something. Since when I turn you down when I'm free when you ask me to accompany you? I don't ask you out, doesn't mean that I don't treat you as friends.
Please, I do have many friends, and if I do have to ask each and every one of my friends to go out day after day, don't you think I'll be like a mad busy woman entertaining each and every friend I have? Sort out your mind.
You always put friendship is a mutual thing on your mouth, but how mutual you want a friendship to be? Friends are someone who is there for you when you need a listening ear, need someone to accompany, and not like me, venting your anger and telling I neglected you and all. For god gracious, I am not your girlfriend, nor your wife, so why should the neglect word be used?
We have our own personal friends, and definitely we will have friends that we do feel more comfortable to be with. Of course, naturally I will ask people whom i'm confortable with to go out and chit chat. If I don't even feel comfortable, why should I ask you out?
Come on, you really have to get a life! Don't say I keep repeating myself, but you really should get a life and go out more and experience life outside and not stay home everyday. To have more close friends or true friends, you really need to first have a wide group of friends first. With friends that is countable using 1 hand, it's so difficult to even select 1 true friend out from there.
I can jolly well block you out of my MSN friends list, but I chose not to because I still treat you as a friend and I don't want you to feel neglected and despair. But can you please spare some thought for me as well? You have been making my mood real bad this feel days.
Almost everyday for the past 3 days you have been MSNing me about all those nonsense which I didn't even mention or say anything about. So what if I have gift from my suitor? So what if I put the picture as my MSN display picture? It's my freewill to do whatever I want. My life is not controlled by you. I have been tolerating with all your nonsense but please do test my patience and step on my tail, I will really bite and bite hard.
I treat you as my friend, don't try to test my patience in that and don't take it for granted. I am not your venting machine. You want to vent, vent it on your own blog, which I have set it up for you to do all the venting. I'm sorry but I'm not the equipment for that.
Had a great sleep this morning although my biological clock wake me up at 8.30am. Wanted to wake up by then and start doing on my work, but due to my tireness overwhelming my mind, I lay back onto my pillow and continue ZZzzZZzz.
Woke up a few times in the morning today (once at 8.30am, once at 10am, once at 10.30am and the lastly 11am). Slacking in bed for like around half an hour to one hour before I got up and wash myself up. Had a small little bun for my brunch and started to do the brochure for the microphone as one of my colleague needs it.
Finishing up the brochure and send it to my young boss and him and switch off my lappy as I need to head for my facial appointment at Chinatown.
After my facial session, I drove to AMK McDonalds to settle down there as I was plain bored and hungry at the same time, plus I don't feel like going home (well, I'm not actually a homely person).
Had my second and last meal of the day there. Thereafter, I continue to sit at the corner of Mac and started playing with MSN using my E71, reading through some training course terms and conditions plus reading my new book 《有一种爱叫心痛》.
The short stories in the book is real touching and many a times I near teared after reading a story. It's so touching can? Touches my heart a lot.
Reached home and started to do some research on the company that needed IPTV Program Designer. Well, I'm in dilemma whether to go for this job training or not as I'm not too sure if I am capable on taking up this job or not. Although I do not need to pay for the training as WDA and the company will be paying everything, and of course, I have nothing to loss as I will be paid while on training per month around S$ 1,000, but I am now not too sure if I got what it takes to take up something new or not. Maybe I'm too used to what I'm doing now and very soon I'll be stagnant, which I don't want. Argh~~ Stressed!
Anyway, feel like turning in but damn I'm very awake now. My symptom is coming back again. Shit! On Sunday I will never seem to get into sleep even if I lay on bed and try to sleep. Even if I sleep, I will wake up several times in the middle of the night (it seems like my mind is worrying that I will not wake up on time to go work) and check on the time. Argh~~ HELP!!!
I've hung up the new puzzle in my room, replacing my KOF puzzle. Although it's smaller than my KOF puzzle, but it seems to be blending into my room color a lot I thought. I begin to like it more and more. Hee..
Anyway, I knew weekend is your family day hence I normally don't disturb you but surprisingly, you called me this morning. Hee. Thanks. Thought you may be inconvenient to make any phone calls. So, thanks for the call, still... :)
Quote for the day （今日论语）:
当你爱上一个人的时候，请加倍地爱他，珍惜他，体谅他，不要让误会变成枷锁，锁住了那棵脆弱的心．．．．．
I was at Jurong Point last evening as I had a poly friends (Baozhen, Jesslyn, Eileen, Jonathan & Jodi)gathering there. However, as usual, I am late for the gathering as Jurong and Ubi is damn far apart from each other and I was caught in a jam. I set off from office at around 6.30pm and I only reached Jurong Point at around 7.45pm. By the time I reached, my right butt muscle is already cramped up due to me using my right leg stepping on the break all the time.
Had my dinner at Din Tai Feng and after that hop over to Starbucks for our drink and talk cock session. Gathering with them will never fails to bring laughter to me, especially our dear Jodi (still as funny as before, always talk cock). Hope to have another meet up very soon with you all.
We left Jurong Point at around 11pm and headed home seperately.
As someone isn't in a good mood, I offer to chat with him online to cheer him up a lot.
Had a pleasant surprised from Cheri again (3rd surprise) and this time round I will expect that he will come over coz he was emphasizing on it while I was chatting with him online. I knew he was capable of doing it, so I never doubt his action. But what I didn't really expect is he actually brought along the puzzle that he show me through his webcam that he has fixed up late at night recently. It's a wonderful and nciely fixed puzzle that glows in the dark. Certainly, I feel it's a real sweet and ncie puzzle (see for yourself below).
