I Think I'm In Love With You

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Currently at my new office at Ubi entering this blog. The people here are rather nice people. They night sometimes look rather stern but well they are friendly.

Didn't do anything for the whole morning as the Managing Director was out the whole morning. Therefore, i was here reading all the brochures, going through the marketing folders and understand the products for the whole morning.

My desktop is now brand new and well didn't dare to download anything onto the desktop as it may violate the company's cat. Haha. So now, MSN I uses the ebuddy's online MSN.

Someone concluded something with me yesterday. I know I should feel happy and relieve but I have no idea why I'm actually not. When you don't have a feeling for someone, you will not feel anything. But I just have no idea why I just don't feel good when he declare something to me. I didn't sleep well for the whole of last night. Flipping around on my bed, I woke up a few times in the middle of the night.

This shouldn't be the case for me. I just didn't know what I want. And learning that matter makes me feel just like crying, but no tears came out. Think it's the cuprit of my feelings, my don't know what I want mideset.

People told me that I didn't put in effort. Yes, I was reluctant to put in any at the beginning but seeing you putting in so much, I was kinda touched a bit (since my heart turned ice cold after a break up). You claim that I put in effort and what about yours. I know and agree you did put in a lot a lot of effort into maintaining and trying to get back but you said before, just try my best day by day.

I tried and actually wanted to meet up, giving the chance to meet me too but you didn't want to. Not that I didn't. I tried to sms u already (when I'm not so busy) but your reply was just like mine. You are the one who wanted, and I accomodate. I tried and you claim that it was nothing compared to yours.

All I want is friendship as I know friends will never be apart but couples will. I'm coward enough to say that I dare not face te 4 letter word "love" anymore and that relationship thingy is making me quite numb and confused.

All I want is someone to understand me more and care more about me. You may have care and loved me but you never understands me.

Not trying to say anything but I really see your effort and I feel it. But I'm just not touched. I'm sorry! My heart is as cold as ice, no one will get to come in to my tightly clsed doors to my heart.

love goes around | 2:21 PM