I Think I'm In Love With You

Monday, May 15, 2006

Was busy doing with the contact list for the Alumni Band today. It wasn't as easy as I think it could be. Tabulating and amending the numbers as well as the alignment can take me a day. Went to ask some guest players to help play for the upcoming concert too. Respond was so far so good.

Had a conversation with "M" yesterday night and it became something that is so big that it seems like we can't talk anymore. I was just stating the fact about everything. And what she feel was all just an insult to her. Well, is stating the fact an insult? If that is, I'll not state the fact next time, and I'll apologise if I really did insulted you. To me, apologising isn't a difficult thing, as long as I'm wrong, I'm more than willing to apologise. I just didn't want things to turn sour just like this. I know you are working and can't commit to the Alumni Band practice, but all I wish for is you to at least attend practice for once or twice in a month, so that I could help say something for you. I believe you didn't want people to say that you are "professional" player, and you didn't want to be a "professional" player too in that sense. All I wish for is to find a solution and solve the problem.

Sometimes, I just hate being at the top position, handling all this craps and problems which arise and arise with no ending. Settled with this, that started. Can I just be a normal member? Sigh. But since I've been appointed that post, I'll have to do it well and keep it going, and try to unite the committee and the band. I know very well that the Alumni Band is united, and they have more discipline. And I do like the committee members of the Alumni Band. I like everything about the Alumni Band, but I don't want any conflict, with anyone, be it alumni band members or current members. All I hope for is to settle things peacefully and in good terms. Nothing could be settled if one party is there always keeping quiet and not telling what is their problem. It's not the time to play the heart game.

I'm so sorry to "J" that due to this matter, her relationship with "M" was foul. I'm really guilty of it. I was thinking that she may have understand her better and talk to her in a way that things could be settled. I'm really sorry. I know you are pissed at that very moment, but please talk nicely to her and solve everything soon. I didn't want to see you and her being enemies due to that small matter between me and her.

Well, tomorrow I'll be going to do up my damage hair. Hope that my hair will see the lights of beuaty again.

Miss you so much darling. With so many problems floating around me, it makes me feel the misses even more. How I wish you are there to help me through and tell me not to worry, you'll be by my side. Miss you so much.

love goes around | 1:58 AM