Lovely Puzzle that Glows in the Dark.. Thanks CheriThanks for yet another pleasant surprise, and certainly I am really very touched. It's your favourite puzzle (you mention) and you gave it to me, and what's more, you stay up late and eat into your sleep to fix this up (you mentioned). I'll treasure it a lot and will hang it up somewhere so that whenever i think of you, I can look at it. Hee. I'll remember you "moon tanning" phrase. Wahaha.
This afternoon having band practice as usual. Before heading to practice, I had my lunch with the sales colleagues (Samuel, Kelvin and Eric) at the nearby coffeeshop, which they always recommend on their roti prata. Indeed, it was not too bad. After finishing our meal, we sat there to chat for a whie before we headed our seperate ways.
Practice today wasn't that bad, and I also love the way band relaxes my mind and soul, and a moment of pure clearness in mind. All I know is music and rythme. We sight read on Sourcery Suite, Opus. 112 and I thought this arrangement was nice (Weixiang don't agree though as he feels it's too slow). I like this piece. Other than sight reading this piece, we also continue to rehearse on our Symphony No. One Movement I, III & IV. Well, still need to brush up on my running notes and accidentals.
After band, me and my group of friends (Kai Boon, Eileen, Swee Teng) headed to Bishan for dinner and a littlw window shopping after dinner. Boon and Eileen headed off after dinner at Pastamania, leaving me and Swee Teng shopping at Bishan. Nothing much to shop there as the shop is about the same and the place it's that big too. Left the place at around 7.45pm and headed to Sembawang Road's Caltex to wash my car since there isn't any car queuing for the wash (first time). After that I headed home.
Someone wanted to date me out for dinner but too bad he ended work too late (when he called me, it's around 8.30pm and I have already reached my house carpark). I thought he was merely kidding with me yesterday when he called me to chit chat while I was driving along the highway to Jurong and say he wanted to date me for dinner today. I didn't know he was actually serious.
But well, if he was to end work earlier, maybe I will be able to meet him for dinner and a small chat. Too bad then, will have to try harder again. Haha. Chat with him for quite a while before he headed for his dinner with his friends and just hang up the phone with him after talking cock for a while.
And now, I am super tired. My eyes can merely open la. Intended to watch chiong the series show that I have bought tonight but guess I can't do it as I am superly tired. Will turn in early today and wake up earlier tomorrow to do my work before I head for my pretty pretty facial session.
Goodnight people.
P.S. Thanks to my young boss for buying the Wolfberry King for me from Yu Yen Seng on Friday when we went for lunch. I will eat it wolfberry daily, or make it into drink and drink it daily. That also goes to the Famous Amos cookies too.
I reached home rather early today as I needs to run errand for my boss to collect cheque from SQ Centre. Thereafter, I headed to Yew Tee Point to send the 6" B/W TV Monitor to Homefix for exchange as a customer brought the TV over for exchange.
I was stick in Yew Tee Point for quite some time as there is a book fair by "Du Yi" and there are a lot of chinese books. I always like to buy chinese story books at such book fair and I can't control myself and bought 2 books, 《有一种爱叫心痛》 and 《有一种请叫心酸》.
I exceptionally like the first title, don't know why. I think maybe my best friend will know the reason by guessing. I offer to borrow the book, but that is after I finish reading it.
I also wrote down some titles that I would like to buy them in Taiwan at their bookstores. I got a very strong feeling that I will be broke in Taiwan buying books along. Haha.
Whatever it is, i need to save up badly as I have super many things to play for coming month. My car road tax is dueing soon, and my car insurance is dued too. Adding up will be S$1K plus. I brought my vehicle for service and got a bill of S$ 338, which was brought forward from the last time I repair my car brake. And I also change my tyre recently which is S$ 400. So all in all it adds up to S$2K. Damn! My 1 month salary is gone just like that.
Anyway, I got an email from Singapore Media Academy (SMA) offering me a programme for IPTV Creative Designer at Alcatel-Lucent Singapore. It's a 1 year attachment course and the Training Programme is at SMA. The training programme is fully subsidised by WDA and Alcatel-Lucent Singapore (S$ 7,820) and I get to have a monthly stipend of S$ 1000 during my training and attachment. And of course, after the 1 year training I have to work with the interactive media industry for at least 12 months. I thought it was a good opportunity and no harm trying it by sending my resume and CV to them. Who knows, I may be selected for an interview.
The Training Programme consist of Design, Production, User and Business Aspects, like:
- Introduction to Interactive TV Platform
- Software Application Refresher
- Video Trailer Creation & Production
- Conceptualization of Interactive TV production
- Analysis of IPTV User Experience & Behavior
- New Media Advertising Model & Concept
I think it's worth it as at the end of completing the whole programme, I will received a nationally recognised WSQ certificate. I thought it's a Win-Win situation, as I can become a student again, and I can persue for my dream and move a step near to it. I think it's time for me to break free to my current self and do something new. But I am still in delimma on whether to go for it or not. I don't want to lose my current job, yet I want to move towards my goal of doing media related jobs. Maybe I can part time for current job if they really take me in and earn extra income. Haha.
Well, will explore more and see how.
Watched the Taiwan Idol Series Show 《命中注定 我爱你》 on TV Channel U and this episode is so touching. The female leading actress (Chen Xinyi) is so sweet and generous. I can feel that she likes the male leading actor (Ji Cunxi), but she knows that he deeply love his current girlfriend (Anna) and he only treat Xinyi well due to the responsibility he has to give her. But I can also feel that the he himself has develop a feeling for Xinyi already, but he just don't want to admit it, and he can't let go of Anna.
