I Think I'm In Love With You

Monday, June 18, 2007

Hi everybody! Miss my entry? I'm utterly sorry for the late late entry and the MIA-ing. SORRY PEOPLE! SORRY SUPPORTERS!

Partly because of my busy schedule, I think I am feeling kinda insecure recently, in everything. Study and work is getting over me and I think I'm going crazy very soon. Everything just come running to me. Work getting more and more, piling up and covering me. Actually I am feeling quite stressed up at work, I don't know if I can handle the stress that I am having now. The stress is driving me nuts la. Getting more and more stressful now.

Project dateline drawing near and I have yet enough time for it. Everyday have been so tired for me. Want to do it at night after work but every time work till so late and when I reach home, I amd all drained out and knock out after my dinner, even on the sofa at the living (before having my shower).

Attendance for the alumni band is getting from bad to worse and I'm really getting very upset and disappointed about it. I agree with Andy Koh that we should have a meeting soon to settle all the problems we have and also to plan for the band's future. But when can I find time for that? I am starting to suspect my ability in controlling and getting the charge for the band. I feel like I am no longer capable in being the president of the band anymore. I really need, really really need help from people, need help from my commitee to make the band happen, to ask more people back for practice.

I have no idea what have gotten over me. Recently I'm getting very insecure. Probably due to the stress I have recently, I kinda feel of having love. I don't think I'm lacking love, but I don't know why I have this feeling, this urge in falling in love. Although I don't want to make any decision on impluse and all, but sometimes I really feel like getting into a relationship, at least there's someone who will support me, someone will lend me a shoulder to lie on, someone who care and concern me about me whenever I felt like dooms day is around.

Thinking through, I am a person who need a lot of love. I know I don't seems to be a kind, but I am that kind. I just need someone to love me, dote on me, care about me, concern about me, yet I don't want to take all those for granted and accept just anyone because I can take loneliness. This is not fair for the other party. I'm sorry for those that I've rejected so far, but I just didn't want to accept for the sake of it, and in the end hurt you even more.

Maybe it's time for me to find a fling. Haha. No commitment, no true love, just there for each other went needed. Not too bad also. Well, well.. I'm getting crazy, over the word "LOVE". Utterly crazy. Argh. My heart is so empty, waiting for someone to fill it up, but just who is suitable to fill it all up?

I'm wondering.....

love goes around | 12:21 AM