I Think I'm In Love With You

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I was in a sleeping mood yesterday, and it was for the whole day. Probably due to the drink the night before. Woke up at around 12nn and rush to bath and headed out for bandroom coz after I leave the things in the bandroom, I have to run and look for my keys. Yes, my keys. They were lost the nigt before outside the KTV pub.

Luckily, I found them! Couldn't see the sight of my key pouch, then went to ask the uncle at the shop in front of the place we sat there on Friday night. He then dig from his barang barang box and ask if it was the one. I saw the pouch, and a smile on my face immediately show. Uncle ask me to check if anything is lost, which I told him the most important thing was the keys. After thanking him several times, I went over to the opposite of the road to flag a cab to school as I know if I took a bus, I'll be very late.

Reached school earlier than I expected, and rush all my way to the bandroom. To open the bandroom door in suprise, I got a shock that there were so many people in the bandroom. Gosh~ I never see the alumni band practice bandroom so full before. I know from then on, laoshi is quite happy (can just see from his face expression). Although I'm very happy to see so many people for alumni practice, but also gave me a fear that after this practice, the coming practice will not be the same again, meaning no people attend for practice again, then what's the point?

I love seeing a big band, the feeling is really different. I also love seeing laoshi happy, it'll make you enjoy practice too.

After that went for dinner at AMK. We had a VIP table sia. Haha. Guan Han and David took cab and they found a table which is quite out of the place at S11, which is so prominent that at one glance, you'll definately see US. I had Spicy Seafood Ramen and Lime Plum Juice. After meals, we sat there chit-chat awhile and split ways, with some going home and some going for some arcade games.

Played a game of DDR and a game of Pop & Music before heading home. Went home exceptionally early which seldom happen on a Saturday. After my shower, I on the com and do some emails and stuff before I knock out.

Gave Moo 2 messages on his phone, but didn't get any responds from him. From time to time throughout my sleep, when I flip on my bed, I'll check my phone and it's silent, no replies and responds from him. Think I checked my phone for at least 3-4 times. When finally I woke up at around 12.30pm, I checked again and still, no responds.

I admit I was angry and upset at the same time. gave him another sms asking "Did you receive my sms?? Why can't even reply me and give me an anknowledgement to know that you got my sms??"
Idiotic Moo gave me such an excuse that he was busy with the scores just now. I smsed him last night and he told me he was busy with scores just now. What's that? So I replied him once and for all "What just now? I sms u last night, not just now. nevermind then. That's it. Don't have to reply. Continue with your scores." He did replied and say,"don't like that lah... sorry..."

I didn't reply him. And I want to be firm with it. I didn't want to reply him, I didn't want to sms him, anymore. today was our 1yr 8mth together and he made me angry and upset. I didn't want that to affect my mood, and it did. Shit. I didn't mind him not accompanying me, I didn't mind him not saying Happy Anniversary to me, I didn't mind him going for band, I didn't mind him for playing games and reading comics, I didn't mind him from doing scores, I didn't mind him not calling me, didn't mind him not smsing me during weekdays. I had already control myself a lot for not being angry, but why?? Why can't he just reply my sms?? Just a few clicks on the phone keypad to reply me really so difficult?

What am I?? Am I just something, someone that when he needed to tell me sorrows then he will sms me?? Am I?? I'm having the feeling of being used by him, and really I did. I just don't feel the importance of me to him. I'm like lined at the back of his list, the last priority, after his family, his games, comics, sleep, band, bunk mates, everything. Argh... I feeling so sucky now. I'll end here.

love goes around | 3:25 PM