What touches me is Xinyi never gets angry, even when Cunxi talked about how happy he was with Anna celebrating his birthday every year and all. It's heart-thorning to Xinyi (from her expression) but she never shows it to him and continues to talk to him with a smile.
Even on the day of their birthday, when Cunxi needs to leave her alone to go for the various programmes he arranged for her and look for Anna, I can see from Xinyi's expression she is deeply sad, but she hides all her sorrows and ask him to go ahead and be happy. I understand she wants him to be happy and find his happiness. But it's painful, and I can feel the pain.
Whatever it is, it time to sleep now. Before I end, I have a great phrase to share with all of you that I read from the book that I just bought, and I like the phrase very much.
如果真爱是一种幸福，就算心痛也是幸福
如果真爱是一种享受，就算心累也是享受
如果真爱是一种美丽，就算心碎也是美丽
如果真爱，让你伤怀也让你快乐，让你疯狂也让你心碎
你是否愿意相信：
你的内心，正流滴着幸福的泪......
Thinking of romantic and surprises, I think I am rather capable of doing it well. Haha. Why suddenly think of this? Beats me, I have no idea, it just come flashing on my mind.
I still remember when me and my current buddy are still couple, I bought him a Valentine's Card (which blink with red light and some melody) together with a Happy Valentine's Day present and bring it along with me when I go to NYP for excursion, hoping to bump into him as he is going there for excursion too. In the end, of course just before I went up the bus going back to my school, I get to see him and able to pass it to him (although I'm a bit shy coz it's so open). Of course, he also bring along a Valentine's Day present and gave it to me there too. It's sweet memories I should say.
Following, during Moo's 21st birthday, I planned and save up on my money to buy him something that he wish to own. Of course, I am broke after getting that stuff for him. I bought him a PSP (back then it was expensive as it's the first version). I also did a frame that consist us and gave to him, think till now he still don't know that there is a poem that I have done for him behind the frame (think it's gone for now). I remember giving him something else other than the 2 stated above, however I can't remember what is it now (sad..) I can see from his expression that he is surprised and shocked by what I have planned for him. And of course, he likes the thing I gave him.
To my best friend Karen, I did several times of surprises to her too. Haha. During Valentine's Day, I send her flower to her office, during her brithday I send bouquet of flowers to her off too. I even DIY bouquets of sunflower and tulips for her on different birthday. I still remember once I organised a birthday celebration for her at Party World and asked a lot of our friends to go along with the celebration but as I am having a roadshow at Compass Point, I can't make it for the celebration. I informed her and ask my other friend to collect the cake on behalf of me as I have ordered it online and I go buy the balloon for her.
I am capable to even go to look for my boyfriend at his void deck (even after we quarrel) and buy him a gift coz I promise to buy him something when he goes for attachment.
I am capable of giving lots and lots of surprises to my friends, just to hope that they know that i do care for them. Seeing them happy and touched make me feel real good.
I have more surprises waiting for people to explore. Haha. See who can explore all of them.
I love seeing your shock face from the surprise that I gave coz that's what it all counts. Your happiness is all I want to see and that's the most important. Muackz to all who once received my surprises.
Hear this song in cantonese version at Lunar last Saturday and first got to know that it's a translation from an english song called "I Hate Myself for Loving You" from my friend.
Certainly, the canto version is nice (sadly I don't know the title of the song).
Didn't really get to know much about the song coz I never really hear this song before until recently I heard it from the radio when Cruz Deng put it on air in the morning. When the rythme come on, I find it so familiar and started to flash back on when I heard this song before.
I love the lyrics can? It's so meaningful.Does it reflect on me a lot?? Haha. Enjoy the video clip and lyrics at the end of the entry. (apologies, this song is a very old song, hence it's MV is in black and white).
I Hate Myself For Loving You
by Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
Midnight, getting uptight. Where are you?
You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hanging but I'm still wanting you.
Hey, Jack, It's a fact they're talking in town.
I turn my back and you're messing around.
I'm not really jealous, don't like looking like a clown.
I think of you every night and day.
You took my heart, then you took my pride away.
I hate myself for loving you.
Can't break free from the the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you.
Daylight, spent the night without you.
But I've been dreaming about the loving you do.
I won't be as angry about the hell you put me through.
Hey, man, bet you can treat me right.
You just don't know what you was missing last night.
I wanna see your face and say forget it just from spite.
I hate myself for loving you.
Can't break free from the the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself for loving you.
Can't break free from the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you.
I think of you every night and day.
You took my heart, then you took my pride away.
I hate myself for loving you.
Can't break free from the the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself for loving you.
The blog is having some problem with it's script I guess, it's not been functioning very correctly lately and I am having great difficults doing my posting of entries online. Nevertheless, I am still doing my posting here.
Just woke up from my after nap. Didn't sleep too well as my brain was ever thinking about my work, work and work. Damn it. Just before I take my nap, my young boss smsed me about the design which is so important that I have to finished by tomorrow and pass to the guys. There after, I turn in and my brain is ever working on the design, bothered by the design which I can't really sleep well (paraniod that I sleep too late and can't wake up to do my design which is needed tomorrow).
Yesterday band resumes after a month of resting and it was certainly great to be back at school compound and attend my band practice. I always like NYP as that place brings me the most memories (band, relationship, friends, everything). Practice was still alright and my hands are getting a bit rusty now that I have not practice for like a month or so. Think I should join outside band soon to buck up my standard and extend my musical path. Wahaha. Maybe NIE Band is a good choice? Haha.
