Saturday, October 14, 2006
Went for singing yesterday night (with Elvin, Kris, Trendy, Suvin, Catherine, Kenny and Eileen), of course we drink too. Going to such places will never run away from drinking, especially with them. Haha.
Quite an enjoyable night I would say, except the last part of the gathering. Almost everyone was drunk, or should I say half of the group was badly drank.
Seeing my best friend in poly so deep in sorrow, I myself can't controlled my tears. They just rolled down automatically as I see her cried in sorrow, so bitterly. I really hate myself right at that time because I really can't do anything to stop her. I understand her feeling, but then seeing one of your close friends so sad, you will not be controlled and blame yourself for being useless because you can make her smile and stuff.
In the end, I gave up in consoling her, just let her cry all her heart out, shout all she can. I know she have been keeping all this sadness in her for so long. If my buddy pass away just like that, I know I'll not be as strong as her now. I seems to be strong, but I'm not. I really look up on her. Even if she is sad, she is deep in sorrow, she will still ask me "Am I alright?", "Am I able to go home??".
Thinking back, I had really didn't been there for her when she needed, partly because she never once want her friends to worry for her. I love her, and I mean it. I hate seeing her like that. It makes my heart bleed.
Gal, you know who you are if you read my blog. I know you are sad, I know you have tried very hard to be as strong as you should. Of course I hate seeing you sad, but if really you need someone's shoulder to cry on or lay on, come look for me. Although I'm not as strong (you know best), but I can always lend you one, and of course, we can cry together. You know I'm best at crying. So don't hesitate, text me when you need me. I'll rush down for you!! AND I MEAN IT.
love goes around | 2:45 PM