I Think I'm In Love With You

Monday, May 01, 2006

It's my last day of my 6 days full shift work. Hurray!!! Finally I can rest and sleep longer. Initially planned to watch Joe Cheng's variety show before I sleep, but look at the time now, sigh.. think I should forget about it.

Well, was rather bored in the shop today. I did a major clean up for the shop as well as reshuffle of product display, coz many products sold out already. Nearing evening time, I can tolerate any longer, so I started to SMS my darling, with an anger tone in my SMS, saying:"you got your games don't need me liao le lo?? Don't even have an SMS from you to show some concern one leh.."
Well, to my amazed, he replied almost instantaneously with this:"no lah.. you working today??"
With that, I really feel very irritated. Didn't he know that I was working full shift for the past 6 days? Even normal friends like Lewis, Karen, Jun Hong know that I am working full shift for 6 days till 1st May, but him. Then I replied:"hump.. wo bu li ni le.. hump!!!"
What he replied was just a""don't like that lah.."
I didn't reply his SMS after that. Actually I am not that angry after all, just that I'm not happy with the insensitive him. I'm just not happy with the way he SMS me.

Shortly after, I went to buy dinner for myself. Back at my shop and after I finish up my food, I had my fruit. While eating my piece of fruit, I saw him walking into the shop (was kinda shocked, actually). I continued with my irritated attitude and asked how he know that I'm working. He said just trying his luck, walk past see if I'm there or not. Gave him a look that I'm not happy, and all he said was,"don't be like that lah". After awhile of talking, which he did most of them, he left, without saying bye to me.. =( He just say he meed to leave and went off.

At the moment, I was both angry and sad. Why he like that. Don't even know how to coax people one leh. I always thought he improved alot, and gave him higher and higher marks as a boyfriend, but now..... think his marks have been deducted, a lot. I am so angry, and irritated. Why did I have a boyfriend like that one. I can tell you, he spend his time with his games more than me. He will rather stay home play games than come out meet me, I can bet with you. He once said, army guys will cherish their book out time and stay home, especially cherish being home. Fine, I understand that coz he is unable to book out everyday. But at least send some regards to me mah. An SMS or a phone call so difficult meh?? Why must I always be the one to SMS him?? Why must I be the one to ask him if he miss me or not?? Why can't he one day just SMS me to tell me he love me?? I never ever hear him say he love me before, never ever see his SMS with the word Love you before. Sad... Sad... Sad... =(

Humans are always like this. When ever they get something, they will never cherish it, when they have the chance to. Only when they lose it, and can't get it back then they know what is cherish, and staying there at the spot and regret not cherishing it. What for?? When there is a time for you to cherish something, cherish it when you can, why must you leave it to chance to cherish it and when the chance is not there, you blame yourself for not cherishing and hope that time will turn around. No point, really no point.

Life has to move on, I have to move on. Just heard that my GP Oral Presentation is on 9th May, but not confirm yet coz I have yet to receive any email from my co-ordinator. And also just learn the news that my course co-ordinator has quit her job. How can she quit her job before I lodge my complain letter to her?? Sigh. I just finish wirting the letter today. Anyway, I hope that my new course co-ordinator will be much much more efficient than Shanta.

After complaining and getting out my anger and frustration, it's time for me to sleep. Goodnight people.

love goes around | 2:32 AM