After practice me and Karen headed to Ion Orchard to look for my friends as they are they shopping. I've not been to Ion Orchard and I certainly dislike the place there as it's far too big, far too crowded and far too many things for me to see. Like what Karen mention, it's like Vivocity last time, it's too big and really need time to familiarize the place. I think so too. Probably I need a day which there isn't so many people to walk around there. I knew why my friends were at Ion and well, I have the feeling that he is sourcing for present for his girlfriend and I'm right! Haha. I am smart la and I believe Karen will agree.
After meeting my friends, we headed to Bugis for Steamboat at my favourite place "Ting Yuan". We didn't realise that we had the steamboat for like around near to 3 hours. But then I don't think we have a lot too. Maybe we have it slow. Haha. Whatever it is, after meal we headed to Bugis Junction for a small walk before Karen headed home with her sister and I headed off to some other places with my group of friends.
Me and Karen keep seeing Jiafa at Bugis. While waiting for my friends (who went to the washroom) at the fountain area, we were standing far away in front of the seating area near the fountain. I was scanning through the seating area and see whether there is any empty seats we can sit down and wait for my friends and there I saw Jiafa and his friend. I told Karen about it and we were like so excited. Haha. I then keep looking at him as he has got the attractiveness, don't know where. You will have the sudden feel of "how good if he is my boyfriend" type of thinking. Wahaha. He got the style and look la.
I went for to the next place and had some drinking session with my group of friends and stay out overnight with them. It was enjoyable indeed. But I've got lack of sleep. But well, enjoyment is worth exchanging by sleep. Wahaha. ZY was a great person to talk to I thought. Wahaha. A funny guy which I get to know a bit more only yesterday. MC was still as quiet, but he is also another funny person I thought too. Wahaha.
Headed to CWP this afternoon thinking of getting some groceries for the office (toiletries) and got myself a handphone pouch which I thought was quite nice. Haha. Happy!!! WOHOO~~ Also went there to have my food alone (sad sad, no one accompany me). I went to TSC to buy Taiwan Series Show again. I bought "Why Why Love" which was shown on Channel U even Friday at 11.30pm but I always miss the show due to appointments or I doze off. But I thought it's a great show (another can cry type of show) so I bought it since it's on discount and I can stay home watching the show and cry my tears out as much as I can over the weekend next week. Happy happy!!! I always like fairy tales romance show. Well, maybe that's me although the content of the show will never happen in real life (how I which it does, then it will be so so romantic la).
Now that I had some sleep and gain back some of my spirit, it's time for me to start doing on the design which is needed by tomorrow morning. But first of all, I have to go have my dinner first.
Till the next time I post, take care ya!!!
I'm getting a lot of nagging and scolding by my parent this few days. Right! I've not been a very good girl recently and my dad was rather furious when he saw me home only at 4.30am yesterday.
Well, I tag along with my Young Boss and 2 colleagues (Eric & Kelvin) to Boat Quay for a drink. After our operation meeting in office before that, I drove my young boss together to Boat Quay to have dinner before meeting the guys at Shin Bar as they have appointment at Club V III just a two shops away.
My young boss and me reached there first and had our drink while waiting for them to come. While waiting, me and my young boss had already drink like half a bottle of Martell already. When they came, I was like so full (as we had Bak Ku Teh before we went for the drink) that I have to stop drinking for a while.
After Shin Bar close, which I think around 1 plus, and I thought I am going home (which I didn't) and hop to the next place for second round of drinking. Hence, we headed to Lunar for our next drink. I don't know why I didn't reject going (maybe I'm already high and can't control my drinking spirit already) and ended up reaching home at 4.30am.
Worst thing was, when I open the door to my house, I saw my dad and he was shocked to see me only home at that hour. Shit!! I knew then I will get lots of scolding for the next few days. Argh~~ Whatever, I went to bath and knock out on my bed after that. (I'm so sorry that I didn't sms you or call you when I'm home as I am gone by the time I reach home, and I can't even sms or talk properly. Sorry for making you wait all night long and tired you out.)
After I wake up the next day, I headed to pick up my boss before we headed to Clarke Quay to collect my car (yes, left my car there and cab back home). In the cab, my boss told me that I cried a lot and talk a lot of crap. Holy shit, i don't even have the impression that I cried la. I'm totally gone I guess if not I won't have cried. (I'm not down or in bad mood yesterday).
Thanks to my young boss for the great concern about me and my relationship thingy, I'll try my best to settle down my relationship and status thingy soon as promised and won't let you worry. And I promise, I won't get hurt and if I do I'll turn to you. Wahaha.
Yesterday night I went to Arena with Karen and her 碎片. Had a lot of confusion before I met Karen at Cathay and drive her back to her office to pick up her 碎片 before we go to Central for dinner at Waraku. After that, headed to Arena with Karen.
As my mum is nagging non stop, so I left the place at 11.30pm for home. She has been calling and calling to ask why I'm not home. Sigh. Make me such a spoil spot. I'm sorry guys but I need to be home early.
Thanks "le" for coming over to look for me yet again although I can't go out yesterday night to meet you as my parent is very very unhappy with my behaviour. I know you do miss me a lot and is worried for me. You should have rest early at home too as you have not been resting well for the pass few days.
Am going for my band practice soon (resumes this week) and I certainly miss my instrument.
As I was plain bored and tending to lost myself at home already, I decided to head off out of house yesterday after watching the NDP show for a chill out.
