I Think I'm In Love With You

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Had a long long week, a busy week I could say. I am filled up to the brim with all the task from work, as well as my assignment for my Research Methodology module. I am getting rather tired and drained out soon.

Working at Raffles Place, MayBank Tower, on the 22nd Floor (FR8 Singapore Pte Ltd). The view there is superb. If I were there working earlier, I would have been at the best position to view the Fireworks. No blockage, nothing, only blue sky and skyscape. Cool~

Know a few fun-loving colleagues from the temp job there. They are a bunch of crazy, and insane people who never fails to make me laugh all the way from the beginning of the day to the end of the day. Without them, my temp job will definately be boring. Nice knowing them though. Hee.

Darling had made some cookies for me on Saturday, and it tasted very nice and delicious. Never knew that he could bake that well, being it as his first attempt I guess. Met him on Wednesday again, which is yesterday and he made another thing for me to eat again. This time round is sweets. I had some and it's a Mango flavoured sweets. Nice though, other than it being too sweet. Gave me so much, want me to have diabeties arh?? Haha. But that was sweet of him lah, making food and snacks for me to eat.

Went to Marina Square with him and brought him to the BAB Noodles at Millenia Walk to taste the food there. Food there is priced reasonably, somemore good service without service charge. After that went to Candy Empire and back to Marina Square, where darling went to Giant to get some chicken meat for his cooking the next day.

He had a 3 days leave, and I only get to see him for one day. My friend know that he had leave, but I only manage to see him once, said that the leave he took was not planned properly, and feel that he should plan things before hand. Sigh.

He say if he is still in army, he will take leave when his girlfriend is having leave so that they will have more time together. But I doubt darling ever wants to spend more time with me. No idea why, nowadays I felt so wired going around with him. It's like we are having less and less things to talk about, and also nothing much for us to do together. Even if we go out, we only went for dinner and that's all. I do feel like shopping but he never ever asked or suggest to go shop around before going home. Sigh. I have no idea is it could I have been tired about the relationship or what, but I have no doubt in my feelings for him, it's just that I need something that could like make me excited and happy. Realised that I hardly get happy nowadays. What happed?? I have no idea too.

Probably having mood swing recently too. Getting too depressed and stressed out with my stuff and my work. Seeing my colleague meeting her boyfriend every day for lunch, made me so envy. Seeing my guy colleague being togther with his girlfriend for 8 years and planning to get marry, make me so jealous also. Why can others be so romantic, and hold on to a relationship like that which I can't. What exactly happen to our relationship, or rather, is there something happening to me?? I think I am the major problem, not him. I feel that I am really aiming for a guy who really can love me, concern about me and dote on me all the time. I need the feel of love, and not status. Maybe I'm moving into a stablized point where I am serious with everything. I just need someone who understands me.

Getting crazy man!! think I'll get going to turn in. Before I cry to sleep again. Argh!! Take care guys.

love goes around | 12:40 AM