I Think I'm In Love With You

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Feeling kinda lost everyday when I woke up in the morning. Just having this wierd feeling which is so difficult to describe.

Well well, enough of all those lost feelings. This few days have been an extremely busy week for me at work. I hardly can leave my office before 7pm as I can't finish my work. Finally finish manually signing my 3000 letters that I have to mail out. Yes, 3000 letters, signing each of them with my hands, manually. My hand nearly drop off. Feel like I'm a star signing the albums during autograph sessions. Haha. **I'm dreaming again**

Every morning, while travelling to work, I will plug the ear piece of my phone into my ears to listen to the radio station, and everytime I listen, there bound to be a song or two that makes me think of the past. Like Eason's song, Andy's song, F.I.R.'s song, and so on. It will bring back a whole lot of memorise to my head. During then, I really wish that person is by my side, but that was the feeling then.

But it's only memories that is left in my head.

Seeing couples on the train at times makes me feel like falling in love again but, well I won't enter another relationship blindly just because I saw couples on train which make me feel the sweetness in them. I always feel the sweetness between couples when I see them and make me have the urge to get into a relationship but normally it's always a false alarm and will make me end up hurting people, or getting hurt by people.

At this point of time, i really have no idea what I want in life. Other than a good career and earning big money as well as having my certs plus knowing more friends and caring and concerning my current friends, others I have no idea at all what I want.

Realise that I still do miss that someone recently, and I know that if that someone tells me that he have a girlfriend, I'll be sad, but however I'll still bless them with good wishes if that day comes.

Sometimes, I really hate getting older, being more mature, knowing more things. I hate learning more things which make me suffer more as well. how I wish i can go back to my primary school times or must well secondary school times, which I was in secondary 2 and 3. I realise that was the most enjoyable and happy moment I have in live. No worries, no sorrow, no thinking too much. Everything just come and go and you won't feel anything. I really wish I can always be like the person I was when I was in Secondary 2/3. I miss my secondary school days, as well as my polytechnic days. My happiest moment, i should say, are captured during my secondary school and polytechnic days.

Can I go back in time? Can I just go with what come along? Can I still trust everyone beside as I do trust them now? How truthful will they be to me? Suddenly so many questions pop out of my mind. I just feel like crying right at this moment.

I'll end here. Take care!

love goes around | 11:31 PM