Saturday, March 07, 2009
Felt so empty within me without band practcie to attend. Now then I realise that band practice on every Saturday has already been part of my life. Even though I always complain say that the practice is taking too much of my private time and time for myself, but in actual fact, I am enjoying myself during every band practice.
This week is the first week of not having band practice as the NYPAW is taking a 1 month break after the annual concert held last week.
As I'm bored, I began to ask friends to go for movie with me later on but no one is free. And looking down my phonebook contact list, then did I realise I don't really have much friends that I am comfortable to go our alone with. I think the people that I am comfortable with going out can be counted using both my hands. Sad case.
As I have a crave for Popeye Chicken, I smsed Karen to check out if she will be interested in having lunch with me, but sadly, she has to go home and change to prepare for the evening's event on the don't know what entertainment award thingy.
Looking at myself now, felt so poor things about myself. Friends I don't have much, memory detioriating. Nobody even cares whether I are alive or dead, even if I don't online or sms anyone for like 1 week, or even 1 month, I think people won't find anything going amissed.
Good saying, human only realise that something is good when you have lost that something.
Think it's time to let go, close myself in my little room and not contact with anyone else for the time being. I think I need time to cool myself down and think more about what I want for my future, other than a good and stable job and a successful love life & family, I think there are more things I have to achieve for. Time to brainstorm and plan.
love goes around | 2:09 PM