Thursday, November 23, 2006
Mixed feeling now, yet again?? I know I shouldn't have this type of feeling now coz I should be enjoying myself now from getting out of misery, by why??
What I want for myself now? I really have no idea. I have no idea whether if I am the one who doesn't dare go for what I want anymore, or I have no guts to face people who treat me well. Good thing is I have my good friends but all are so busy, and I am busy too, we seldom have much time out to talk about things.
Sigh, enough of all those demoralising thoughts. Back to track.
I got my printer ink yesterday after work. Meet up with Jacky at CWP, which made me a bit pissed when he told me he went home without even informing me (which in fact, it's just a joke but I don't get the joke). I walked very fast, leaving him behind. Oppz. Sorry, didn't mean it but the people really walked too slow already, and also a bit of angry. Whatever it is, we when home together. Thanks for meeting me, and waiting for me as usual ya.
Work today was quite busy, with not only work but also affected by band's ticket design, which is needed to be rushed out. I have to do all those in a short time frame and at the same time beware that my upper position people might see. Stress~~
Today, Jacky seems quite unhappy wor, as in sms, chatting and all, seems like something is bothering him. I also duno what is bothering him, coz he never tell me, or just say he is fine. My apologies that I can't got for your request becuase there is really a lot of things for me to do at work, and I cannot always take leave, even though I'm at an OTOT (own time, own target) kinda environment. Really sorry.
Now kinda not feeling very well. Felt so breathless. It's been quite some time I have this feeling of no enough breath and it's coming back again. Sigh. Think having some gastric pain also. Argh. I had all my meals today, 3 meals all had but why like that?? Affected by mood?? Sigh...
Think better turn in. Hopefully nothing bad happen later on when I'm in bed.
love goes around | 11:56 PM