I Think I'm In Love With You

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

I was home rather early yesterday night and decided to finish watching my Korean Drama show "Yuhee, the Witch". For this few days, I didn't have dinner and each day I basically only have one meal. I don't know why, i just don't have appettite to eat this few days, even after I eat I will tend to throw out some half of it. Think I am having problem with eating recently.

Someone called me drunk yesterday and cried all the while. I felt so hurt and helpless as I can't do anything for the person. Knowing the person is so miserable and down with some personal problem which the person doesn't want to share, I felt so useless as I can't even help to lighten the person's burden. Maybe I am giving the person too much burden. Well, just hope that the person will gain back the happiness the person ought to have.

I was waken up by another of my friend at 3.30am again. I heard the phone rang and I saw it's her and without hesitation, I picked up the call as I know she needs someone to talk to and someone to listen to her. Know out I am seriously tired, I still stay up and talked to her. I know from her blog that she is in deep misery and has never really been happy since her 21st birthday. Well, I agree that maybe she is having a hard life and acting too strong that she doesn't even know how crying out feels. But still girl, learn how to let out your sorrow (not through drinking). I may not know or understand you as much as any other of your friend does but you know you can always count on me when you need a listening ear. And of course, you will definitely feel happier when you talk to me coz I'm so "hum" at home and you enjoy calling my chinese name and hearing me react irritatedly. I really hope that you will feel better talking to me. I don't mind you tell me everything (even if I don't know what happen) and I will try and understand you from there on. I don't want to see you so miserable. Really, it hurts me, a lot.

Went for a fruitful Branding and Marketing Seminar this afternoon conducted by Ken Choo. I like the seminar as it is very interactive and I really learn a fair bit from there about how to meet the goal that we want for the company with 3 simple steps. However, the 3 days Brand Mastery course is too high priced, if not I believe it will be a great course to go for and also find our own goals.

After the seminar, me and young boss went to Borders for books and I bought 2 books from Richard Templar. Finally, I finish buying all his series of books. I bought "Rules of Love" and "Rules to Spend Less". After that headed to AMK Hub to meet up with his wife and settle our dinner there. Thanks Young Boss for the dinner treat.

I also found out a shocking secret from someone today regarding me and I was totally shocked. I have no idea why in the recent months, I am been drag into all those shit thingy. All I want is just a simple life, a happy life and relationship. I don't understand why is that so difficult. Maybe what my young boss said is true, I am having two personality. I may look sporty and cheerful from my external expression, but deep inside me I am a person with a lonely soul. I am blinding people around me with the mask that I am wearing daily.

Thinking back, exactly who know me deep down now? I don't think anyone knows. Not even my buddy, not even my close friend. It seems kinda sad but all this are just part and parcel of life, and of course I hope all this will end very soon. Life goes on!!!

I realise someone is trying to avoid me. I have no idea if my instinct is correct or not but I really have a strong feeling. Well, it may be good, may be bad. But I think if everything have to been talked over, talk over. It's not that I am a difficult person to talk to. Don't have to avoid me and treat me in a 365 changed in ways, no point as it does not helps, and it will make everyone miserable.

Today is a special day (09.09.09). So on this special day, I hope all lovers will be happy together and spend every great moments together. There will be a lot of people getting engaged today and at a split second makes me have a goal. My aim is to get married at the age of 28, which is 3 years from now. I hope I can get married, or rather engaged on the 12.12.12 (12 December 2012) at 12.12pm. Wow!! It will definitely be a wonderful and memorable moment I believe. But first of all, I have to find the right man for myself whom I can spend my whole life with and give my whole life to him. Hope that my Mr. Right will appear very soon. I'm waiting for miracle. Haha.

Alright, I'm dead tired. Gotta turn in already. Nitey.

love goes around | 9:09 PM