Monday, January 22, 2007
Hate the state I'm in now. Hate myself right at this moment. Can't even see a glimpse of my cheerful sight now.
Trying to be strong in front of my parents is the only way I can do, to not let them worry about me. Therefore, I don't feel like staying home for a single moment, don't feel like being home early. I'm outside now, and hope that I'll never be able to go home. How I wish I stay alone now, so that I can go home as and when I like.
Hoping for the America trip to come as soon as possible, hoping it will be just tomorrow. Didn't want to stay in this island that made me feel so pain.
Didn't want my friends to be affected by me, but guess my blog entries have affected those who have read it. Apologises. If it does made ur mood swings, then please leave, I don't want to affect you.
This is the only place I can pour all my sadness and sorrow out, so let me be.
I'm just like an empty soul walking around.
Don't have the feel to take in anything food now, therefore I didn't eat. Slept last night and I regretted coz I yet again cried to sleep. I hate myself for tearing so easily. Now, not only am I back to the person I was 2 years ago, but back to the old person I was 5-6 years ago.
I need a break. A long long break!!
love goes around | 2:21 PM