Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Think I really having a mood swing this week. No idea what causes it, but just not in the mood to do anything and everything. It seems like the world is going against me yet again. I've not been feeling this bad for quite some time already, and this feeling came back to me again. Argh. Just felt sucky.
I hate myself for being like that, but I can't help it. Feeling that I'm a nusiance. Never can I be a good girlfriend, nor can I be a good friend. Not initiative in any sense makes me felt kinda so left out.
I thought December isn't my month, yet January is even worst. Thought that a new year will have better days and happier moments, but why this moody feeling's coming back to me?
I didn't want to hurt anyone, nor want anyone to be worried about me. I can't vet anything out in words, so I can only type in blog and cry out in sleep. People, don't get too affected by my mood now, coz it's not worth ya?? STay happy is the way, not like me.
Had a bad dream last night of me and someone. I hate that dream. I wanted to talk about it here but I can't. Well, it'll be my long term secret though.
Take care people, think I shall not affect your mood anymore. Stay happy and cheerful. Take care.
love goes around | 1:30 PM