Initially was planned to go Ion Orchard with my music partner ZS and was said to meet at Ion Orchard at 8.30pm. As I was leaving home late, I smsed him to inform him I'll be a bit late and only then he replied that he forget that he has a family dinner. Well, fine I guess as it's a family dinner and he should have go for his family dinner (which I think is NOT pre-planned). Right then, I was still at home and I can still stay home, but I choose to go out (don't want to stay at home). Luckily I wasn't early and I didn'treach Ion Orchard when I sms that ZS, if not I will definitely be very very angry and pissed off for him not even informing after he knows that he have family dinner and make me go all the way to Ion Orchard to wait for him like a stupid full. He is not a friend I can count on when I am down and need a shoulder to lay on, I can conclude that. Need to look for another person to replace that.
I smsed my buddy too and ask if he wants to go out with me and ZS. He mentioned that he wants to watch Singapore Idol (one of his favourite variety show). I know he won't come out coz it's his favourite show so I didn't probe further. He only mention that he will sms me when he don't feel like watching that variety show (which I know he won't, just trying to coax me that's all).
So, I headed out from home and around 8.30pm and went off driving aimlessly towards town. Along the way, U smsed two of my gal friends to check if they are going to chiong that night (just want ot have fun and relax). One of them (Eil) is on the way to Malaysia. Chatted with her a while on the phone before we hung up. Then smsed a while with Jac and she said she can accompany me to go out chill, anyway she is out. Hence, I headed to somewhere near Fullerton to pick her up before we headed to places for a small drink and finger food.
We tried calling Tippling Club at Dempsey Hill to see if it's open or not, and sadly its not. We headed off to Mount Sophia Old School there to check out on a Live Band Pub and sadly it's closed as well. Thus, we headed to Goldhill Plaza for the Irish Pub and then I realise it's not open on Sunday (Sunday a lot of pubs not open for your information). So I drove to Pasir Ris Summer Breeze and settled there (I always like that place coz it's generally relaxing and you can see the sea and aeroplane landing).
Got ourselves a tower of Hooegarden and some finger foods (picture with Jac) and chat for like hours before we headed home. Thanks Jac for accompanying me (the lonely woman) out for a chill out. Hee. If you didn't join me, think I'll be alone drinking there and finding my soul there already. Thought I didn't drink enough I admit but still we left for the day as Jac is getting tired and I know I should have drink so much as I still need to drink and what's more I need to send my lovely Jac home. Hee. Whatever it is, I appreciated Jac effort for accompanying me (although it may be a bit boring coz I'm a boring person) but still thanks a lot.
Right, this part is for you, whom always read my blog secretly (you know who you are, read on). I know you are reading my blog frequently and I know you have always been doing so in order to update yourself on what I'm doing and how's my life going on recently.
I know that you are nice to me and I know that your had always want to know me better. But I seriously think that you can find someone better than me to share your happiness and sorrows. Given my character and personality, I know that I am not suitable for you. To you, I may be 'your cup of tea' but I think if I continue to treat you like how you treat me, I will feel that I am bluff on your feelings. I don't want to give you any glimpse of hope as I don't want to hurt you (you know it).
I sincerely thank you, and I really appreciate your effort in cooking a full meal for me as a dinner on that plain night. Thank you for inviting me over to your house to have a sumptious meal of what you have specially prepared for me. Frankly, at that point of time I am touched as not guy have personally cooked a full course meal for me with his own hands. You told me I'm the first person who eat your full course meal as your mum don't allow you to use her kitchen. Thanks. You mention that I'm the first to take your bike and I felt honoured. Thanks. You mention that I'm the first gal friend to take your driven car. Thanks. But all this I can only thank you.
You know very well that I have tried very hard to accept you but you are just not the person that I am looking for. You know the reason as I have told you a lot of times already.
I really really hope that we can be friends always and still go KTV as usual when you feel like singing hall and all. I am capable in accompany you to sing in the hall, trust me. I can be a good companion, but not a good girlfriend.
Don't need to say sorry to me as you have done nothing sorry to me. Rather, I should be the one who say sorry to you as you have done so much and I can't do much for you too. Apologies.
Well, this blog is getting too long, but I think it's time I say all things out to people I wanted to.
To you whom also reads my blog when convenient.
I am kinda exhausted and stress out since I know you better (but I never deny that I enjoying being with you and knowing you better is an honoured to me). I know we are of common terms, we click, we understand each other like no one understand us more than we do, we know what each other is think and we can be so relaxed talking to each other about our problems. But, I really feel kinda like a substitute and spare tyre of yours (you know what I mean). I understand that you have your family days over the weekend and won't be convenient to contact me, but why should we be like so discreet? Friends don't need to be so discreet, right? When she calls, you should have pick up the call and not ignore her call. I don't think it's right. Putting myself in her shoe, I will not like someone so dear to me ignoring my call. And of course, i will not like someone so dear to me going out with other female and say he is still working. Why can't be truthful? In a relationship, what honours the most is 'truth' and 'honesty'.
But still, I am very very touched for you popping up at my door steps that very night. I certainly felt very touched coz I didn't expect you to come all the way to come look for me (after meeting her). I'm not sure if it's the acohol that is doing the trick or you really do miss me, but I am very very touched by your act. Till date, no one actually come and look for me (giving me the surprise) at my door step. Thanks. You are romantic and I refuse to believe it. But I felt your sincerity. Muackz.
I know you doesn't want to hurt her, your family likes her, and I don't want her to be hurt too, but please know what you really want. No matter how, there will be a party getting hurt, so there's no run away, it's a matter of hurting that party sooner, or later. Decide for yourself.
