I Think I'm In Love With You

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

I'm here today again.. I'm getting hook onto this blog already, why?? Coz I can see my favourite artiste.. Muhahaha..

Well, no lah, actually is because I feel that blogspot is not that difficult to use after all, or maybe is because I have grown up, and began to know how to think deeper.

Recently thinking through some matters, about friends, family and even relationships. Many a times I hope that I could be by my friend's side when they are down and when they need me, but when they really need me, where am I?? I once told one of my buddy (actually I only have one buddy) that I'll be by his side whenever he needs me, 24/7, but did I do it?? Never?? I am starting to doubt myself. I just feel that I'm only saying something for the sake of saying. I never do anything in action.

After thinking through this, I come to this conclusion that why I always say without doing. That's because I doesn't want to see them sad, and I doesn't want to face them sad. I know I can't hold back my tears and I can't do anything with my emotionality. I really really whis that I could be there for all my friends, especially my close friends.

As for family, I realise that I have never tell any of my family members about how much I love them. After watching a variety show interviewing "Joe Chang" (yes, it's him again), I realise that many times, only when you lose something, you will then begin to cherish it. It happens all over, and this is just human nature.

I am not a person who loves sweet talking and not a person who show my concerns to someone easily. I just have this phobia, no idea why too. So the next time you see me don't care don't bother, don't think that I really don't care don't bother, coz deep down in me, i am really very worried and concern about each and everyone of you whom are connected to me. You cry, I cry, you sad, I'll be sad.

Lastly, in relationship. I know that I can't handle a relationship very well though I might have been through several relationships before. I had 3 serious relationship up to date now and I really cherish each and every one of it. Sometimes, I might not show concern to my partner too, and I might have neglected them too, but I really really doesn't mean it. To me, love and friends are equally important, and if I side either side, I'll lost either of the other side. All I want is to have a smooth relationship and a happy and fairy tale type of relationship (though it's rediculous).

Everytime I watch Taiwan Drama Series, I'll feel so sweet and so happy for the lady in the show. They can have the love from the guy and are really in love. Sometimes, though it may bitter in the beginning, but when the story is ending, you'll still see how sweet they are. Well, I envy them maybe coz I didn't have the chance or rather not have the chance of getting court by guys. But what to complain, the more I conplain, the more faluts i'll be digging out. So better not complain.

Well, I have many to say but guess I have type a long entry. I'll continue tomorrow, meanwhile I'll have to start on my project (yes.. I have not started it yet though I said I wanted to start yesterday).

Take care.

love goes around | 10:24 PM