Isn't she a fairy? This is the aim toward life man!! Haha. She's my aim for living man. How can a human be so pretty, so fairy-like, so perfect. Haha. Now, who say china girl are all loud and rude, here's one which isn't.
Alright, enough of my self indulging. Recently staying home and have nothing much to do, so many things have run in my mind. Thinking about all the past, and the good old times. Alright, alright, I know that I shouldn't be poundering over the past and all but spare me this time as I have been locked home for weeks.
Thought back to my old school days during secondary school times, it's indeed fun and no-worries. Having so many friends. Relationship isn't a worry and isn't an issue to me back then. Definately, I do have many people that I fond of, and also did some hilarious things too, but then knowing there's no future, I just let go, merely let go, without regret. Even with my ex, I also just merely let go. Although I have been in misery for months and years, but well I didn't regret at all. Maybe I did regret letting him go back then coz I know I should have hold on, and if I did, I have no idea what I will be like now. Am I still with him? Will I have been with him for 7 years now?
But what so much to think of now, since we are now buddy anyway. At least I have him as my buddy, to myself. Haha. He is indeed a great friend, a great buddy whom understand me inside out, outside in. Who cares for me like a big brother. I can't imagine, if I didn't know him back then, what will my life be now? Difficult to imagine.
Growing up is a phase of life. I went successfully to poly and know a bunch of great friends there. Should I say Poly was the place where I enjoy and learn the most? I think so. Poly was indeed a place where someone learn to move on step by step towards the social university. I was glad that I joined the band. Band have although taken a lot of my private time and time that I gather together with my classmates, but through band I have know so many good friends, close friends, wonderful friends. And through band, I have learn so much, from a musicians to a leader, to an entertainer. The bonding of the people in band really makes me understand how a group of people can influence other and how working together can make a band strike their best to the peak.
I should also thank god for giving me the chance to let go of the heavy burden of my previous relationship with my buddy and get into another relationship with someone in the band, during my poly times. I understand what is love, and understand what it takes for a relationship and also the responsibility. Although it didn't last long but the moment that we had spent together were wonderful. Now we are still friends, and I am glad that he still treats me as friends.
Later on was another wonder music partner of mine. Who had always be by my side everytime I need, without fail, to cheer me up. He was always behind to support me and all. And of course he touched my heart later on. He was a very nice person, and a wonderful person too. I was foolish to have it ended but well was rather tired with whatever I have done for him. So much said, I still have enjoyed most of it.
Another guy also played a big part in my life too. This guy, who is a great singer have also show me much concern and care. I understand he have the feeling for me always but I'm so soory that we doesn't work. He has been a wonderful friend. At times, he will offer to drive me around and all. Although we have little things in common, but he is definately a great singing companion and I thank him for the countless KTV session, which helped me in improving my singing skills.
As for now, I'm just like any other normal gal out in the street. No more relationship problem and no more worries about boyfriend not showing enough concern for you. I can't deny that whenever I see couples around, I'll have this kind of envy in me and will ask myself why can't I be like them. Although will have an urge to get into a relationship seeing other couples and when watching those romance show.
Well well, so much said about my own life that changes so much, I'll end here. Enjoy the good pictures and great stories of mine. Haha. Oppx.
