Wednesday, May 03, 2006
It's an entry about my feelings today. No idea why I wanted to enter down my feelings now, but I just feel like typing it all out.
No one to turn to say all my unhappiness out, and also didn't want to "disturb" people with my nonsense, so I just keep it all in - myself.
Didn't know why I havethis sudden feel of sadness. I can't explain it too. I should be happy, with all the programmes that I had today, but exactly opposite, I'm feeling rather down.
I don't know whether is it that I'm having PMS (which I seldom do), or I have lack of care and concern. I admit that after several relationships, especially my last few ones, I can't live properly without being under someone's care. I can be very independent at times, but I realise that I can't when it comes to relationship.
I don't understand, really don't. Am I really angry and irritated with
him that is so insensitive? Or am I feeling that I'm neglected by
him? Guess I'm falling too deep in love with
him already, resulting me feeling so wierd and strange without
his presence, without
his SMS. Why must I be so deeply in love with this guy. Why can't I live my life without this guy? How can I continue my life without
him by my side? What will happen when I go overseas for my on-campus studies for 3 weeks?
Can someone teach me how not to miss
him so much?? The more I miss, and the more I didn't get any news or SMS from
him, the more I'll get myself feeling more and more unhappy. How?? How?? I want to be happy. I don't want my feelings to affect him. And I also want
him to be happy too, although I know he is now.
love goes around | 1:31 AM