I Think I'm In Love With You

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Feeling bored in my shop, so started writing my thoughts on paper now. Ordered a book from Reader's Digest costing $89, teaching readers how to write and speak better. Indeed, the book is a brilliant book. Why did I say so? Because I really feel that I learn a lot from this book. It's really worth the price, and the book can be kept for life.

Looking at some guys who shop in my shop and realise that some guys really do shop for their girls. I came across one guy yesterday, coming in to the shop to buy a box to put a bag, which I suspect is for his girlfriend. Seeing guys picking gifts and accessories for their partne, you can feel a sudden warmth at your heart, why? Coz they really make you feel so happy, even thought the gift is not for me.

Thoughts of mine runs abit and some unpleasant thinking I should say came gushing in. Sometimes I do think, having a 100% trusting boyfriend isn't always perfect. I admit that I want a guy who trust me, but with a guy who trust me so much that he won't bother about my whereabout and whether I'm out with other guys isn't that good after all. Whyisn;t he afraid that I'll split lages?? Why isn't he afraid that I fall in love with other guys (like Jun Hong, whom I'm very close with)? Why isn't he afraid that one fine day, I might be gone and he done even know (or may the last to know)? May whys came running in and I suppose no answers are found to it as yet.

My feel now is just like some dead person. All numb, don't feel anything. The only thing I feel now is that me and him (as in my darling) is more like friends rather than couples. We can, in one/two weeks not SMS each other, not talk to each other, nothing.

Did I made wrong choice? So what if I did? It's my choice, who can I blame? Maybe I'm too sensitive. Or maybe I'm a think-too-much type of person.

Alright, out of this topic. Mummy asked me when I buying my new mobile phone, coz she said still owe me $200 for my last year's birthday present. I told her there isn't a need to coz she has already bought me a laptop. I shouldn't ask for do much.

I got my progress package money already. YEAH!! Decided to use that money to buy handphone & for my driving lessons. Mummy knows that I have extra money in my account, asked me to buy her Mother's Day gift. Well, I don't mind buying her the gift if she don't mind accepting it, just go and pick one and I'll pay. Really!!! It's for you Mummy.

I'll go to 'Accent' to buy my mouthpiece & ligature very soon, next week or the week after. I finally have my very own Bass Clarinet Mouthpiece & Ligature. Hurray!!! But $200++ will be gone after that. *SAD*

Hope today will be a smooth day throughout. Continue my reading on "How to Write & Speak Better".

love goes around | 12:34 AM