Saturday, March 07, 2009
Had a damn funny encounter yesterday night and after encountering that, I can't help it but SMS my friends to tell them about it.
I reached home like arounf 9pm yesterday and place all my "barang barang" in my rooms before I took off my stockings and throw to the washroom to wash later on. Without know, I actcually walked over to the small rubbish bin places beside my kitchen basin and threw the stockings into the bin
(thinking it's a rubbish in my hand that I have to throw away). Not realising, I continue to walk a few more steps before I reach the entrance of the washroom. I open both my hands with the palm facing upwards thinking "Aye, where is my stockings?".
Then I realise, I have threw it into the rubbish bin seconds ago. I was like mumbering to myself, "傻了,傻了..把要洗的东西丢掉.."
God gosh, recently I have been doing such things more and more often. This is not the first time already. This about a week ago, when I was holding a whole stack of letters that I took from my letter box, I also nearly threw it into the rubbish bin inside my room.
Think I am getting soon mental illness already. My mind is not working as good as before anymore. What has happen to me? Too stress with work? Or because my age is getting on me. Damn, I can't believe I am doing such things.
At time, when I was driving home, I will have a sudden feel of being lost. I didn't know where I was. At times, I wonder why am I there, what am I doing there? The feeling was scary. It's like a sudden lost of memory. You can't remember anything for a split second
(luckily it's only for that split second, if it continues I think I'll go crazy).
After that I am so frightened. I am afraid that I will not remember my family members, my friends. Or maybe my mind is teling me to forget some things that is actually bothering me and in the end I forget the wrong things. I really don't know what I should do.
God and grandma in heaven, please bless me with better memory and don't let me memory detoriate anymore. I don't want to forget all the good memories I've had with all my friends and family. Please, help me.
love goes around | 1:53 PM