I know I am generous, and my friend do say that I am silly but well, what more can I do? Destroy people's happy relationship and stand there clapping and cheering 'hurray'? No! I'm not someone like that, and I know you won't do it coz she is too important to you. Fine. But at least, be truthful.
Woke up around 8.30am today and can't seems to sleep again, so I begin to blog this morning at around 9 plus. After that, I succeeded sleeping till around 11am where I got a call from my beloved buddy saying his car broke down along Mandai Road near Upper Seletar Reservior.
Without thinking twice, I get up from my bed and wash up before I change and go to his rescue. Just before I headed to my buddy's rescue, I send my brother and his girlfriend to Yatch Club for a swim as he is the member of the club. After that I headed to Mandai Road for his rescue. Drive a few roads before I found him along Mandai Road (my parent tag along with me to look for him as they planned to go to the temple).
After diagnose (with the help from my dad), we concluded that the van cannot be driver as the van started to vibrate after stepping on the accelerator and a lot of smoke coming out from the exhaust pipe. Hence, I ask him to call up Cruise Autocare to come for help. Me and my parent then stayed there to wait for the tow car to come, at the same time accompany him. He was so nervous talking to my parent. Out of a sudden, he is like my boyfriend and we are like going to Seletar Reservior for a sea view and stuff. Haha. My buddy doesn't fail to have a great chat with people. He even told my parent things I don't even know. But well, we will always be good buddy, no matter what, we will always be by the side of each other. Haha. I will still go to his rescue once he call me. That's what buddy counts.
Accompany buddy to wait for like around 2 hours and my parent started to get restless, hence we planned to make a leave first. Hence, I will have to leave him there to wait for the tow car alone.
After that we headed to Sembawang to pray at the temple. Dad gave my brother a call to check out if he has finished swimming, and at that time, my brother just finished bathing (so coincidence). I headed to pick him and his girlfriend up before we headed to the temple for praying. Thereafter, I drove them to Orchid Country Club for a Dim Sum Lunch.
I'm so glad that my family and my brother's girlfriend like the taste of the Dim Sum. Thanks to young boss for the recommendation, I never fails to trust my boss taste bud. Haha. He is the one who asked me to bring my parents to go there for Dim Sum, and I suddenly thought of the place while I was thinking of where to bring my parent to go. Certainly, the place (PEACH GARDEN) had good food. Will plan to bring my grandfather there to eat in future. Good food have to be shared.
Think maybe later will be going out along for some chill out and some time to relax myself. It's time for me to do some slef thinking and self reassurance.
Enjoy the National Day holiday.
It National Day today.. Singapore, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
Initially was planned to go in to Malaysia JB with a my friend and his a few friends, but later on the plan was changed to going to the beach. I might be going but what should I do if I go? The guys purpose is to sun tan, and I don't want to be tanned. Well, till now I am still thinking whether to go. Later I go and
nothing to do, and I will start to think other wise, other things that my make me emo.
Weather today not too good, seems like raining anytime soon. Should I still go for the outing with them or stay home and finish watching my VCD with some tears?? Argh, vexed la..
Mentioning about the various encounters of the similar numeric numbers appearing in front of my eyes recently (11:11 and 4:44), I promised to break the doubt of some people who may still be puzzled on why this happen.
As said in the previous entry that I will enlighten you people with the myths of what is behind it (believe or not, up to you), and as mention I found this blog entry from my cute little junior Sarah Jane's blog.
Below is part of one of Sarah Jane's entry weeks ago.
Number Sequences From The Angels
By Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.
The angels do their best to get our attention and to communicate with us. In this way, they help us heal our own lives. However, we often discount the signs they give us, writing them off as mere coincidences or our imagination. The angels say: "We can’t write our messages to you in the sky. You’ve got to pay attention and believe when you see any patterns forming in your life — especially in response to any questions or prayers you’ve posed. When you hear the same song repeatedly or see the same number sequence, who do you think is behind this? Your angels, of course!
"Number SequencesYour angels often communicate messages to you by showing you sequences of numbers. They do this in two ways. First, they subtly whisper in your ear so you’ll look up in time to notice the clock’s time or a phone number on a billboard. The angels hope you’ll be aware that you’re seeing this same number sequence repeatedly. For instance, you may frequently see the number sequence 111, and it seems everytime you look at a clockthe time reads 1:11 or 11:11.
The second way in which angels show you meaningful number sequences is by physically arranging for, say, a car to drive in front of you that has a specific license plate number they want you to see. Those who are aware of this phenomenon become adept at reading the meaning of various license plates. In this way, the angels will actually give you detailed messages. Here are the basic meanings of various number sequences. However, your own angels will tell you if your situation holds a different meaning for you. Ask your angels, "What are you trying to tell me?" and they’ll happily give you additional information to help decode their numeric meanings.
111 — Monitor your thoughts carefully, and be sure to only think about what you want, not what you don’t want. This sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts (ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling or monitoring your thoughts).
222 — Our newly planted ideas are beginning to grow into reality. Keep watering and nurturing them, and soon they will push through the soil so you can see evidence of your manifestation. In other words, don’t quit five minutes before the miracle. Your manifestation is soon going to be evident to you, so keep up the good work! Keep holding positive thoughts, keep affirming, and continue visualizing.
333 — The Ascended Masters are near you, desiring you to know that you have their help, love, and companionship. Call upon the Ascended Masters often, especially when you see the number 3 patterns around you. Some of the more famous Ascended Masters includes: Jesus, Moses, Mary, Quan Yin, and Yogananda.
