I Think I'm In Love With You

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Went to the doctor for a check on my prolong cough that was not recovered for 2 weeks. Doctor told me I had to really take care of myself and prevent myself from getting my bronchitis back. Doctor asked me if I need an MC, and I rejected as I know I need to go office.

After visiting the doctor, I headed to office striaght as I still have things to do and there suppose to be a meeting. Had the medicine a while after I reached office and within half an hour, I become a bit high, hence I stay in office a while more before I drive home to rest.

Left office at around 2.30pm and headed home there after. Initially thought that after I reached home I can rest, but sadly I can't as my new bed is coming and if I rest, I will have to be awaken from my sleep when the bed come. In the end, I didn't sleep at all at home.

My sister then smsed me asking me to go out as she doesn't wants to stay home alone. She is moody, because of someone. Loving the wrong person is really painful. And loving a person without love in return is more. We might have walked the same footsteps of each other, but I believe my sister's situation is much worst than mine.

Sometimes, I don't understand why this love and feeling thing just came and people just can't stop it. Sometimes I feel that if you don't have the feeling, or if you cannot give that person the promise, the realise, the status, why would you still want to selfishly keep the other person by your side. Why give the person a hope, a goal to hope for, and in the end destroy the hope and little glimpse of light to miracle. I no longer feel the hurt that was once throning in to my heart, because I know I shouldn't, and I cannot. But I have no idea why, when I heard what my sister is go through, I feel so sorry for her. Why didn't I warn her on what will be happening to her later on. Why didn't I warn her that the person who will be hurt will be her, and only her? Why didn't I warn her, warn her that she shouldn't be so considerate to everyone. I'm sorry my sister. In the end, I didn't do much help to prevent whatever thing that happen, therefore now, I hope the only way that I can, or may help is to accompany you when you can.

Therefore, I didn't reject her even when I am super tired. I know if I reject her, I don't bother her, she will be so sad and think of everything under the sun and make herself cry to sleep again. Hence, I asked Jun Hong and Mr. Tang out together to go to Pasir Ris to chill out together. I know the other two will be capable to make her laugh, at least for a while or for that short moment. But at least, she will be happy for that moment. I understand the hurt will not subside so soon (I know mine has not subside totally), but I will teach her how to slowly let this pain subside.

My beloved sister, all the best to you and I know you can do it! I will definitely see the really cheerful and smiley Keren back. :)

After going to Summer Breeze for a chill out (I think all of them like that place, as it was so windy that night) and of course, I am generous enough to bring friends to a place that I always love to go when I'm down nowadays.

Headed off around 12.30am and wanted to go to Admiral Bar at Old Nelson Road to check out on the KTV pub, knowing that it was closed down. Hence, we left and I send them back to their house respectively. They were kinda disappointed. But well, no choice.

After reaching home, I chiong my 偶像剧 again till 4am before I turn in.

Woke up this morning and continue to watch the 偶像剧. It's touching one can. Alrighty, end my entry here and continue watching my 偶像剧.

love goes around | 4:40 PM