I Think I'm In Love With You

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Office empty with me alone, yet again. Colleagues went out for some meeting at National Museum, won't be coming back for the rest of the day. Therefore here I am blogging away (slack a bit).

First of all, about my parents, I think they still never talk to each other. I don't know if I'm too senstitive or am I thinking too much. I somehow can't recall if they do talk to each other casually in the past, maybe they didn't really talk to each other much too, just that I didn't really. Until the quarrel evolved, then I feel something is wrong which was the cause of the quarrel and me thinking too much. Didn't dare to ask mum about how is she and dad, I scared that I'll hurt mum. Sigh. Just hope that they will talk more. Will continue to help dad search for more relieve driver and I believe when dad found a new relieve driver, he will not be so vexed and stressed up, which will make him relax more and talk more.

Sometimes I feel that my character is just like my dad. At times, we are really quite die-heart and stubborn at our own decisions. Whenever we are angry, we will rather not talk to that person. Dad has a bad temper, so do I, just that I seldom vent it out. But another good point of dad and me is we will hold on the something very long if we like it, and will be very excited with anything er discover new. Haha. Well, like father, like daughter.

Had an online chattingwhore "The Night is Still YOUNG's - Gossip 38 Club" last night. Conferencing to four people at one time. Quite messy and confusing at times, especially when you leave the window and come back, you'll hardly catch up with the topic.

Just before the chattingwhore started, me and MT was chatting casually. As my nick sounded wierd, MT asked me who was that. (for the pleasure who didn't see my nick - "Happie Birthdae My Dearest Buddy.. Enjoy Your Day.. Muackz.. Oppx.. Haha..) Well, my buddy, many will know who la, for those who don't, just regard him as JH la.

Well, it was his birthday yesterday. Then well, just wished him happy birthday and all. MT was asking me if we will be back together again. Well, definately I say no coz I think if we are fated to be together, we will be together long time back already. I told her he told me a lot of time he will not fall for me, and so I'll not fall for him. No point falling for a person who will not fall for you, which will only make youself suffer. It's quite good to have a good buddy beside me, to be there for me, to understand me so well (inside out, outside in). Other than him, there's no other person who can understand me so well, how I think, my character, everything. MT replied that there is no definate answer to love, many things are unpredictable. Well, true to that, once the feel come, you want to kick it away also difficult.

Well, sometimes, I feels that having a friend like him is better to have a boyfriend like him. Although he will understand me and all, but I don't know, just feel that couples will one day seperate, but friends, will be there with you forever, especially when he is so close to me, so dear to me.

Well, got him a pants for his birthday like I said in my previous entry and he send me an sms saying "I'm the most important woman in his life", which I told MT about it. And claimed that although he said that I'm the most important woman in his life, doesn't mean he will fall for me or like me. I don't know what will happen in future to us, and I didn't want to conclude anything. Many of my friends may feel the same way as how MT feel, that we will one day be together or what, or we are so close until we are like couples, but at this moment, the time is just not right, and I am quite sure that we won't be together.

Sometimes, things are just not fated to be what you wish, or what you want it to be. So let it be how it wants to be, no point forcing. Haha. Having someone who cares is similarly good too, isn't it?

Anyway, later will be going of a KTV session with my buddy, JH. Haha. thinking we going together, and only the two of us?? So romantic right?? Haha, but well... Nah.. not going alone with him la, we have another guy coming along, GQ. Wahaha. We all good friends from SWE (previously). Haha. Cool. He will be paying for me, so happy!!! Muhahaha..

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love goes around | 3:52 PM