Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Did anyone miss my blog entry after me not blogging for one day? My apologies, wasn't feeling very well yesterday as I'm feeling very restless the whole day, with my body aching all over and head spinning just like a globe. It's just not my day yesterday.
Went for work yesterday and then home. Didn't have much insteresting happenings yesterday. Moo smsed me telling me he was depressed and stuff on Sunday night as well as yesterday afternoon. I was like so guilty coz he is making me feel like I'm the cause of it. I believe he knows, and I told him I still do care for him. It's just other than our status from attached changed to single, nothing much has changed. I will still talk to him, lend him my shoulder to lean on when he need and of course lend him my listening ears. I can't lose this music partner of mine. I don't want to see him like that, therefore I counsel him for quite awhile before he promise not to think of those bad and pessimistic things. I want the old him, the old Moo that I know, not the Moo now, who is always think he is good for nothing.
Made Jacqueline a bouquet of flowers. I don't think it's very beautiful as compared to the sunflowers I made, but hey, it's the heart that counts right? Hee. Here are some pictures of the flowers.
I made these all by myself wor.. Cool??After that, I watched TV awhile and turned in.
Same routine again today, work in the morning at 10am. Went to Spizza for lunch as we helping Rang to celebrate her Marriage as she is leaving for India to get marry soon. But the food there wasn't that nice, I still like Pastamania's Spicy Chicken Fusilli and DXO Special Pizza. Hee.
Think I had made Ho really quite pissed off. I'm so sorry. I didn't want to make you feel irritated and stuff, but I seeing you like care for me so much, I can't take it. I'm afraid I'll fall for you. That's why I kept saying things that might seems quite hurtful to you and stuff. I'm utterly sorry. I just want to have friends who can share thoughts with me now. I'm not suitable to be in another relationship yet, not now.
I don't deny that being love is a very good feeling, and it's alays better than loving someone that doesn't really love you, just like Ho. I know he cares a lot for me, but I really don't dare move on into another relationship again. I afraid that I'll break people's heart again, hurt them again, or even people hurt me again.
Of course, I wish I could just have a simple relationship, with both parties loving each other, but now I really don't am I ready for another relationship again or not. I don't have confidence, and no one is giving me this confidence. I don't have the trust to relationship anymore. Till someone give me the confidence and trust, will I start building up my feelings further.
Later, I'll be going for KTV. Yes, finally it's KTV time. I realise, after getting a bit closer to Ho, I have the habit of going KTV. It seems like I have to go KTV and sing every week, if not it's like and addictor not able to get their drugs like that. Ho, must accompany me sing k? Hee.
This Friday will be going DXO again. I promise I'll not get drunk this time round. Haha. Alright, gota get going with my work. Bye.
love goes around | 2:24 PM