444 — The angels are surrounding you now, reassuring you of their love and help. Don’t worry because the angels’ help is nearby.
555 — Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being "positive" or "negative," since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continue seeing and feeling yourself being at peace.
666 — Your thoughts are out of balance right now, focused too much on the material world. This number sequence asks you to balance your thoughts between heaven and earth. Like the famous "Sermon on the Mount," the angels ask you to focus on spirit and service, and know your material and emotional needs will automatically be met as a result.777 — The angels applaud you…congratulations, you’re on a roll! Keep up the good work and know your wish is coming true. This is an extremely positive sign and means you should also expect more miracles to occur.
888 — A phase of your life is about to end, and this is a sign to give you forewarning to prepare. This number sequence may mean you are winding up an emotional career, or relationship phase. It also means there is light at the end of the tunnel. In addition, it means, "The crops are ripe. Don’t wait to pick and enjoy them." In other words, don’t procrastinate making your move or enjoying fruits of your labor.
999 — Completion. This is the end of a big phase in your personal or global life. Also, it is a message to lightworkers involved in Earth healing and means, "Get to work because Mother Earth needs you right now."
000 — A reminder you are one with God, and to feel the presence of your Creator’s love within you. Also, it is a sign that a situation has gone full circle.
Thanks for Sarah Jane for this great piece of information.
Believe it or not, you may decide.
Met up with my secondary school friends yesterday and had a long chat with them at Pasta Cafe. It's nice catching up with them and knowing what they are doing all this days.
Ah Leng is happily engaged with her husband and bought a house at AMK already. They will be shifting in end of the month already. Suddenly, I felt time really flies. When we are still in secondary school, we always talk about marriage and she is the one who always say she will be the last to get married and I'll be the first. Who knows, she is the first now. Haha. Thinking back, it's really funny. Heaven really loves to play tricks and games on our life.
Bao has engaged and will be having her wedding dinner end of the year. Another lovely couple.
Chew Feng (one of my close friend in the first half of the my sec school days) was actually the first to get married. Zhuanni, a quiet girl also got married two years ago.
The other one, Zhenx2 had a boyfriend now as well, and I told her she will be the next to get married after the few that got married recently. She mention that it won't be that fast but I have the gut feeling that she will definitely marry earlier than me.
Who knows, those who thought and feel that I will get marry faster and earlier all marry earlier than me. Those who don't seem to get marry earlier all get married earlier than me. Suddenly I felt like I'm kinda quite a poor thing. Haha. But well, I'm alright with it as being single isn't that bad also.
As I was driving my young boss out to Parkway Parade for lunch this afternoon, he asked me (again) about whether I going out for dating lately. Well, naturally I mention I didn't date anyone and he said I cannot make it, after so long already still haven't go out meet new guys.
He even asked me not to go band and stop meeting the same group of people from band. But true enough coz if I keep meeting the same group of people, I will not meet new people and hence my chance to meeting the right guy is lower in the sense.
Feeling thankful and glad that my young boss is worried about my future (my love life), kinda feel like he is my father loh (even my parent is not so kan jiong about my love life lo). He even offer to introduce me his friends, who may be a good nice guy for me. God~~ Well, I don't mind knowing more people and enlarging my circle of friends, but it's kinda wierd.
Whatever it is, I think i'm fine with what I am now and let nature takes its course loh.
Saw a few times 11:11 and 44:44 recently and read an article from Sarah Jane's blog regarding some angelic explaination on it. Maybe I shall share with you all next time round when I blog again.
TIME TO WATCH TV~~
It's the end of another weekend, and tomorrow will be a start of another week's hectic work life again. Suddenly kinda feel like I have not rest and enjoy enough and my weekend is gone. Argh freak~
Yesterday initially planned to go for a chill out drinking session with some of my friends but in the end was called off as Mr. Jenson have no idea where to head for drinking and Mr. Weixiang want to go home play game. Hence, I told them it's ok, think we shall meet again for the drink.
Hence after work, went for my meal and then drove off slowly to Marina Barrage, intending to stay there to watch fireworks since I have nothing on and don't feel like going home. I didn't know that there was so many people at Marina Barrage (all should have the same mentality with me, go there see fireworks), so I didn't manage to get in to the carpark of Marina Barrage. I then drove towards Marina Square but it started to jam at the CBD area. While inside the jam, I was playing SMS with Ryan, and we are both like loner, so decided to meet at The Cathay to catch a movie.
I reached The Cathay soon after and went to check out on what are the movies available that night, but sadly, not much. Waiting for Ryan to come and decided to watch "Murderer". As 9.10PM show's seat was rather toward the front, we decided to watch 11.30PM show.
Thus, we have like 2 hours to loiter around that area while we are waiting for the movie to start. So, we started to loiter around like lost souls into Plaza Singapura. Went in and saw Wine Warehouse Sale, and both me and Ryan were like been suck in to the wine warehouse sale area. We were like happily exploring what are the difference wine for quite some time before I headed to the ATM and then sat down for a drink and to wait for time to pass.
Have our butt sat on TCC and chit chat and drink some coffee before we get off and go to The Cathay to further loiter. We went in to the gramaphone to look at the CDs and listen to songs, then after that headed to some of the shop to do some minor window shopping before we headed up to the movie theatre.
