I Think I'm In Love With You

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Went dinner with my boss and le at the nearby Kim's Kitchen at Ubi Road 1 after a long long wait. （我等到花儿也谢了）Treated them for dinner since my boss always treat me for dinner. Chat about quite some stuff over dinner and relax for a while before we leave for our seperate ways.

Clueless on where to go after dinner, ending up at the regular same place to drink and chill out. Both me and le were not in very good mood. Actually driving, I can sense that le mind is wondering off to somewhere far away and isn't been concentrating. I was rather affected by CW case and my buddy case.

Rewind back to my buddy. I was utterly disappointed with him. Why did I say so? Here's the incident that happen on one of the evening when my buddy came back to office (we work in the same office now) and came chatting with me while I was busy doing my work, and he mention that he will give me a ring after he reach home cos he have not been calling me since ages (glad that he knows) and talk to me as it's been ages (again) that we've last talk on the phone (really).

However, I waited and waited but he didn't call me eventually. Maybe I'm too petty or what that I have treated it too seriously. But that was yet another disappointment. That aside as it's not a big matter. There after, he came to office one fine morning and say he has not called me to tell me his on-goings and mention he called my close friend Karen to tell her what has been going.

This was the biggest disappointment that I have after the birthday incident (he actually forget my birthday and only wishes me happy birthday a day after my birthday know out I keep waiting for that fine simple sms from him). He keep saying that I am someone important to him and I am always his closes sister, but come to think of it, I have begin to doubt it. All are just words from his mouth. I have no idea whether my concern for him (knowing his health is not too good recently) is taken for granted or not. I rather, he never tell me anything about him calling my close friends to tell her his on-goings than I know. It hurts. Really. Disappointment.

CW case was another cause of me being in mixed feelings. I have no idea whether all the messages that he had smsed me is true or just a fraud that someone has asked him to do, so as to mislead me and try making me side him for that case. I thought he would have forgo the witness thingy after much console from me, but I am disappointed and sad that he didn't. I had this evil feeling if I were to get back with him and force him not to be witness, will it be of help to him. But what if I help him? That's not what I want deep down from my heart cos he isn't the right person for me. (the person who deem to be right should know who he is) In the end, I will hurt him even more. If I am not been drag in to this incident, I might not even have contacted him and he will not have affected my mind and mood (once again). Damn it!

Well, i don't like the idea about the passport thingy. I get a bit pissed off when I heard le talking about having 2 passports (weekdays & weekends) and gets even more turned off when le mention that it's a matter of whether he want to utilise the weekend passport or not. One person will only have 1 passport, and I think that should be enough. Don't treat me custom officer cos I am not. What you want, please decide (I'm serious).

As le was rather drunk in a sense, I gotta drive him home (it's my responsibility). Think he drank a little too fast causing him to get high fast too. Well, people with lots of things in mind drink fast and doesn't have a limit for drinking. That's a norm (it happens to me too). Inside the car, he talk so much which I was like so puzzled whether it's truth or not.

Well, let Agnes B wait till "she" gain singlehood before bring Agnes B out, ok? Hope she don't let me wait till 花儿也谢了, cause my patience do have limit.

love goes around | 3:33 AM