It's been 4 to 5 days since my pox was diagnosed. Meaning I've been staying home for almost 4 to 5 days already. Well, should say it's a rare case seeing me at home all day long as I'm not a homely person. Staying home all day long just make me feel so restless and helpless.

Seeing my own face, make me can't help it but have this great fear. At time, I really feel like dying just then. I nearly can't recognise myself from the person I saw in the mirror. I can't say I'm a person who extremely got for my look and look after my looks as I know I'm not at all pretty, but I also can't take the fact that my face is fill with all the pox. It's really ugly, very ugly. I can't take it seeing myself so ugly.

How I want to be positive and be happier. But at times, the people at home, my mum and all kept saying "aiyo, look at your face, 2 months also won't recover" just make me feel dishearted. I wanted to be positive but all those words from them make me feel down and down. If in two weeks time my face is still that ugly, how am I going to face people when I take MRT to work, how am I going to face my classmates when I go school? How?? How??

At this point of time, I really wish that there is someone around me, console me, make me feel better. Feeling so lonely at home, feeling so helpless at home. No one to turn to. All I hear is all those negetive words frolm my parents and all. Really make me getting into tears everyday.

I am so cheerful before, but now, I hardly see my smile anymore. Tears have taken over my smile and I can't do anything.

I really need someone to console me, and tell me "don't worry, no matter what happen, you'll still have me around and support you." No matter how ugly, you'll still have me.

It's seems like even my very best buddy have left me alone, he was one of them who cares and concern about me the most before, but now, he doesn't even care anymore. Now I understand, I totally understand.

I'm all alone. Totally alone now.

Trisa a.k.a. SaSa
15th December 1984
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Full-Time Marcomm Manager
Part-Time MDIS B.S. Student
Innotec Solutions Pte Ltd
B.S. of Arts in Mass Comm - OCU



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