Watched "Murderer" starred by Aaron Kwok. Well, both me and Ryan feels that the show wasn't that bad. (other than the front part is far too slow pace which make the both of us have the feel to doze off) I think Aaron Kwok's acting skills is superb, and I like the way he express his feeling. His expression, wohoo~~ really can show so many things and lead you in to the show. No wonder he is the Movie King of Chinese Movie for consecutively 2 years. And moreover, he is still as charming as before. (I like his hair can~~)
After the show, I give Ryan a lift home before I headed home.
This morning wake up at around 11am plus and then wash up and had my brunch before I headed out to the MRT station to bank in the cheque young boss asked me to bank in. Wanted to bank in the money too but the cash deposit machine is having some problem and I can't manage to bank in any money then.
After that headed to trim my eyebrows before I head to Orchard for KTV session. I should have reached on the dot but the jam towards International Building's carpark was so massive that I was caught in the jam for like half an hour before I successfully enter the carpark.
Anyway, I reach there before 4PM and then started singing till 8PM. Well, it was a great lot of fun singing with our old KTV kahkis. So much laughter and joke can~~ I always love singing with them la. Will never feel bored de.
After singing, we headed to Sushi Tei at Ngee Ann City for dinner. I should have gone home of dinner but still decided to stay and accompany them for the dinner and had my share. Haha~ (well, I had another round of food when I reach home coz mum cooked) After finishing our meal, we started to talk cock again.
Left Sushi Tei at 9.30PM and we headed home at our seperate ways. As Ryan was mentioning, planning t go for MaLa Steamboat as our next outing and there after, will plan for our Genting Trip which will be happening in November. Wohoo~~ Another trip with my band friends. I can guarantee, it's a super fun trip la.
Alrighty, it's late already. Will have to take my rest and strive for tomorrow's work already. Hope that I'll have a great sleep and not have bad dreams in the middle of the night or won't wake up unecessarily in the middle of the night. It's so so disturbing to my good beauty sleep.
Till the next time I blog, take care and drink more water guys and gals.
In office doing my work now. Well, don't ask me why I need to be in office on a Saturday morning as I need to work 5.5 days and that's why I'm here. Anyway, now is 1PM sharp and I should officially knock off now, but I still have quite some stuff to do, so think I'll continue to work and finish up my stuff before I head off to do my personal stuff. (weekend is normally the best days to do stuff in office as there isn't that much phone calls compared to weekdays and no one to disturb you)
Anyway, wanted to get some friends out for a chill out or a drink later but looking at my mood now, I kinda don't have the feel to. Well, some of my friends know that I am rather moody recently and hence wanted to ask me to go out and chill out. But, I kinda don't have the feel to. But well, I shall see how later.
After doing my stuff, I think it should be around 3 plus 4PM, and I think I'll head over to my grandpa house for a while. It's been quite some time since I last visited him, and out of a sudden , I miss him a lot. No idea how is he already, whether he is still as healthy as before. Suddenly missed staying with him, at least I have someone who really dote on me, and I really feel the love from him. At times, talking to him really make me feel like crying, because I have no idea how many more years I can talk to him heart to heart. (he is aging)
Well, you may think that I am thinking too much, getting too pessimistic recently. I admit! But I have no idea what caused it. I felt very lost out of a sudden. I don't know where I am heading anymore. I think I really do need a real good break very soon. Taiwan trip, please come soon.
Didn't sleep very well last night. I was awaken by dreams and things running in my mind for the whole night (I think I wake up like 10 over times last night) Hence, now I do feel rather shacked and head is a bit heavy. You must be thinking, since I'm so shacked, why don't leave the work to Monday and go home and rest? The problem is, I don't feel like going home and I can't leave the things there and not finished in. I will feel something is not done and it will start bothering me. Well, a syndrome of Workaholic.
Recently have been listening to several nice nice songs, and I am in love with a few of them. One is 《坏人》 by 方炯镔, 《每天》by 纪佳松 and 《夜的诗人》 by 江美棋。
I have attached along their MV as well as the lyrics, which you may look at along the way. All the songs are rather meaningful. Well, emo people listen to emo songs. Haha.
Happy Weekend Ahead!!
方炯镔 - 坏人
作词：马嵩惟 作曲：方炯镔 编曲：杨阳
那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程
爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人
容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
纪佳松 - 每天
还以为 是浪漫的雾景
我呼吸 被污染的空气
雪不再结成了冰 我们 将沉没
阳光太遥远 还剩下什么 能留到最后
一年了 候鸟没有回来
飞不远 变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶 瞬间 变平地
永远是什么 一转眼就崩落
you are my everyday
oh 每一天 就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
却任谁也无处可逃
you are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉 得到
一年了 候鸟没有回来
飞不远 变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶 瞬间 变平定
永远是什么 一转眼就崩落
you are my everyday
oh 每一天 就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
却任谁也无处可逃
you are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉 得到
后悔吗 tell me why
在亲手毁灭之后挽救
像伤害 我最爱的人
听地球正在哭泣
you are my everyday
oh 每一天 就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
却任谁也无处可逃
you are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉 得到
江美琪 - 夜的诗人
词:姚谦 曲:梁定江
如果那时候我没有爱你
不知道现在人会在哪里
有什么际遇
遇见了感伤的歌曲
会不会驻足去聆听
每一句歌词都是涟漪
如果那时候我没有失去你
不知道现在我们在哪里
有什么心情
电影里的美丽剧情
会不会不容易相信
熟悉的对白都心惊
想念让落单人心情变成了
夜里的诗人
耳边一阵风都像爱过的人低语
等待让多数人梦里变成了
寂寞的旅人
闪闪的星光都写满了
爱情的诗句
