Had dinner with dar and after that went to ECP for a heart to heart talk about our problems. I didn't know how to, or rather I didn't want to really say what I should say as I know he will sure be upset.
But I ended up saying everything. People who knows me know what I expect in a relationship and knows what I dislike about my partner. I said all that I wanted to said, cry a whole lot out and finished my conversation with him. I ended up acting like a counseller, like a philisopher, or rather a psychaitrist. Oh my, I didn't went through so much in my life but ended up like I live in this universe for ages. God gracious.
Before leaving for home, I ask him to reconsider if we are suitable for each other and whether we are the one for each other till old. Like I've always say, I am looking for a person whom I can spend my whole life with, but sadly he kinda don't fit in. I am also thinking through the same question, whether he is really the one for me.
While driving me home, I saw him crying. I breaks my heart to see him cry. I tried asking him not to cry but he didn't admit he is crying. I'm sorry dar for making you sad. I just want you to know my problem. Really sorry.
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